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FFXIV UWU: My First Ultimate Raid

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School Refusal is Stressful

I’m going to preface this right now with homeschool is not an option for me. As an AuDHD person that attempted a form of Crisis Schooling when schools closed it was equally as stressful as trying to convince a school refuser to attend school. I lack the mental energy from complete burnout to try and creatively think of ways to ‘unschool’ or come up with some kind of learning. I can’t drive which…

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Balders Gate 3 - The Dark Urge Playthrough

Committing myself to evil atrocities in my second full playthrough as The Dark Urge origin character was pretty fun and something I really recommend for a second playthrough. I also used it as a chance to do things I had missed out on in my first playthrough of Balders Gate 3 where I did mostly play a good character. Now I’m considering could I actually try and play in a harder difficulty and see…

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Dungeons and Drama by Kirsty Boyce

I was completely in the mood for a short and sweet YA contemporary romance and something a little more on the nerdy side was just my thing. Dungeons and Drama is a cute high school romance with fake dating to full on flirty swooning. I had some real laugh out loud moments throughout my read, I read it in two sittings because it was addictive and I really liked the characters. Riley is loud,…

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It's the Little Things

For the longest time I have been trying to figure out a way of getting back to being myself, that I have been just kind of existing in time and space being a parent which hasn’t left a lot of time to really focus in on what I love and what fills my cup so to speak. But I am craving it. I miss being creative in those little ways of taking photos of books and trying to improve, of moving my body,…

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Waiting Mode

It’s a pretty coming trait amongst ADHDers to have time blindness. The concept of time is unfathomable to me. I sit here writing this having already procrastinated and distracted myself from writing this post several times, knowing I need to be ready to leave the house at 9.10am this morning, knowing how long it takes me to get ready so I’ve given myself enough time to sort my stuff out. Morning…

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Kinda Like a Dragon (Quest)?

Having never played any Yakuza game in my life, picking up Yakuza: Like A Dragon with very little context on the series was a choice, largely dictated by the availability on Game Pass, seeing two odd screenshots in a discord server and exactly one commendation of someone saying they liked it. I remember seeing many memes following release footage of Like A Dragon: Infinite Wealth and Final…

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Full Moon in Leo - Monthly Illuminations

I got a planner for 2024 that encourages monthly full moon illuminations and new moon reflections. It’s an interesting idea and something I’d like to try and stick to as a way of journaling. I probably won’t write a blog post for each and every one but I’m also feeling a desire to write so it makes sense to go with it. With the moon at it’s fullest it’s a time when things should be coming to…

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I Tried to Complete Persona 3 Portable in Three Days

I could have left playing Persona 3 Portable in such a short space of time honestly. These games aren’t exactly known for being done in a short space of time. I know, for one, having already played Persona 4 Golden and Persona 5 Royal. However, nothing kicks in my ADHD hyperfocus quite like a deadline, particularly if it’s something I enjoy. So how did I do, did I manage to actually complete…

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125 Hours of Balders Gate 3

Spoilers below for the RPG video game by Larian Studios Balders Gate 3 based on Dungeons & Dragons. Balders Gate 3 is an incredible good game and worth putting in the long hours to get to the end of the story. I finished a complete play through last night which was the second campaign I started after kind of messing things up on my first campaign and deciding to start again. I have since gone…

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January 2024

I want to try this year. I want to try and make things better for myself and for my loved ones. It isn’t that I haven’t explicitly tried in years prior but I feel a little lighter right now and I want to try and embrace what I am fortunate enough to have. I am going to look for a neurodivergent therapist for myself. After a very long and daunting process I was awarded PIP at the end of 2023 and…

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Turning 35

Today is my birthday. I have spent it with family and chatting with friends. With delicious food and buying nerdy things. Cuddling my cat and pampering myself with face masks and bath bombs. It’s been a nice day, although hectic and busy. My daughter wrote me a birthday card that made me cry with such a thoughtful message and the first time she has gone out of her way to get me a gift of her own…

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Netflix - Cyberpunk: Edgerunners

Spoiler warning because I suck. Please watch the show if you don’t like spoilers. When I was younger, I watched Pokemon and that was fine. A few years later I kind of got into Sailor Moon and Digimon but for some reason for a girl my age that wasn’t fine anymore. I got made fun of and teased about watching Anime and that stuck with me. Even though there is *so* much around that isn’t just pocket…

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From Trails in the Sky into Reverie

Spoilers probably (for an incredible series of games that no one should be spoiled on so warning potential stumblers of the internet) because I have no chill and can’t keep my mouth shut. Apart from that one time I knew one thing and didn’t spoil it for exactly one person. Everything else is off the table, unless I’ve forgotten it. There was no way I could add in the Cold Steel games into the…

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Replaying FF7R in anticipation for FF7 Rebirth

It’s no secret that Final Fantasy is one of my favourite franchises (lets not talk about FF16 right now though, I currently have no desire to finish it) and I wrote a few years ago now about my experience playing FF7R when it first released on PS4. Fresh information has been streaming through about the highly anticipated FF7 Rebirth coming in February 2024 so I thought not would be an excellent…

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My Struggle with ADHD/ASD Diagnosis

Trigger warning: Suicidal thoughts, self harm and very poor mental health. I have always spoken about my struggles with my mental health and wellbeing on this blog so it is of no surprise I’m sure to any regular reader that I suffer with anxiety and depression. I’ve been in denial about depression previously but I think I finally understand what that looks like for me now. I’ve also talked about…

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Two years playing FFXIV as Avalon Lefae

I first starting playing FFXIV in May 2021 so technically it’s been over two years since I began and my character has been through a fair amount of changes during that time. I have been through a fair amount of changes in that time in my personal life as well so it’s been kind of a mixed bag. FFXIV was never a game I was really interested but being one of the lucky few to manage to secure getting…