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link to this deleted scene?👀

if only i had it lol i did not phrase that post very well. it was made out of my frustration in seeing a blogpost from the time talking about it and linking to a dead link </3 we keep looking though.

#releasetheboobcut #fuckcensorship

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147 days

the short and happy marriage of allison cameron and robert chase

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an article on the start of House with words from the cast and crew

Entertainment Weekly - April 2005

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the perverted lesbian deeply concerns herself with the 7x01 deleted scene

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Over the two years I've been here, I've seen a lot of less than savory takes about Amber. Mostly reducing her down to being only a female version of House and not her own character, reducing her down to only being a love interest for Wilson (or House), making her out to be just a Cutthroat Bitch with no character depth, et cetera. One of the ones that irks me the most, though, is blaming House for her death.

House blames himself for her death, and we see things from House's POV; but the SHOW goes so far as to say that it wasn't House's fault at all. It was a freak accident. Wilson can't blame House, even though he wants to. Amber doesn't even blame him when she comes out of the coma and figures out why and how she's dying. Amber's death is not House's fault, and to reduce it to that both strips Amber of her agency as a character and, frankly, also contributes to the misogyny that runs rampant in parts of the fandom across the internet lol.

Amber didn't have to get out of bed and go and pick up House. She CHOSE to go and get him, even while sick with the flu (!!!). She CHOSE to go find him at the bar. She chose to get on the bus with him instead of turning around and going home. She chose to make sure he got home safely, knowing full well who he is, what he was doing, et cetera. Amber chose to be selfless and do something for someone she respected, maybe even considered a friend. She did not die because of House's selfishness. She died because of choices she made.

To add onto that: I fully believe that Amber was living a borderline reckless lifestyle LONG before the bus crash, and that she knew she was going to have to reckon with the consequences of her actions at some point. There's a reason she wasn't shocked (or angered) by the fact that she was dying when she woke up from the coma, and I think this is why. We get the evidence for that in Wilson's Heart- Kutner finds diet pills and amphetamines in her bathroom. We know from earlier in season four that she kept her original job while the 'game show' was going on, so she was canonically working two jobs at once, and more than likely (ab)using the aforementioned amphetamines to keep herself energized while doing that. She was likely pushing herself to the limit- past her limits- for months before the bus crash happened (if not years, to get her through med school and residency); it seems like she's no stranger to that kind of lifestyle. Not getting enough sleep, not eating enough (the diet pills make me wonder if she was not eating enough because of being so busy, or because of potential disordered thoughts- either way, though, a side effect of a lot of amphetamines is that they reduce your appetite, so she was likely getting far less hunger cues and eating a lot less/in a caloric deficit just b/c of that); on top of that, we know from Games that she's not a stranger to smoking cigarettes. We can't say how often she does smoke, but both cigarettes and amphetamines used recreationally certainly have their negative effects on the body. In addition, overworking yourself and stressing the body takes a toll on your immune system, meaning it's far easier to get sick. It's possible that Amber getting the flu in the first place could have been a direct result of her decisions to push herself so intensely throughout the first half of season four, and that she may not have gotten ill and needed the amantadine otherwise (if she had only been working one job, if she had been well rested, if she had been eating properly, et cetera).

Amber's a doctor. She knows the risks of all of these things and just how much she could be harming herself. And yet she chooses to keep pushing herself, likely thinking she can dodge the consequences this time, but knowing full well that she'll have to reckon with them one day. That day comes in Wilson's Heart. When she dies, she doesn't die because of House's selfishness. Amber dies because of her own choices, and because the time to deal with the consequences of those choices snuck up on her far faster than she ever expected.

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HI CHOCO IT'S BEEN SO LONGGG... glad to see you're still making awesome art >:3 can i request kutner posting fanfic to ao3 perhaps!!! one of my fav kutner headcanons is that he writes INSANE star trek fic and has a notable following on that site... dude probably leaves shit like "sorry i took so long with the update i had to rob a grave and then i electrocuted myself" in the authors notes casually

DUDE NOT ON THE WORK LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hiiii!!!! Good to see you again!! Sorry im getting to ask several months after it was submitted 😭😭 Thank you for requesting!!

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Your art is so much fun, I very much enjoy scrolling through and seeing all the silly requests! And ofc you’re very talented.

If you feel like it, could I request house md beach episode outfit? Any character(s) your heart desires! I just think they should have had beach episode fits. For fun :)

Ive been so excited for this request!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for requesting!!!! Thank you so much for the kind words as well that is very sweet of you <3

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im going to jump out a window

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hater moment. "wilson was the only person house really ever loved--" yknow, at the very beginning, i thought that too. i fell into that trap. but it's not true. house loved/loves stacy (their whole arc ends in s2 with 'they both will never stop loving each other but they can't make it work and house doesn't want mark to go thru what he went thru when stacy left' imo). house loves cuddy; he'll always love cuddy, and i think everything between them makes it so clear that they've been in love for years, and will have feelings for the other that will probably linger for a while even once things end. platonically, he loves thirteen- you don't offer to euthanize someone and risk your medical license being revoked and being thrown in jail for just anyone. and that's just the surface. so yes, he does care about wilson. he loves him! and we can celebrate that in whatever way you interpret/prefer (best friends, romantic, etc.) but he has so much more love in his heart to give, too.

