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hurt comfort prompts

“ you can stay here, if you'd like. “

“ please don't go. “

“ why don't we stay at your place tonight? “

“ can i get you anything? “

“ let's be pathetic together. “

“ are you crying? “

“ i'm glad that you're here. “

“ you're not doing this alone. “

“ i don't have anyone anymore. “ “ you have me. “

“ are you sure [about staying]? “

“ you didn't force me. i volunteered [to be here], remember? “

“ you are what’s important right now. “

“ it’s okay, you know. if you need to vent. “

“ are you sure? it's quite heavy [of a topic]. “ “ i've got all night. “

“ tonight is about you. you can make it up to me some other time. “

“ i've got nowhere else to be. “

“ you said you needed a distraction. “ “ so... where is it? “ “ you're looking right at it. “

“ why don't you come here for a second? “

“ wanna talk about it? “

“ i can't talk about it. not tonight. “

“ you need to distract me. do something, anything. “

“ i just don't want to be alone tonight. “

“ i'm tired of thinking. let's just... make out, or something “

“ i feel like shit. “ “ you look like it, too. “ “ hey! “

“ it’s okay to cry, you know. “

“ you’re a little hurt, that’s all. “

“ anything you want me to get you? “

“ nothing a good [drink] can't fix. “

“ let’s get you cleaned up. “

“ this is you thinking rationally? “

“ you're really all i've got. “

“ c'mere. let me give you a hug. “

“ and you're absolutely sure this is what you need? “

“ you don't need this right now. “

“ how long are you gonna sit there? “ “ all night, if that's what it takes. “

“ what's it gonna take to make you smile? “

“ if you're not ready to talk about it, let's not talk about it. “

“ wanna play some mario kart? it'll give us both a reason to cry when you beat me. “

“ how about we stay like this, holding each other? “

“ i don’t know what’s wrong with me. “

“ i can’t stop crying. “ “ i'll be strong for the both of us. “

“ i didn’t know where else to go. “

“ the door's always open, you know that. “

“ i thought you were leaving town. “ “ i can't leave now. “

“ there's that smile i know and love... “

“ stay with me. “

“ hey, what’s your favorite snack? “

“ i’m not leaving. “

“ just let it out. “

“ you're stronger than you think. “

“ how about i make a quick run to the store, get you some aspirin? “

“ grab a burger or something on your way home. “

“ you were always there when i needed you. let me repay the favor. “

“ i don't mean to bother you. “ “ you're not. “

“ hey, listen to me... “

“ you’re not a burden. “

“ aren’t you tired? “ “ this isn't about me. “

“ you’re going to be okay. “

“ hey, look at me… “

“ i don’t know what to do. “ “ we’ll figure it out. “

“ you’re not alone. “

“ hey, hey, hey, it's okay... it's okay. you're okay. “

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Fresh new blog and looking for ffxiv blogs to follow! If you post about your ocs, oc asks, housing, glamours, or just like chatting with your mutuals about how much you love your characters and the game, please reblog or like so I can follow you! Will be working on a LFRP for both of my characters and should have it up soon!

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hey if ur a ffxiv rp blog (or have a muse from it) and ur okay with me bothering u REBLOG THIS!!!! I keep seeing new ppl but im not sure who to follow!!! 

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LF FFXIV RPERS WHO WRITE

My dash is quiet when it comes to actual writing. I’d like to follow more FFXIV blogs that are active with this aspect of RP and not solely aesthetics. Aesthetics aren’t bad at all - but I am honing in on my search for fellow writers. Surely they are out there and I am just not following them yet. I refuse to believe you all just vanished. Feel free to reblog if you are one of them so I can find you and read your stories. ^_^

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“I wish I knew how to talk about it.”

Short lil piece from misc. sentence starts.

“Can I talk to you for a sec? In private?” I tugged his arm as the others were discussing future plans. He let me drag him into a private room then lock the door so those pesky Scions couldn’t drag me away for a fetch quest. “I think we should talk about you. What’s going on?” Confusion was prominently featured on his face as he said there’s nothing to talk about. He was fine. “That’s utter bullshit and you know that Fray. Are you having nightmares?” He averted his gaze and crossed his arms, it was more like hugging himself.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about. I hardly have time for something that trivial.”

“Because you’re avoiding sleep to not have them again. I know you, are don’t lie to me. You were up at 2 last week screaming then went back to sleep. Then last night you woke suddenly clutching your stomach and when I came from the commotion, asked if I saw the impale wound like you did. It still haunts you even now. Why won’t you be honest with me? I thought we were close enough for that.”

