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can't believe I'm unlovable guys that's such a shocker I thought I was good at being likeable (sarcasm)

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I miss our friends but I don't I miss you but I wish I didn't I wish I didn't see all the ways you fucking trapped and controlled my life so I could at least reminisce happily but no instead I look back and see every stressed panic attack you caused, every pang of guilt, every time I thought about killing myself to get out because at least then I wouldn't see you blaming me for my own problems and making yours ours.

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crazy how u only supported me as an addict when I wasn't using and then used that shit against me multiple times

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had a dream about my little brother might kms later lol

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HAHAHA HE DOESNT EVEN MISS ME HE DIDNT EVEN TRY!!! IT ALL MEANT NOTHING NOW THAT HE CANT CONTROL ME!!! GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU FUCKED UP PIECE OF SHIT!!!

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crazy how the tone of someone's voice can induce a trauma response and they'll still think they've done nothing wrong

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stash ran out and my mum has cams downstairs. what if I started breaking shit.

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yk it's bad when cutting pops up instead of drugs LOL

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did you ever actually love me or did you love the attention I gave you? you never gave it back

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if u make ad1cts feel bad for relapsing you're a fucking cunt

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if you see this I hope you get help. and stay away from dating.

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why was it always my fault? did you truly believe that or did you want me as hurt and fucked up as you were so I wouldn't leave?

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I miss our friends but I don't I miss you but I wish I didn't I wish I didn't see all the ways you fucking trapped and controlled my life so I could at least reminisce happily but no instead I look back and see every stressed panic attack you caused, every pang of guilt, every time I thought about killing myself to get out because at least then I wouldn't see you blaming me for my own problems and making yours ours.

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about to relapse el oh el

jk I haven't been sober in months

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sometimes i wish i wasnt so paranoid lol im sure no one hates me i just feel like i should kms every time someone messages me less or isnt in my notifs as much as usual

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I hope my older siblings feel guilty every day for fucking traumatising me and laughing while I cried LOL you guys are fucking disgusting for that

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if u make ad1cts feel bad for relapsing you're a fucking cunt