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anyone interested in some size difference jazzop for my personal tf au? no? ur getting it anyway not sorry.

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thinking about shockwave transformers and [Crack Baby - mitski]

he makes me. sofucking ill. first. the reason i associate the song with him the most;

these lyrics. these fucking. these lyrics. in refrence his emotions. his passion his love his hope.

(orion was his hope once.)

shockwave. senator shockwave. was so many things. but more than anything he was someone who wanted better. he wanted a better bench without a broken fucking leg in his garden he wanted a better senate he wanted a better world for his people.

and they took that from him. the senate looked at him looked at his hope and they took it. they took his face. (he had always been proud of his appearance. he would frequently change his paint and kibble. he liked looking pretty) and replaced it with a single eye, they took his hands, and gave him a gun and claws. for destruction- not the rebuilding he wanted for the world.

(blank open eues, one emotionless optic thag cant really 'close')

he was so many things and now all that is left is a holllow void where those things were and its like- do you think he knows. do you think he looks at cybertron. at optimus. recalls his memories and knows he should feel something?

he doesnt, though. doesnt feel anything anymore. knows he should. knows he wouldve. almost knows what it used to feel like the feeling in his chest the butterflies in his stomach but its all. gone.

he had it once. knows he should have it knows hes become something so far from what he once was knows that past him would hate the current him. knows he used to love.

he looks at those things. at the people he used to care about. at optimus. doesnt work, though. still empty still under the effects of that fucking surgery. still purple and one eyed and minus and arm and missing everything that once made him him

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OOF, WHEN YOU JUST WANNA ENJOY LIFE WITH YOUR CONJUNX BUT WAR FORCES YOU TO BECOME A PRIME OR SPY RESPECTIVELY

It's at first a shock yet relief for Jazz that Orion was chosen by Primus, especially if it means he's has a better chance to survive. But the burden he now carries, no longer going by his old name and having to push down so much of himself for the sake of being a leader. He can no longer do as he wishes and oh, it pains Jazz. All he can do is try in his own way to ease the burden.

He throws himself into the war effort with his skills, that grin his lover said he always loved seeing now having to be a mask as he infiltrates the Deceptions. It's not easy work and at times he returns back to base feeling like his hands are still stained with energon he already wiped away. But it has to be worth it, when this will one day lead to the end of the war. The days of being able to share the berth with Optimus are few and far between with how much their work and duties call them away from each other, as the weariness of it all keep changing them and leaving memories of their old life feel like another lifetime. Leaving them scared to talk to one another because 'Do you still love me? I'm not the one you fell for anymore. Do I even deserve you anymore?'

YEA

EXACTLY

THIS EXACTLY EXACTLY EXACTLY

And they do

They do still love each other, don't they?

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who wants to read about optimus prime dissasociating and hallucinating about megatron/d-16 and orion pax for 3.3k words!

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there are expectations, of a prime. of duty- servitude. protection, guidance. he imagines it ought to be stifling- orion pax would have thought it so. optimus wonders if he should find it so as well.

strength is not only his duty, but his birthright. his purpose. war- conflict. protection. battle. he was born into it. he will die amongst it, he assumes.

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like this, lowered to the ground, hydraulics weakened, gear-locks disengaged- he can almost imagine himself a body the memories of which are abstract and unfamiliar. smaller- sweeter, perhaps.

orion pax was not one to kneel, either.

still, this is as close as he can get to his once self.

there is a ghost, at the edge of his processor, two, if he allows them. three, if he wishes. His beginnings, his eternity, and his enevitible end.

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red morphs into orange into gold. end into eternity into beginning. into memories that belong not to him- but memories he clings to nontheless

soft optics and a aggrieved smile. optimus is a mech who was born haunted. A ghost of something someone he once knew once knew.

a hand, open and gentle, servos almost brushing against his cheek.

just oh so slightly to the left. a slight tilt of the helm is all it would take to shatter the illusion in front of him.

he refrains. permits himself imagine the hollow sound of metal tapping against metal. instead of silence, air brushing by his finials

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'you look like him, like this. You know.'

'like orion.' (lies)

If he could reply. bring himself to online his voice module, respond to this haunting of his own mind- of orions spark. what would he say?

orion is dead. you killed him

'It was orions fault, though.'

'he got in the way.'

yeah.

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knelt low, servos curled to his thighs,fans halted and processes slowed.

Like this, optimus could almost be mistaken for a statue. not particularly serene, but -

there is a tension to him. he arose to war. forged for battle. it is inate.