“We are it’s just...... I.... I don’t know how to talk about it. Being faced with your own mortality is terrifying. And it’s just watching you face your own reminded me of how you saved my life. Guess that brought up the nightmares.” He hugged himself tighter still not looking anywhere near my direction. I gave him a few minutes before putting a hand on his that was digging into his ribs. “Guess I foolishly let myself believe I was weak for still letting it bother me this far removed from it.”

“A dance with death isn’t something to be brushed off so easily. Remember? Now someone has been leaned against the door for the past while it must mean they need us again.” He nods and tried to push back the brimming tears. I unlocked the door and saw the shadow move then the door knob jiggled. “Can’t I have a private moment in peace? Fuck’s sake.” I opened the door and stepped out leaving Fray to come out when he was ready.

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writing will come to anyone who looks at this blog im just a lil blocked rn. have a pic of Ney and Fray for the wait. 

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Favorite quotes: Demonic/Evil/Grey Morale Edition

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“Did we really climb all this way for sightseeing? What’s the meaning of this Ney?” I simply sat on the cliff, legs dangling over, and took in the view. I hear a sigh then he sat down as well. I should think he’d be grateful to be out of the tundra. Seeing such vegetation should be a welcome change to white and dreary. They help with depression so I’m told so why am I not feeling any different? “What are you thinking about?”

"where else can you find a view like this? i want you to really try and see this land the way i see it. this is all ive known for as long as i can remember. this and the western highlands. it's taken me in and raised me as it's own. the dragons have taught me more then any man ever could or bothered to give me. i've watched your city from a distance. so cold and isolated. i've watched them cast out anything not befitting their standards. how quick they are to take a life they deem unworthy. in every reserve the city deserves to be razed. you struck first it's only right to expect some retaliations. there are individuals in there that will be mourned most definitely by the masses. for me i'll sit back and watch it burn; i know you'll have no complaints either standing in the rubble of a home that wronged you.there is however an.......individual in there that i was consider a loss if they were to perish. someone who has a lot of merit and my benefit of the doubt that they truly believe Ishgard can be better; that they'll seize the reigns of fate and say no this way is better. i guess all i can do is sit back as usual and pray that i havent misjudged them and the head they have on their shoulders.” People are taken to believe my passivity is me not giving a second thought to them but that couldn’t be further from the truth. “By the time I was old enough to strike out on my own I’d already formed too high of expectations for these people. The Shroud is so prejudice and full of elitism no different from Ishgard. I got sick from all the water and sea air in Limsa so I didn’t linger long. They were all waterlogged drunks anyways. I came back to Dravania absolutely disgusted by the world of man. So I never left Coerthas again.” I looked back expecting to have been talking to the air the whole time. Maybe he’d fucked off back down the summit bored to tears. But no he was listening intently, watching me.

“I love hearing about your thoughts. Twelve knows you hardly feel obliged to share them with naught but Hien.” I love him. One of the few genuine people I’ve met. I did fall in love with the Far East, maybe why I vowed to help free his homeland. This will always be my home but I’d be ok with starting a life over there and settling in. I stood after a few more minutes and brushed myself off. “Leaving so soon? I thought we were having a moment?” I rolled my eyes at his teasing and began the descent. “Hey wait for me!” A chuckle almost escaped at the sound of him chasing me then nearly falling over.

“Watch your step. I won’t save you if you go over.” I hear him call me cold which is rich coming from him. “Ain’t that just the pot calling the kettle black eh Mr. Myste?”

“Don’t call me that. Felt weird.”

A laugh did come out as we were entering back into the crumbling building. “Whatever you say Fray. It’s just funny the frozen lake himself is calling me cold. Sidurgu told me that by the way. It’s fitting to a tee for you. The world just doesn’t understand pragmatism does it?” I think this is the most banter we’ve ever carried on and oddly I’m ok with it; having another friend.

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Ya boi back to playing with Fray models. This one for Ney’s lore.

