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I think I love you, I can't explain it but I feel like I've known you all my life. It's like love at first sight.

No, you don't love me and I'm sorry but I don't know anything about you. I don't know who you are and you don't know anything about me. I don't believe in love at first sight and I'll tell you why. I've jumped into a relationship with both feet before, thinking he's the one. This is who I want to spend my life with and I gave up alot to be with that person. But I didn't know anything about this person and in the end he turned out to be someone entirely different from what I was lead to believe. If you think you're in love, great, I'm flattered but maybe get to know me first before making that decision.

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I was thinking about how to put outfits together and I was amazed at how changing one little thing can change the whole look of an outfit. For example you could wear a dress with a blazer and it would be a great business look but just removing the blazer and you have a great night on the town look. You could be wearing a nice dress and you have a nice dinner outfit but if you put on a hoodie and some Uggs with it then you've changed the look to a more stay at home comfort look. I thought about how to relate this concept on a more deeper level, like our perspective of life. You could be having a rough day, woke up on the wrong side of the bed, gloomy, tired kind of day but put on a smile and think of something happy and you could change that entire day into a beautiful pleasant day. Maybe we just need to make that small change to be happier people.

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What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Hope is the thing with feathers that takes flight within the soul - Emily Dickinson

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I think one of the things I miss the most is when we would play chess. You would never go easy on me or let me win, I saw that as a sign of respect. It challenged me to do better. I wonder if that's what this is ... Just one big game of chess. You won't give me what I want, you won't come back to me because that would be too easy. You challenge me to work for it. But one thing I also remember was that I never won a game against you. Maybe I should find an opponent on the same level as me but yet again how would I ever know if someone is just letting me win or if I'm actually getting better at the game?

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If you don't want me then you're not the one.

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Sometimes being happy is just exhausting

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Ask

Believe

Receive

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This is Ollie, I had adopted and raised him with my partner of 9 years. When we had parted ways I told him that he could take Ollie because I knew they were close and I didn't want to separate them. I didn't put up a fuss or argue about it. He in return told me that I was abandoning Ollie and that I never truly cared. This cut deep and even now after 2 years of being separated, I still miss Ollie and I think of him all the time and even though I have 2 new pets who I love deeply, I know I made the right decision and that he is being well cared for.

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Don't mess with me boy, I don't like to play. And even if I did you wouldn't like my game anyway

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The secret is law of attraction 🧲 whatever you think, how you feel is working like a magnet to attract things that match that energy. If you are feeling down or having bad thoughts, then bad things will come to you but if you are happy and think positive thoughts then positive things will come to you. The universe doesn't care if you do or don't want it. If you think it then you will manifest it.

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look, I think we need to talk. there is something I need to get off my chest and I really need your at most attention so please just give me a few minutes of your time and just save whatever you have to say until the end okay. this is important to me. now I'm not trying to be bossy or controlling in any way, I'm just trying to be upfront and straight with you and make myself clear. I want to be with you and I really want this relationship to work and I am willing to do whatever I can to make this a happy relationship but we need to lay down some ground rules. I know what I want in a relationship and I know how I want to be treated. if what I ask of you is too much then I'm afraid this isn't going to work out. I think we need to communicate better and learn to control our frustrations. if you have a problem with something then I need you to say it and be respectful about it. if something is bothering you then I need you to be open with me, you do not have to carry any Burdon alone. this is what I am here for. further more you will never again lay a hand on me in a harmful way. if I need to take a step away to cool down or collect my thoughts then you need to respect that. I have a right to having my own space. another thing is that I should not be pushed away in a relationship, you either want to be with me or you don't. it's not whenever is best for you, it's unconditional love. if I want to kiss you or get a hug from you or even cuddle every once in awhile then I shouldn't have to fight for your affection. I understand if your not in the mood then just say so but don't push my away. I understand that having arguments is normal in a relationship but this seems unhealthy and this is not how I want things to be between us. if you can do these things for me then I can assure you that we will have a long lasting relationship and I'm confident things are going to be better but if what I'm asking is too much for you then I'm afraid this is it for us and we will need to start preparing for our seperation. so are you in or out?

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Home is the smell of red rose tea sitting on the porch at 6am chatting with my mom.

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My childhood is homemade oatmeal with brown sugar before church on Sunday.

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My heart is a romance novel full of high hopes, dreams and love but my reality is that it's fiction.

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I still save every wish for you

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I miss the little things you would do for me. I never realized just how important and how special they were until it was all gone.

I miss when you would save all the red m&m's for me

When you'd make me a tea when I was feeling stressed

I miss when you'd kiss me Goodnight

I miss when we would stay up late telling eachother stories

I miss when you'd kiss my forehead

I miss our 2 minute hugs

I miss when we would sing together in the shower

I just really miss you... I only wish you missed me too.