curatingjosephine

[curatingjosephine]

The moment anyone asks what you bring to the table, that's your cue to leave. Nothing good ever comes from trying to persuade anyone of your value. They either see it, or they don't. You can write entire essays to people explaining yourself and they'll agree, only to revert back to being blind to your value. Stop wasting your time and move on.

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I cannot begin to explain how peaceful it is to be in a "let them" era. An old wound keeps stinging now and then when you least expect it? Let it, feel it, it'll fade soon. Doing certain things still feels uncomfortable even though it's for your growth? Let it, sit with it, you'll soon adapt. A job you're interested in refuses to compensate you accordingly? Let them, and find better. An ex won't give you closure? Let them, and give it to yourself. Release all the ridiculous, painful amount of resistance. Release and flow with the current. Trust in it. It will always lead you the right way.

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How to receive Princess Treatment from men:

Raise your standards. Never settle for the bare minimum or less.

Expect the best. Have high expectations.

Act like a princess. Take being called "boujee", "high maintainence" or "gold digger" as a compliment. Not everyone can have access to you or afford you. You are a luxury.

Look the part. Looks matter. You have to look good. The reality is men will treat you better if you look good

Have a PRIZE mindset. Know that you're the prize.

Be Feminine. Feminine Energy is a valuable asset to have. Heal your wounded feminine energy and embody your divine feminine self. (My How to be more Feminine playlist)

Learn how to RECEIVE. Get comfortable with receiving. Say "Thank You" & express gratitude. (Learn to receive)

[curatingjosephine]

Dating a man with money or resources doesn't make you bad.

Women are supposed to choose the winners.

It's literally nature.

Even the female birds in the animal kingdom know better...

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Day 4 12/28/2024

Went on a date last night with this short Indian man called Raj. I do not like him. He’s not my guy but could be a good resource for scaling my business potentially.

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Day 3 12/27/2024

Woke up head hurting not feeling well, dwelled in bed. Not motivated, feel lazy, tired. Busted my phone last night.

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Day 2 12/26/2024 10:30

So I woke up a few minutes ago because I went to sleep at around 12:00 I’m so sleepy, but I made a step in my routine which was making my bed. It’s small but something I typically don’t do. My body is sore. My goals are to be productive today. I did get about 9-10 hours of sleep and I’m grateful I’m able to do so. I actually have a lot to be grateful for.

1:44pm I cleaned up and declutterred. I still have a lot of work to do but I did good and my apartment looks so much better. I listened to the full audio book of the game of life and how to play it by Florence and it was great, it helped me see a lot of things on a different perspective actually. I was cleaning up and organizing while listening to it and took my dog for a walk. I even was going to go to a cafe but they didn’t allow dogs so I was going to go to Starbucks which is called plaintiful which is a healthier organic place. So instead of Starbucks I got a smoothie and a healthy burger. I would say staying busy does help in reducing my feeling of need to talk to me ex or think about him. It actually helps me alot to have healthier thoughts, it makes life feel fuller actually. The audio book really helped me today, I’m so glad I’m determined to make changes in my life and that fate helped me find that amazing book.

6:09pm I’m so happy I’ve focused on myself today. I’m so proud of the changes I’m making step by step. Day by day. I’m proud I didn’t spend the day scrolling and doing useless things. I’ve cleaned, spent time with my daughter, didn’t contact my ex. Learned, Watched educational productive content.

8:04pm so tempted to call my ex for sex right now, I have another guy on his way to pick me up I know I shouldn’t have this guy pick me up but ughhh I have a process to get through.

11:02pm got home, did a little night routine listened to productive content

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Day 1 December 25th 2024 2:10pm.

I’m really want to change my life, set boundaries, make money, make myself self centered and grounded. Stop chasing people and any type of relationships. I want to create peace. I want to create a lovely life for my daughter and I. I don’t want to settle for less in life. Whether that’s lifestyle, relationships, environment. I feel anxious for this new chapter and I know I may have ups and downs but I’m ready to give it everything I’ve got. Everyday is a step by step to the life I want. I’m gonna let myself be ok with taking things step by step day by day. Trial and error. Even if it’s something small everyday will be dedicated to creating the life I’ve always dreamed of. I know I’ll get there. I won’t put too much pressure on myself to break generational curses, to change my life, to create a new life. To learn to live the life I desire. Even on those difficult days it will be okay.

11:08pm

Deciding to go on a 60 day no social media cleanse. I’ll still be uploading my content but no scrolling or consuming wasteful useless content. I also want to challenge myself to not call my ex or text him. I’ve practically been begging him for months to be involved with me when he clearly doesn’t want to be. I need to leave him alone and move on. Even though it’s hard and I keep thinking about him. It’s just like an addiction. If I’m strong enough I can fight it after some time it will go away and I can be clean. I need to do this for me and myself. I need to fully move on from him. I need to stop forcing things, forcing myself in places where I’m not wanted. I want to take 60 straight days to focus on forming new healthy habits and building towards the life I want. For the rest of this year I’m going to make it a goal to have minimal to zero contact with him and no phone calls.

Edit: 11:42 Actually I think I want to spend the rest of the year pretending like he doesn’t exist and to just think of myself. He’s an alright financial resource and resource for my getting essential things like food or anything for my daughter but I want a week of not thinking of him, or talking to him. A week to focus on me only. This man has consumed my life and my being. He has been the center of my world. I don’t want that to ever happen again with him or anyone else. Even if it were to be difficult I will try my best or at minimum if need be only text him minimally if he texts me in order to retain said resource. That’s what men should be to me now. Simply resources and nothing else. Love with a man who isn’t my husband is a waste of my time even then a man should still essentially be a resource for my life as a main key point in his being there.

I even went on a date today with a guy named Joe to try and meet new people but I think the problem was he seems very self centered. I don’t see anything becoming of him because he didn’t ask a single thing about me and we only talked about him. He also didn’t pay attention to the things I liked such as me being infatuated with a hat he didn’t offer to get it for me, or me saying multiple times how i like flowers and even posted some on my story and he showed up with none. He also didn’t ask me if I was hungry or had eaten (he did buy me donuts but that was all) I need a man who pays attention to those details. He can be nice to hangout with and maybe but me things, but nothing serious. Im learning that every guy I date doesn't have to be "the one" some people are temporary, some people aren't a match, and thats ok. It doesn't mean I cant learn something from them or have fun I think some men can even be used to help me level up my life still even if I know it's not gonna work with them. Right now I’m at that point. How can a man help me level up my life. That’s my focus when dating for now, I’m going to be self centered like they are. My goal is to be self centered. For everything to be about me. For me not to care much about what other people have going on because I’m so focused on myself. I want to be the priority in my life (along with my daughter of course but that doesn’t need to be said obviously)

1. I want a solid morning routine

2. I want a productive work schedule

3. I want to focus on my maintenance

4. I want to fill my time with hobbies

5. I want to work on my attachment issues and completely be detached

6. Focus on forgiving myself for past mistakes

7. Letting things go and starting a new journey

8. Saving as much money as possible and creating strict budgets

9. Perfect my home & living space

10. Learn new skills

11. Have a solid night time routine

12. Make my YouTube content 100 percent educational

13. Learn to be ok & happy being alone

14. Stay off of social media

15. To be self centered and detached