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misc sentence starters

“  i wish i knew how to talk about it.  ”   “  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ”   “  i don’t want to be alone anymore.  ”   “  i wish i could hate you.  ”  “  take a seat, we’re gonna be here a while.  ” “  i need you to trust me.  ”   “  i missed/miss you.  ”   “  she/he won’t listen to me.  ” “  let me do this for you. please.  ”   “  is there anything else you want to say to me?  ” “  tell me something happy.  ”   “  promise me.  ” “  i just want/wanted to help.  ”   “  let me explain.  ” “  i didn’t/don’t need you to understand, i just wanted/want you to support me.  ”   “  i’m on your side.  ” “  i’ve got your back, okay? ” “  please, tell me you have a plan.  ” “  stay with me tonight.  ” “  don’t go. please.  ”   “  i’ve been alone for so long i’m afraid i don’t know what it’s like not to be.  ”   “  talk to me.  ”   “  i did what i had to do.  ” “  we can’t keep going on like this.  ” “  i’m just tired.  ” “  i’m scared.  ” “  it’s okay to be afraid. fear can be good. use it.  ” “  it’s better to expect disappointment.  ” “  hope is dangerous.  ” “  i like seeing you smile.  ”   “  you look beautiful.  ”   “  be patient with her/him. they’re trying. ”   “  i’m trying my best and it’s not good enough. it’s never good enough. ” “  i’m starting to think i’m just fucked up.  ”   “  have a drink with me.  ” “  she/he is better off without me. but i guess that’s their choice.  ” “  you can’t dictate what’s best for someone else. ” “  can i help you?  ” “  i thought you’d like this.  ” “  do you wanna get out of here?  ” “  walk with me?  ” “  well, shit.  ”

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*does that cheesy thing of person A looking at the stars and saying they’re beautiful then person B looking directly at A saying yeah they are.*

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This is after 5.4.

Hien won’t leave me alone now and i guess that’s only to be expected after what happened. what’s annoying is the way people who know keep looking at me. with pity in their eyes. dont fucking judge me like that. this is what i get from being roped in with your lil cult. now all your enemies are looking at me. i wanna hit something but i cant cause that’ll get more unwanted reactions from them. i feel trapped. 

i hardly interact with yugiri but she accompanied me when Alisaie said she was taking me out for some air. we made a trip to Limsa to visit a friend of hers. that little kobold child she was telling me about. i’m glad they got him back to normal, he’s very happy around her and she him. they are cute friends. after that we ran into her brother and he seems.....different. he looked over at me so i ruffled his hair much to his chagrin. i almost laughed at his protests. “Someone’s done a great deal of maturing since i first met him.” he straightened his hair and asked i not do that again. “oh my apologies sir.” i mock bowed getting a laugh from Alisaie. these children have a bright future i just know it. 

the sun had been down for a hot minute and we were sitting on a grassy cliff in La Noscea stargazing. Alisaie had conked out on my shoulder so it was silent between me and Yugiri. “Hey Yugiri-” i saw her from the corner of my eye jump a little, guess i shook her from her own thoughts. “-you ever look up at the stars and wonder what it all means? if our destiny is really written in them?” naturally such an existential question stumped her, itd stump anyone. “Well that’s that’s enough existentialism for one night. c’mon Hien is probably wondering where we are and if we’re ok.” i carefully collected the sleeping elezen trying not to wake her and stood. “or do i need to carry you too? i do have another arm now.” it got the reaction i wanted which was flustered to high heavens. i cut off her stammering with a laugh, it felt foreign to hear myself laugh again. “i’m only kidding now let’s see if we can beat the sun.”

a part of me feels a bit guilty for being the reason Hien was up pacing till we strolled in at the first signs of dawn. Yugiri took Alisaie cause once Hien saw me i was tackled to the ground. she pretended not to notice and walked off down a hall. “Miss me?” i chuckled and gave him a squeeze back, he gives very reassuring bear hugs and i love them. i never classified myself as a touch starved person but i can see now what i’m missing. when we finally got up from the floor he didnt let go of the hug so he carried me to his room saying he didnt have any plans for the day anyways we could sleep all day if we wanted. sounds nice.....i’d like that. 

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The Hermit

It’s a skill, to look inside yourself, one you have mastered. The endless corridors and shifting thoughts are mapped to very carefully. This all takes time, of course. And those twisting hallways are so very difficult to map. It would be so easy to get lost. You know this space so well. Wouldn’t it be a lovely place to stay? So well-known and comforting. Why go back? How nice, how easy, to dissolve, to hide from the rest of the world and all the people in it. Why bother, when you are so good at looking inside yourself. Like enlightenment, the self. Retreating this far inwards is like retreating just as far out, into the vast ether. So comforting. The thing that was you looks at the thing that was the old woman. There is no you anymore. Goodbye.

What Tarot card are you?

The World 

Power is a heady thing. Do you have what it takes to control it? You thought you did, for a long time as you gained more and more. Power only begets more power, after all. Mind your breaking point, mind your load, mind how high you’ve climbed up the ladder; it’s against regulation to stand on the top rung. You could get hurt up there. You could fall. I’m not sure that I could catch you, so high above the rest of us. Don’t look down. Mind the ceiling fan.

(I had this saved in my drafts forever .__. and now it’s time to play catch up!)

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