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Olivia Wilde as Remy Hadley in House M.D. Season 7 Episode 18: The Dig

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it turns out they planned to have a trial storyline at the beginning of season 8 with house vs cuddy which makes me a LITTLE grateful for L.E. leaving because that would have been hard to watch

oh really? that's very interesting. i don't have a lot of knowledge about that sort of thing so big if true.

i think that would definitely be a hard watch. how would they handle something like that and still have the viewer be on house's side? i think that could only be done with major character assassination. no thank you!

as terrible as it is, lowkey sliding it under the rug was maybe the only way forward with the reality of season 8. which SUCKS but yk.

i do think a house v cuddy trial would be very interesting though, i understand why it was toyed with. but i don't trust these writers with any sort of depiction of a situation like this lol so maybe we're in the right timeline.

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(apologies if youve spoken about this before) but regarding your last post, how do u think season 8 would have played out if LE hadn't left the show?

this is a very interesting question because it's one that i feel i don't really have a solid answer for. so this is going to be a bit of a stream of consciousness lol.

i have a lot of thoughts on how things would have played out, and they aren't very good! i think it would have been a disasterous season no matter what lol. a lot of my thoughts come back to what the influences on season 8 would be had LE not left; would it have been the last season? what would happen to cuddy? what would happen with huddy? do the storylines in Real Season 8 still happen? these are all questions that are up in the air, and eventually i'll make a post about my thoughts because trust me i have a lot!

but i think your question of what should have happened is so interesting. i'm not really a writer in this sense, nor do i remember a good chunk of season 8, so take this all in whilst remembering those facts, because i thought this was super interesting to toy with.

so what do i think should have happened with season 8 + cuddy?:

i think they should have gone down the route of developing cuddy as a character outside of house. you must remember that she had been connected to house in some way for the entirety of her adult life. she doesn't really know how to be without him around in some way. i think it would have been really interesting to explore what happens with her when house isn't there.

i think having more than just one episode before house comes back to the world of PPTH would have worked for this. the premiere stays the same, and then we get an episode at PPTH sans house that kinda lays down the current state of the place; we see how everyone's been doing since The Crash.

we likely would see cuddy and wilson get a lot closer in the wake of house being gone; neither person really has anyone else so they'd start to rely on each other a lot more — for better or worse. i'd love if this meant their relationship would be explored in a more dysfunctional way; perhaps these two, in their shared loneliness, try to attempt a romantic relationship — one that is clearly not right for either of them, but is their only way of making sense of what has happened and their newfound reliance on one another. i think there's a lot that could be explored there (esp for us comphet wilson & arospec cuddy enjoyers lol).

another big thing would be the development of a foreman-run diagnostics department — i think with cuddy still around and foreman not preoccupied, the diagnostics department stays. it's probably less funded and not doing as well as it was with house running it, but it's still there. the fellows, though, have mostly left: i don't see taub sticking around in foreman diagnostics, and i think it's better for the narrative if thirteen comes back when house does — her storyline about leaving medicine staying relatively the same. chase is kinda in limbo here, i don't know if he'd leave without being forced out but i don't know if he'd stay either. that's a question for the chase girls i suppose.

so i think our diagnostics department would end up being foreman (in place of house), chase, and park (park stays! i like her). a truly crazy trio. as i said above, they'd probably be a bit down on their luck; they're not getting as many cases sent their way, they're less funded, and they're down a lot of people. it's the worst shape the department's been in since pre-canon.

i think.. perhaps the way that house comes back into the picture is after his time in prison is up, someone from the team (probably foreman) seeks him out. they need to get the department out of its rut — something to that extent. maybe house would spend the first half of the season as a begrudging mentor to the current team (even though foreman and chase have already worked under him for the better part of a decade, whatever) until cuddy finds them out. there's our mid-season dilemma (think tritter arc for example).

on the house and wilson side of things: i think they start the season out with no contact at all, very similar to the start of season 5. once they get back into contact, it's rough but things feel right again for the first time since The Crash (yes, lots of s5 parallels). if we choose to go with the Weird Wuddy Relationship plot, maybe their first kinda-stupid typical-house-and-wilson conflict would be over that; house knowing their relationship doesn't work that way and they're forcing it to fit into a romantic box when it's clear neither of them truly have feelings for each other. and jealousy, a big part of it is jealousy.

my biggest need for a season 8 with cuddy is that cuddy and house do not make up in the typical sense. what he did really hurt her — it was domestic violence. this should not be glossed over. but i don't think the show can end right without them at least being on speaking terms again. i think the best way to go about this would be to keep the wilson cancer storyline and have cuddy and house make some sort of amends for the sake of wilson.

that's around where my thoughts end. i know it's very loose and doesn't go into a lot. i have a lot of very vague ideas for what a Good Enough Season 8 could maybe look like, but because we have basically no idea what it even could have looked like with LE still there, it's really hard to come to any solid conclusion. i'm trying to keep within the lines of what i think Realistically Could Have Happened and what i think is kinda best case scenario, i hope that shows lol. i'm also much more an analyst than a fic writer and have a very bad memory of what Real Season 8 was like, so take all of this with a grain of joan-doesn't-know-anything lol but this was fun! i hope i'm not completely off-base here!