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If it had been orion in his place-

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blue optics stare at up him, bright and sweet.

optimus wants to hate him, hate him almost as much as he pities him.

one half of his beginning.

a spark that lays within his own. intertwined- smothered, protected, maybe. he wonders how much of him is orion. how much of orion was him.

slowly coaxing closed. he will smother what is left, eventually. it is not a relief.

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he loved you. He wants to say it, wants to online his optics and his vocals and see this non-existent spectre that has been passed onto him by orion pax.

wants to shout at it this truth that he was born into. wants to profess the love of a mech that died for his birth for a mech that died for the same over and over again.

as if that truth couldve changed anything, couldve saved d-16 and orion pax. couldve stopped the spark that resides in his chest from curling and twisting into that of a prime. into himself.

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back into orange into red.

"I love you I love you I love you I love you"

It beats in his chest like a drum

not only had orion left him his ghosts, he had left his love, and as orion died and so rose optimus, so did d-16 die, and so rose megaton.

was it so strange, then? that the love that orion pax held so dearly to his spark, died as well, and so rose for optimus prime, love. as well?

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blue shutters into life. He turns his attention elsewhere. He remains a coward. does not want to view the nothing that he knows is there.

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Goncharov (1973) dir. Martin Scorsese

“The greatest mafia movie (n)ever made.”

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BEHOLD!!! THE FELLAS!! finally got around to finalizing my op design and taking a crack at a bee design and i think i did fuckin GREAT! got a few tweaks i wanna make to bees design, promarily his head, but i am so prouf of them both i think o did great :)

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took a crack at designing a humanoid soundwave design. the final product is meant for tfp sound, but i did a helmet design for earthspark sound as well! im not 100% sure on the outfit, but ive fallen very deeply in love with the idea of him having a longass braid to represent his cables ;v;

under the cut is a timelapse and other design notes!

flashing lights warning for the above ! ^^

aa ok design rambles go!!

helmwise, i was really looking for a good balance between being recognizable as soundwave and being recognizable as something a human being would wear, yknow? like i absolutely couldve just taken his helm design, thrown it on a human body and said it was a helmet, but that felt a bit like cheating.

with tfp, i immeditately thought of fullface gas masks, and thats a theme that stuck even to some of the last iterations, even if it didnt make it to the final mask, which definitely doesnt look much like any human accessory ive ever seen, but it also doesnt look like tfp soundwaves helm on a human body, so i think i succeeded

for earthspark, it was a bit of a mix of a gas mask, initially, but quickly turned into a motorcycle helmet mixed with almost a bit of an aviator helmet?? i would imagine the little chunky bits on the cheeks to be a sort of comm system ^^, either way i am very happy with the result.

clothing wise, i wavered back and forth between the simplicity that i think he would prefer to wear, and my own personal prefrence for overcomplicated outfits that match his frame a bit better visually. i ended up going for the latter but chances are i will draw him in alt outfits later... i am however still interested in the concept of a sort of falconers,, sleeve? is that a thing? for the arm that lazerbeak would perch on

but as stated i am very very in love with the braid. proud of myself on that one

earthspark soundwave body possibly to come in the future!! any comments or well meaning critiques are more than welcome :)

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third attempt at a transformers oc/sona design is finished!!

i think he is very silly!! super over the top and gaudy and thats what i love about it teehee!!

closeup+ first and second attempt under the cut!!

v1 was finished on 09/28/2024, v2 on 10/01/2024 and v3 on 10/15/2024!! its insane what just iterating on things and trying again can do, when it comes to doing something new

also this is my first time doing image ids for my art so pls lmk if i need to change my approch about it

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redesigned lillynette a it :) or, i redesigned her outfit, the og design.. isnt very good, imo. so i wanted to try my hand at remaking it!

two versions bc im not sure which i prefer... ;-;

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got into pressure recently.

tw for mild gore

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Nirvana and Samsara

Thank you Houseki no Kuni, for changing my life. ❤️

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i think this recent chapter of one piece really made it click in alot of peoples minds that coby is a marine. a true, dedicated marine who believes wholeheartedly in the marine cause.

mild spoilers for one piece 1122.

this chapter and specifically yhis panel

really solidifies that coby is a marine. coby is wholeheartedly a marine who wholeheartedly believes being a marine is the right thing, and that makes him one of three things.

