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Fuck you! Its been six years. Six long years and here i am still thinking about you. About the way you looked, the way you smelled, the way you looked with the sun beams shining in your face going 80 on the freeway. you were the one. The one i was supposed to be with. you had the look and the style. you left me gifts in my car you were so FUCKING sweet to me. I had it all with you. a good life a life i was supposed to and wanted to live with you. you were FUCKING EVERYTHING TO ME. But I fucked it all up. i left. its all my fault or maybe you would still be here. i left when you were at your lowest and it breaks my heart more that i did that to you. I SHOULD OF FUCKING BEEN THERE!!!! I FUCKING LOVED YOU AND I LEFT!! Granted you had cheated on me there was something i knew i could break i just needed to show you i wasn't like the rest...... but i was. but here we are six years later i have a new life with a new man and you have a life with two babies. you named your girl the name we picked out. idk why but i wish i knew. I never got my babies and probably never will. you have the good job and nice house and cars and things i always wanted and looked for. we would be so great together i could make you coffee every morning i could make your lunch for work i could do all these things for you, but i loved you and i left. SIX FUCKING YEARS and i still miss you, i still want you, and damn it i just want to get over you, but i cant. how long is this going to take? how long do i have to hurt? do you still think of me? or did you forget me? i know you don't hurt like this over me. so why do i for you? six years.....and i still love you....

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i love healing i don’t wanna be a miserable fuck

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Alone

i know I'm not alone but sometimes when its late at night and I'm sitting in silence i feel alone. When he's asleep and all I'm left with my thoughts... that's when I'm alone. i don't think he understand how much my mind runs all the time running a marathon in circles in my head i get lost sometimes don't know where i am. Sometimes i just sit and think for hours, staring at the wall with no real thought. I always wish that sometimes it would all just stop. All the voices, all the sounds, just all the bad. I feel so wrong sometimes. He tells me how i fucked up and how I've been act "different" i don't get it though i feel the same/ I feel like iv been acting the same so when he says "you're different" i feel myself just collapse inside i feel like I'm the fault of everything i feel like maybe if i just wasn't so fucking stupid at times then maybe i wouldn't be the cause of all his problems even though he tells me at the end of the day that everything's okay i know he is lying and i know i am wrong. I just don't wanna be alone, and lately that's all i feel is alone...

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✞ 666 ✞

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This photograph shows the body of Hannelore Schmatz on Mount Everest. She was a German mountaineer who set off in 1979 to conquer the world's highest peak. She was successful, and became the fourth woman to reach the summit.

During her descent, however, she succumbed to exhaustion just 330 below the South Summit. This is near the infamous Death Zone - an area of the mountain known for it's harsh conditions and lack of oxygen. Despite the best efforts of Hannelore's team, she couldn't make it down. She died in a seated position leaning up against her backpack.

Hannelore's frozen body became a landmark as it's deemed too dangerous to recover her body. However, over the years, her body was moved from the main trail by wind and avalanches, and is no longer visible to hikers summiting Everest today.

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“He calls me his buddy… and he touches me!”

Bobby: 😨😨😨😟😟🤨🤨

Buck: “NO NOT LIKE THAT—“

Weird ass firefighters man

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moodboard :

colby as ghostface

What's your favorite scary movie? I'm asking because you're in one now. You're in my movie.

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My dream autumn cabin🤎

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Līga Kļaviņa-Raiska

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My oil painting of an Uncrustable

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I’ve spent so much time in my head and in my heart that I forgot to live in my body.

Tara Hardy

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