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i love playing this game where i like a fictional guy and then i go into his tag and disagree with every single post there

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i am honestly so glad lisa edelstein left the show because while the last we see of cuddy being in That Episode is rough, her remaining there and having house make amends with her as it seems the writers wanted to do would have been Awful. like I cannot even imagine the thought process that was made here. genuinely, the first time I read that had the writers known that LE wouldn't return for season 8, they would have written her out differently I was baffled because I could not imagine how the writers thought that house could drive his car into cuddy's living room and then it would be okay for house and cuddy to be around each other after that.

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i feel like i have to make a public service announcement or something... huddy did not break up because LE left the show. house crashing his car into cuddy's house did not happen because LE left the show. they are not correlated at all. season 7 was fully filmed before LE had decided to leave the show.

i'm saying this because i frequently see people saying that The Crash happened because they wanted to screw over LE and that's just. not true. and i think it skews conversations about that scene in a way that diminishes it. same thing —to a lesser extent— with the huddy breakup.

i know that as a fan in 2025 this is an easy conclusion to come to (trust me, i fell for it!) because of the lack of readily available information about what happened but it just. is not true. DS himself has said numerous times that if they knew LE was leaving, it wouldn't have ended that way.

TLDR: engage with the ending of season 7 seriously instead of just writing it off as the writers being mad at LE please

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Over the two years I've been here, I've seen a lot of less than savory takes about Amber. Mostly reducing her down to being only a female version of House and not her own character, reducing her down to only being a love interest for Wilson (or House), making her out to be just a Cutthroat Bitch with no character depth, et cetera. One of the ones that irks me the most, though, is blaming House for her death.

House blames himself for her death, and we see things from House's POV; but the SHOW goes so far as to say that it wasn't House's fault at all. It was a freak accident. Wilson can't blame House, even though he wants to. Amber doesn't even blame him when she comes out of the coma and figures out why and how she's dying. Amber's death is not House's fault, and to reduce it to that both strips Amber of her agency as a character and, frankly, also contributes to the misogyny that runs rampant in parts of the fandom across the internet lol.

Amber didn't have to get out of bed and go and pick up House. She CHOSE to go and get him, even while sick with the flu (!!!). She CHOSE to go find him at the bar. She chose to get on the bus with him instead of turning around and going home. She chose to make sure he got home safely, knowing full well who he is, what he was doing, et cetera. Amber chose to be selfless and do something for someone she respected, maybe even considered a friend. She did not die because of House's selfishness. She died because of choices she made.

To add onto that: I fully believe that Amber was living a borderline reckless lifestyle LONG before the bus crash, and that she knew she was going to have to reckon with the consequences of her actions at some point. There's a reason she wasn't shocked (or angered) by the fact that she was dying when she woke up from the coma, and I think this is why. We get the evidence for that in Wilson's Heart- Kutner finds diet pills and amphetamines in her bathroom. We know from earlier in season four that she kept her original job while the 'game show' was going on, so she was canonically working two jobs at once, and more than likely (ab)using the aforementioned amphetamines to keep herself energized while doing that. She was likely pushing herself to the limit- past her limits- for months before the bus crash happened (if not years, to get her through med school and residency); it seems like she's no stranger to that kind of lifestyle. Not getting enough sleep, not eating enough (the diet pills make me wonder if she was not eating enough because of being so busy, or because of potential disordered thoughts- either way, though, a side effect of a lot of amphetamines is that they reduce your appetite, so she was likely getting far less hunger cues and eating a lot less/in a caloric deficit just b/c of that); on top of that, we know from Games that she's not a stranger to smoking cigarettes. We can't say how often she does smoke, but both cigarettes and amphetamines used recreationally certainly have their negative effects on the body. In addition, overworking yourself and stressing the body takes a toll on your immune system, meaning it's far easier to get sick. It's possible that Amber getting the flu in the first place could have been a direct result of her decisions to push herself so intensely throughout the first half of season four, and that she may not have gotten ill and needed the amantadine otherwise (if she had only been working one job, if she had been well rested, if she had been eating properly, et cetera).

Amber's a doctor. She knows the risks of all of these things and just how much she could be harming herself. And yet she chooses to keep pushing herself, likely thinking she can dodge the consequences this time, but knowing full well that she'll have to reckon with them one day. That day comes in Wilson's Heart. When she dies, she doesn't die because of House's selfishness. Amber dies because of her own choices, and because the time to deal with the consequences of those choices snuck up on her far faster than she ever expected.

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you know when a character makes nearly no references to their parents or just childhood but you can tell that their parents did a number on them