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one thing that has always really contributed to the allure of tickle torture for me: the way you can experience legitimate torture from such a small amount of physical contact or energy exertion.

like when you think of torture in terms of pain, it can really take a lot of strength and discipline to physically maim someone and give them the suffering they desire. sure, there are some tools that make it way easier to inflict pain, like sharp objects and clamps but those methods can be less involved. when you want to hurt someone with your bare hands & feel them jerk and tremble under you, it’s going to take some force.

but tickling? i mean. it’s so..humiliating, at times, just how destructive and effective the absolute lightest touches and minimal effort can be. the way i can be reduced to tears, screams, pleas, swears, thrashing and bucking and crumbling while my captor lazily applies pressure to a single spot, sometimes tickling so softly that they’re almost making no contact to my skin at all. and yet, there i am, giggling uncontrollably, crying out in frustration, begging for a second to breathe, a shred of mercy. over virtually nothing at all.

it just fascinates me. it’s such an incredible form of power exchange. to be forced into submission by such a seemingly harmless act. and i mean of course it’s not always that easy, like i know that tickle torture can require just as much physical exertion as rough impact play or other forms of heavier domination. but like, the fact that so much damage can be done with so little force..that is so mmmm to me. yep.

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same i mean yeah you're so right love breaking them ,,,

shy horny girls that are physically incapable of telling you what they need are so much fun to break

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VALID

“relationship anarchy? wow sounds like you and your girlfriend have all the fun!” brother we are disabled. we are not relationship anarchists for the orgies we are literally just hoping one or both of us eventually finds a strong, able-bodied bf/gf to help clean our house and make us dinner in exchange for unsolicited infodumping and our feet in their mouth or smth

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YOOO SHES UR GIRL NOW?? CONGRATS 🎉🎉

while i'm here, have the best photo i've ever taken of myself

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listen. let me explain. the “negative reinforcement tickling” to “positive reinforcement tickling” pipeline, aka the punishment tickles to reward tickles pipeline, is one of my absolute faves.

SCENE I - i get stressed, overwhelmed, brain stops. just stops. avoidant mode activated. it’s me and the mildly horrified look on my face against the world while i go nonverbal for 45 mins. my gf pounces, starts tickling me and reprimanding my brain for being mean to me. eventually i’m snapped out of it bc all i can do is whine and flail until the giggle fits activate a hard reset. gf threatens my brain and says “you better be good or you’re gonna get it again” and my brain quails beneath her menacing stare, promising to behave.

SCENE II - brain does it again. total bluescreen. can’t get a goddamn thing done. i’m ruthlessly tickled out of a dissociative stupor and once i am gasping for air, gf checks to see if there is a hint of sentience behind my eyes. she approves once she sees that i’ve returned from the void, and i breathlessly giggle out a shy “thank you.” i get my work done.

INTERMISSION - while one might mistakenly presume that this sort of reinforcement is actually conditioning me to zone out even more often, this could not be more wrong. bc even though nothing snaps me out of my freeze response more efficiently and pleasantly than a tickle attack, i still maintain the inherent desire to be good. thus, it still registers as a punishment. and then the pipeline happens.

SCENE III - i run up to my gf, proudly showing her the task i’ve just completed, no matter how menial. i did it, i did a thing! look how my executives functioned up there! i did the thing i was supposed to do, and i did it without transcending the liminal space between paralyzing reverie and lucid consciousness first! and then i am met with the biggest smile and a giant hug that suddenly melts into the sounds of my own startled, involuntary laughter as i am pinned and flooded with unanticipated tickles. but it’s different this time. it’s a hit of pure dopamine. this time the merciless tickles are my reward, and my brain soaks them up like a sponge.

