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i got a cold from the rain last week :(

but at least i got my running in💪

forced myself to do a mile and some leg presses yesterday

i’m kinda worried about gaining muscle in my thighs bc they’re already too big but i need the muscle development for track😢

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Just a reminder that having an ed doesn't make it okay for you to bodyshame people or hate on people that choose recovery, if you do things like that pls do not interact

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you don’t need love you don’t need love you don’t need love you don’t need love you don’t need love

if no one likes me, great !! i don’t need a relationship, i’ve had chances and given up on them because i don’t have the energy to keep up relationships with people

if i’m not forced to talk to someone, i won’t !! so why would anyone keep up a relationship with me ?

friends, partners, potential relationships, it doesn’t matter !! i used to be fine on my own

but i got happy and now i want more than i should

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they didn’t take my vitals at my psych appointment this time (which is weird bc they ALWAYS take my vitals) and that means i didn’t get weighed

so now i don’t know how much i weigh bc i don’t have a scale :|

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you guys concern the fuck out of me, if you hit beans you absolutely SHOULD get stitches if you can. just because you can sorta get by with steristrips in some situations does not mean when someone is asking for medical advice that you tell them they don't need stitches, or that they don't even need medical attention at all. they fucking do. when you go deeper than styro, you SHOULD be getting stitches, when you use steristrips you are increasing your risk of infection, elongating the healing process, risking giving yourself worse sc4rs that can limit your mobility. I get that we are cool with endangering ourselves but do not endanger others with incorrect medical advice. you aren't cool because you don't patch your shit up, you're not worse because you don't get stitches for serious wounds. I understand if you can't afford it, I can't either, but I will still tell someone they need stitches if they do. stop saying stupid shit online, and stop taking advice from children online who say they've been fine so far patching their shit up with bandaids and tape. the point of harm reduction is to reduce harm by giving alternatives AND educating yourself on risks. I'm sorry if being told that not getting stitches for beans could give you a serious infection upsets you, but it's the truth, you need to accept that. stop endangering people with your own unsafe practices.

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me almost falling over at school

When it’s getting bad again

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monster needs to be more carbonated and stay carbonated

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one of my fav things ever (idk if this is sarcastic or not anymore help) is looking at inspo pics of girls who have a much smaller frame and bone structure, and deluding myself into thinking i could look like that.

like even if i was dangerously skinny i still wouldn’t look like that because i just. have a bigger skeleton.

like my ribcage looks like a fucking box not a dainty little corset shaped body.

also my shoulders are more broad and don’t match my hips, but not broad enough to look like a boy :/

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i can’t tell if i’m gaining or losing or maintaining and it’s kinda fucking with me ngl😃

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i used to see tips for hiding your behavior and think i wouldn’t need it, and look out for tips on losing

now it’s reversed and i’m not having trouble losing but i need to hide it😭

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i joined my school’s track and field team, doing mid distance !!!

now i have an excuse for when i start losing weight again, and if i have to gain it’ll be muscle !!!!!!

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ED movies

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reminders for today:

if you or someone you know might need it in the next few years, purchase plan b. the shelf life of plan b is 4 years, and we might not be able to access it as easily as we can now in the days ahead.

if you are larger/plus size: go online and purchase ella instead of plan b. plan b is less effective if you aren’t under 160 pounds.

if you can, purchase books that project 2025 is looking to ban.

mass deportations are starting. if you see ice vehicles or agents, yell ice raid and la migra as loud as you can.

if someone asks who you voted for, keep your mouth shut. they’re fishing for traitors.

if anyone, anyone at all asks about your neighbors or their legal status in the us, you know nothing. don’t be the reason that their family is separated.

if anyone asks about your religion or lack thereof, keep it vague. this administration will look for any excuse to persecute you.

your friends are trans or queer? for the next four years they’re not. don’t expose anyone’s status as a trans or queer person to anyone else, even if you think you can trust them.

did someone you know get an abortion? no, they didn’t. they were never pregnant.

in short, don’t be a snitch, and keep to yourself these next four years. we’ll make it through this even if it seems hopeless at times.

we can survive this. we’ve survived before, and we’ll survive again.

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realest shit ever

my timbers are thoroughly shivered

im cold im so cold i pray my heart gives way today

god please save me from this hellish catastrophe

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Kinda freaking out over what’s going to happen later today rn at 5 o’clock in the morning bc I can’t sleep. Uhm. Yeah.

Anyway, shit you need to know:

You see I.C.E?

Yell, “La Migra.” (La-mee-grah)

Be as loud you possibly can.

They are supposed to be starting Raids in Chicago on Tuesday.

You know neurodivergent or queer people?

No the fuck you don’t.

Are you apart of that spectrum yourself?

Suddenly you aren’t.

Know trans people or trans yourself?

Nuh-uh.

Do you have immigrant family?

Tell them how to answer I.C.E if they come across them. (a bunch of shit on TikTok can tell about that)

If you have birth-right citizenship, you’re at risk too.

Don’t be in usually populated areas.

Like, the mall, movie theaters, etc. it’s not safe, trust, there will be dumbasses out there today and probably the rest of the week, keep that in mind.

Anyone ask you about your political views?

Say NOTHING.

Or, “I don’t like to talk about that stuff.”

Don’t talk about them at all.

Same goes for your identity, aight?

Idgaf if he “saved TikTok” it was a stunt, they think we’re stupid. Forget that shit, don’t thank him. It’s fucking propaganda.

Stay safe,

Ik im not popular, like at all but please reblog, share, whatever

—Atlas

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i think its fucked up that the smaller i get the harder it is to burn calories lol

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i need someone to date so bad actually

everyone i meet is already taken bc i was too depressed to care about anything while they were all getting together

also i’ve never actually felt romantic feelings for anyone, and i’m trying to figure out if that’s because i haven’t met anyone i’ve liked enough yet, or my romantic feelings are off

but i really want to be in a relationship ?? i want someone to like me and i want to like them back is that too much to ask fr