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[[‼️⚠️VENT // RANT⚠️‼️]]

TW; religious tra/ma

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So I was bawling my eyes out today and told my mom (Christian) about the hallucinations I had today at school and the constant headaches and bedrotting I had done. Told her I was scared it was a disease and I wouldn't make it, she told me she's take me to the pediatrician.

I know she loves me and wishes the best for me. She's trying her best, and she's a strong, independent woman I'd WANT to admire and aspire to be....

But my scared sobbing went to saddened sobbing. I'll just give screenshots.

(HEADS-UP; when I took the two screenshots, and I was going to mark the ones I needed covered but I accidentally tapped them away on both of them so PLEASE ignore them I'm too tired to even do it..)

She STILL hasn't responded since 4:43pm when I SENT her that.

Only my dad knows about me being a Hellenist and knows my gf is too. We are both proud Hellenists. So telling my mom this was SCARY. It is 5:02pm RIGHT NOW

Im tempted to apologize to her but then again the religious trauma I endured caused me to be an atheist at 8. And later become a Hellenist at 13. Never told her. My dad supports me and my world history teacher too, and my friend group.

I love my mom guys but sometimes I feel like I'm two-faced around her. I haven't even TOLD any of my family members I became TRANSMASC... knowing damn well I could barely FATHOM what they would do— but it's not like they'd beat me for it. Probably just give me nasty looks since it's "their religion and God told them to only be with man and woman"... and I think if I were 18 it would be a lil different rn.

And I'm lying to my friends and my own MUSHROOMGENDER LOVER that she respects me for who I am to make them not hate her because I SEE HER DIFFERENTLY WHEN ITS NOT LIKE THIS... she's kind, sweet, will tell you the answer without sugar-coating shit, and she's funny and I got my alt music taste from HER... I love her, and as much as I want to vent about her being this toxic but I also care about her image. I'm tainting the image of the very woman who stood there raising me and my little sister when our dad left when I was seven. And when she says something overprotective or sumn I lie and say it's finance or a fucking agenda to THEIR faces or on discord. I'm sick of lying but I want them to not see my mom just on this side.

It actually breaks my heart to not get validation or support when I mention shit like this. I may be breaking their God's law but at least I'd be happier.

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I do wonder if I made her very sad... or very mad... she still hasn't texted back and it's 5:16pm.

Whatever, I'm gonna end this. Thanks for letting a therapeutic friend vent to GODS knows how many people would see this, but take this as awareness of toxic Christians... if anyone does happen to know me or any of my IRL friends personally no tf you don't.

I feel more sad than hurting in the head. Anyway thanks again for letting me get this off my chest. And please don't hurt me or her if you know us because of my vent

I love her so much even through these times. It's very rare to experience these things

Also might not post for a while unless it's an update !! Bye!

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Recent art I'm SUPER proud of

BTW the last one was JUST done a few minutes ago (2am)

Also I did use a body pose on the last one fight me

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Needed this so bad u don't KNOW 🙏🏻❗️

PazuRibe/PuzzReve Delinquents Part Six - Ueno

Left to Right: Kuga, Ishizuka, Busujima

[Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Bonus, Bonus 2]

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Sooo I drew Mr. Crawling

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BRO 😭

My Rapefren ranking, going from least to meast:

Sebastian - Respects women. Nyon - Let's be real, he'd tie with Sebastian, but he might want to fool around with someone while they're both under the influence.

Luther - No sexual drive. Might do something rapey because he assumed it's what humans want, would immediately stop once you make your displeasure known. Apologizes and makes it up somehow.

Nana - Is vore rape if the vorer is into it?

Satoru - In a new low, might've done stuff with decaying dream Randal before ending it.

Robert Tomahawk - Ratman pheromones, revenge. Pushy.

Hitchhiker B - Hear me out. Wouldn't stop if things got heated and someone tries to back out. He would remind them that they wanted this, and praise them. Subtle gaslighter.

Randal - Rapist, but quirky. Might turn you into a literal sex doll.

Nyen - Rapist maximus. He knows it hurts. He wants it to. You should count yourself lucky if you live.

Flower guy from Lucid 1 - Rape-O-Meter off the charts. Like most icecream men.

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SOB

Randal trying not to laugh when Nyen swings on Nyon for stealing food from him and Nyen calling him a fat hoe.

(Randal would record the fight and send it to Satoru and Scarecrow kid.)

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Need this bedroom STAT

nostalgic and peaceful feeling

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Loaf nyon

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Who wanna sub to my YT imma keep glazing it everywhere just in case anyone interested

ALSO IF YOU HAVE SONG RECOMMENDATIONS TO SPED UP ON MY YT JUST COMMENT/ASK AND I WILL ♡

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Clothe-swap Nyena and my Foxman oc Kieran

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Maow

Kitty cat…..

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AWWW

To touch on daturastramoniumfan96 theory/headcanon. I think when Luther was younger, he lost his parents in the Human and Cryptid conflict all the way back (because yknow Luther is old asl😭) but while Luther was travelling through the war and defending himself, he heard a baby cries. He saw a crying cryptid with orange hair (Randal), I can say that Luther immediately took him and tried to soothe it while the war is happening. Luther gets reminded of his parents while carrying the baby so he swears to protect it from the dystopian world. I can imagine Luther singing a lullaby to comfort Randal from his cries, I always imagine Luther was powerful but hides his power when he grew older. Idk in my opinion Randal and Luther are brothers but it's interesting to see that Luther adopted him to protect him.💗

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Nyen makes me think of male karens from grocery stores or shopping stores

—🐁anon

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SOBBING REAL WHAT

The amount of family photos Luther would take on the trip in LA, on the Santa Monica pier, food, beaches and even Randal wearing those oversized jerseys at Nikes or them taking a family photo of them in Hollywood.

Imagine them being in a basketball game and the camera points at them, Randal's ass would be waving and screaming at the camera😭

Nyen would be screaming on top of his lungs in a basketball game, his ass would be pounding his chest when they make a hoop😭

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random confession list cause I ain't sending these one by one

I like seeing the chaos that Randal puts upon Luther, it forces Luther to think outside the box

I feel like teasing Nyon would be really cute or he's getting off to it

Nyen would probably punt a child if given the chance (maybeee)

I wanna see Nana to combing her hair

I would hug the life out of kitty

consume cousin frank like the little gremlin he is

get a ride with slippy van rainbow cause dude got free food

And Lastly

I feel like Luther likes girls not romantically but in a "aww, look at how pretty this little human is, I could just eat her up" and he does

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Reposting my Brak art since I forgot the green in his eyes (+ reference)