SCENE IV - the pipeline is complete. i am conditioned, without even knowing i was ever being trained at all. next thing i know, i am subconsciously fighting through the tv static in my brain time after time, showing her all the work i’ve gotten done again and again. strange, that the adhdemons in my brain could take over like they usually do, and i could still get the tickles we both know i always crave. but the added bonus of being good for her still takes precedent, and the lesson is learned 🫠

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okay i know it’s like 3am but i just finished adding captions to this and i think watching it back made me laugh harder than i did during this entire fiasco so im posting it now aksjssksk

clipped this from a 5 min test run video we made with the new bench stocks (gifted to me by the lovely evil @sirticklealot 💞) after i realized that if i turn it around and put it at the end of the bed, exene will have a nice little place to sit while she casually and effortlessly wrecks me 💀🫠

………HOWEVER

her cat Crusty decided to make an appearance halfway through, and. well. this is how that went. hahahahahahahahaha

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i feel so silly telling people that i’m into tickling. like yes, i fantasize about being tied down & having a ler slowly explore all the ways they can make me react. being helpless to stop shivering and laughing as fingers slowly run over my skin.

i love the idea of being humiliated and taunted for being so sensitive to such gentle touches. how quickly the mind spirals into fuzziness when i have nowhere to go & i’m subjected to the ticklish hell i couldn’t even begin to imagine.

to be a plaything for someone who wants to see me be an incoherent mess of pleading… to beg and beg for it to stop, but it doesn’t, because they’re having their fun, and they “can’t understand through all that laughter” anyways.

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Thinking heavily on verbal teases tonight, just leaning in so close to a lees ear and whispering so softly~ maybe even mixing in some ear nibbles/licks to really increase the sensitivity and the anticipation 🥴🤤

“You look so good like this, you’re so pretty~ tell me. Tell me you’re pretty while you’re being tickled and teased”

“Ask me to tickle you. I know you want it~ but I want to hear it”

“You’re mine, you belong to me. My fucking toy, you love it when I use you don’t you?”

“If you don’t keep your arms up, I will make them stay up”

“Don’t make me put a pillow under your back little thing, make you stretch out that tummy so it’s more ticklish”

“Do I need to get the tools out hm? Make you beg?”

See you tell me this doesn’t arouse you but.. you’re so fucking hard/wet for me, aren’t you little toy?”

“Let me see those beautiful eyes, those pleading, needy eyes that make me want to ravish you”

“It’s too much? Clearly not since you’re still taking it and whining about it so, obviously you can take more”

“Tell me you’re ticklish, come on~ tell me you’re ticklish, you’re my ticklish, needy, helpless little toy and you love it. No? Oh baby then you’ll be stuck here until you admit it, and then, you’re cumming a fuck ton”

“Oh you can’t cum anymore? It’s too sensitive? Too bad. I’ll just keep pleasuring you and tickling you until I think you’ve had enough”

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So... apparently, my last post was considered mean and unfair towards lees, so here is something actually mean you can do to your lee. :)

Make your lee beg to be tickled. Make them say it in a proper sentence. No abbreviations, no synonyms for it, nothing. Until then, they will be on tickle deprivation.

"Please tickle me." or something similar is the only acceptable request.

If you're feeling extra teasy, make them repeat it louder. And only with eye contact. No covering the face, no looking away. Because that's exactly something a lee would do. Looking at you, reader.

To top it off, ask them why.

Only accept reasons that are humiliating enough. For example, "Because I am your tickle toy and I want to be used."

And then reward them by giving them more of it than they've asked for... or more than they are able to handle.

Especially funny if they're brats.

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the best image ive ever found

rage for unlocking kinks I didn't know I had maybe

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and thats on being responsible 💯

IF YOU ARE

🚫 a minor

🚫 an adult who allows minors to interact

🚫 a “sfw tickle blog” who allows minors to interact

and you interact with my blog, you will immediately be blocked.

and no, i will not be elaborating bc i should not have to explain why any of these scenarios is completely fucking inappropriate to allow on this blog no matter how you try to spin it. i keep kids out of kink spaces and make no exceptions.

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need to tickle someone's ribs with a bullet vibe in them like a piano till neither of us tell the difference between their giggles or moans

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Lee logic 101

Lee’s: Lers teasing is so mean

Also lee’s: Teasing back, being brats, cursing at Lers, provoking Lers for funzies, pestering Lers when they are busy, lying 24/7 about not being ticklish, asking for tickles in the most non obvious and unethical ways.