1.) a cruel facist wannabe who idiolizes what the marines are right now and everything they represent

2.) a complacent idiot who, in blind and naive stupidity has allowed himself to be used by facists to enforce their regime unknowingly

3.) a even more naive idiot who genuinely believes one person has the ability to tear down a hundreds of years old dictatorship and the instutional police planet that has been built apoj those foundations from the inside without piggybacking off of the work, blood, death and tears of the rioters, revolutionaries and inssurectionists who are ripping down and fighting against the marines and world goverment in a immediately impactful way

coby is a true marine and what that means is blind faith in the marines no matter what that means for you, blind faith in your version of the marines, in the pipe dream that ‘you’re helping!’ that ‘its not perfect but i can make it better! i can change it from the inside im a true hero!!! i can do this thr right way. no awful unrulyness or law breaking. because the system itself is good, its just the bad people in charge 🥺’

coby is a true marine in the way garp is a true marine because they both are so close to being good people but will never be one and never had the potential to be ones, because of them being marines to their very core. no matter what.

coby is garps apprentice and it shows. garp is willing to throw away any attatchments he has, to watch young boys he promised to care for die because they contridict his belief in the marines, just as coby is willing to discard the one person who gave him a chance to be *anything* because that person contradicts his belief in the marines

the ‘good marines’. coby, garp, smoker, fujitora, ectect are some of my absolute favorite flavour of characters in one piece, they all have some way of burying their head in the sand, either via naivete, willful ignorance or what may be. theyre all absolutely awful, so easy to love and so hard to hate but so easy to dislike, its so easy to want them to just. fix it. become a pirate or fix the marines or do something to make them compatable with luffy, with freedom but they wont be. they never will be unless they can cast aside some of the very fundamentals of their psyche becase in the end, they are using their abilities to defend and aid the goals and wishes of a dictatorship, to defend the proprieters of slavery and cruelty.

also please dont take this as me hating coby or garp or saying u cant love them! i really like coby and think garp is funny atleast, and fujitora, one of the aformentioned so called ‘good’ marines is one of my favourite characters, period! he is so facinating in how he balances believing himself to be a good person while also actively supporting atrocities i love him sooo much

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i think this recent chapter of one piece really made it click in alot of peoples minds that coby is a marine. a true, dedicated marine who believes wholeheartedly in the marine cause.

mild spoilers for one piece 1122.

this chapter and specifically yhis panel

really solidifies that coby is a marine. coby is wholeheartedly a marine who wholeheartedly believes being a marine is the right thing, and that makes him one of three things.

1.) a cruel facist wannabe who idiolizes what the marines are right now and everything they represent

2.) a complacent idiot who, in blind and naive stupidity has allowed himself to be used by facists to enforce their regime unknowingly

3.) a even more naive idiot who genuinely believes one person has the ability to tear down a hundreds of years old dictatorship and the instutional police planet that has been built apoj those foundations from the inside without piggybacking off of the work, blood, death and tears of the rioters, revolutionaries and inssurectionists who are ripping down and fighting against the marines and world goverment in a immediately impactful way

coby is a true marine and what that means is blind faith in the marines no matter what that means for you, blind faith in your version of the marines, in the pipe dream that ‘you’re helping!’ that ‘its not perfect but i can make it better! i can change it from the inside im a true hero!!! i can do this thr right way. no awful unrulyness or law breaking. because the system itself is good, its just the bad people in charge 🥺’

coby is a true marine in the way garp is a true marine because they both are so close to being good people but will never be one and never had the potential to be ones, because of them being marines to their very core. no matter what.

coby is garps apprentice and it shows. garp is willing to throw away any attatchments he has, to watch young boys he promised to care for die because they contridict his belief in the marines, just as coby is willing to discard the one person who gave him a chance to be *anything* because that person contradicts his belief in the marines

the ‘good marines’. coby, garp, smoker, fujitora, ectect are some of my absolute favorite flavour of characters in one piece, they all have some way of burying their head in the sand, either via naivete, willful ignorance or what may be. theyre all absolutely awful, so easy to love and so hard to hate but so easy to dislike, its so easy to want them to just. fix it. become a pirate or fix the marines or do something to make them compatable with luffy, with freedom but they wont be. they never will be unless they can cast aside some of the very fundamentals of their psyche becase in the end, they are using their abilities to defend and aid the goals and wishes of a dictatorship, to defend the proprieters of slavery and cruelty.

also please dont take this as me hating coby or garp or saying u cant love them! i really like coby and think garp is funny atleast, and fujitora, one of the aformentioned so called ‘good’ marines is one of my favourite characters, period! he is so facinating in how he balances believing himself to be a good person while also actively supporting atrocities i love him sooo much

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naruto uzumaki my one and only beloved son but hes a dragon/wyvern

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naruto uzumaki my one and only beloved son but hes a dragon/wyvern

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