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ok this is gonna be a slightly different post than my usual, but i was just in my feels tonight and i thought ya know, this is a really cool thing to be in my feels about. and then i realized how lucky i am, and how important it is to share this for anyone out there who is still navigating their own journey in finding compatible play partners for their kink. very long story time below the cut 💞

@socaltickle5 is seriously the best person i could have ever asked for to have my first, and ongoing, connection with in the world of tickling. and it’s not just because he’s beautifully sadistic and good at what he does when we play. it’s because of who he is and how he shows up as a play partner. and the reason this feels so important to share is because i’ve seen too many lees/submissives (primarily women, but it is not a gender-specific experience whatsoever, so this applies to anyone) on this site who talk about their fears of never finding a compatible play partner, or the harmful experiences they have had with play partners who proved to be unsafe.

what i wanna say is this: do not ever fucking settle for ANYONE who tries to rush you, pressure you, push you, guilt you, overwhelm you, or manipulate you in any way when you are searching for a dom(me) or ler.

when i first connected with socal, i was shy, terrified, and completely unable to conceptualize a world where i could meet someone from the internet and engage in bdsm/tickling play. the risks just seemed astronomical. it felt impossible. not only that, but i had never met anyone else with a tickling fetish before. i was embarrassed and consumed with internalized shame about my kink for my entire life, and it wasn’t until i started dating @exene666 that i gained the confidence to explore this space irl. she encouraged me, affirmed me, accepted me, and she’s the whole reason i even took the leap to post on reddit about desiring a meetup with a local ler to have my first “real” session.

now here’s the thing—i got flooded with messages, but socal’s was the only one that caught my interest. it was genuine, he shared that he was vetted, and made no attempt to change a single thing about the pace i was comfortable moving. and you know what i did? i ghosted him on and off for over a year!!!!!

and you know what he did? absolutely fucking nothing. every time i disappeared, he didn’t blow me up. every now and then he’d throw out a text to see how i was doing, and sometimes id reply! other times i wouldn’t. and every time i apologized for my silence, he told me i never, ever had to apologize for any length of time it took me to get back to him. he was never offended. he was never pushy. all he cared about was being open, kind, and available for whatever i had to offer, whenever i was ready to offer it.

eventually, after i was experiencing a lot of trauma over the summer including housing instability and chronic illness flare-ups that debilitated me beyond all of my and exene’s capabilities, he finally got pushy. but you know what he got pushy for? for me to let him help me. because he knew i was disabled, and that exene was disabled, and that i was about to be homeless because my apartment had black mold behind the walls, and i had to move everything out on a whim.

so he drove down to me and the first time we met, we donned N95 masks, gloves, and started clearing out my mold-ridden home together. we got to know each other while wiping down my shit with lysol and boxing it up. and then, since exene stayed back at the hotel we’d been displaced to cuz she was in pain, he drove me to in-n-out to get us food and brought some back for her, too. and we continued our meetcute at the laundromat so i wouldn’t have to bring any contaminated clothes into my hotel room.

we didn’t even have our first session for almost another month.

so, moral of the story is…my advice to anyone who is seeking out a play partner: do not compromise your needs, boundaries, timeline, desires, anxieties, trepidations, or abilities for ANYONE. a safe play partner is one who will not be guilt trip you if you don’t respond quickly, one who will not pressure you into nsfw play if you only want sfw play (another thing that socal shined at, bc initially i told him i was only comfortable with testing sfw clothed sessions and he met me with the same exact enthusiasm as he does now with our nsfw nude play), and one who will allow your connection to grow organically at YOUR own pace, especially if a connection is something you require before you feel comfortable playing.

and if you’re worried it’s “taking you too long” to find a good play partner? no such fuckin thing. i was 29 when i started texting socal, and 30 before i finally even met him. i was 28 when i started dating exene, and she was the first person who ever inspired me enough to go out in search of my wildest fantasies. there is no person or experience in the world that is worth you compromising your values for. there is no such thing as taking too long. you are worth ANY time it takes to find a play partner(s) who bring you nothing but respect, patience, enthusiastic consent, true chemistry, care, and safety.

you are the most important person in your kink journey, so always treat yourself as such, and never let anyone tell you that you should be any kind of person other than exactly the one that you are.

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no bc being into tickling is so embARRASSING like what do you mean i want someone cute to tie me down and, of all things, tickle me while i giggle and beg them to stop but i don’t actually want them to stop that’s just part of the thing

like why was i cursed with this 😩

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I want to break a brat this, I want to tickle a brat that

what about breaking a nice good girl who is so desperate to please you huh

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itsbgenuinelu sicj amd twosted how hot the word ticklish is specificlaly.. bc itsjust. liek. i might be roo crossed to ecplain. ill rebolg this inthe morning okay.