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To add onto this: Van’s death (as much as I’m upset by it) was a logical move to further the plot. The show is prepping us for a division between the Yellowjackets team; one that has Shauna, our main character, serve as an antagonistic force to the rest of the girls.

Taissa, who has always served as one of our secondary main characters, has always been more loyal to Shauna than the other girls. We see them forge a friendship in season one and Jackie’s death likely causes Taissa to feel even more connected to Shauna through their shared queerness. After all, the show straight up let’s us know that Van and Taissa suspected Shauna had a thing for Jackie.

The show often syncs what’s happening in the adult timeline to what is happening in the teen timeline. This makes narrative sense as the women begin to remember just how things actually were out there in the wilderness. Taissa is becoming aware again of just how messed up Shauna and what she’s done is. Still, between her loyalty to Shauna and the fact that Taissa let’s slip that the survivors literally made a pact to protect one another once they returned, the only thing that could have served to kill Taissa’s loyalty was to kill Van. We, the audience, know the fault isn’t completely on Melissa (they broke into her house and assaulted her). The blame is partly shared by Shauna. Taissa’s grief amplifies the blame she assigns to Shauna.

A lot of times I don’t like when shows or books kill off a character to further another character’s arc, but I really do feel like killing Van was NEEDED for Taissa’s arc. Not even to sever the connection between Shauna and Taissa, but to have Taissa grapple with her inner morals through out season three entirely as she tries to find a way to save Van from her cancer.

I don’t think Van’s death was pointless or random or stupid, though people are certainly entitled to those opinions. To me, it’s actually a really good story move toward the show’s central message of supernatural ambiguity. Just like Lottie & Shauna’s “you know there was no It, right?” / “does it matter?” feeds into the idea that supernatural or not, the wilderness lives primarily within the girls, Van’s death tackled this same concept. The entire season, people had been theorizing that someone would be sacrificed for Van, and it would either work or not work—either way, if Van’s cancer went away or if she died anyway, that would be a major indicator for or against the wilderness being canonically supernatural. Van craves this answer just as the viewers do—she’s desperate to know whether what they did in the wilderness was justified, but she’s afraid of the answer. We see Van switch drastically from being one of the wilderness’s biggest believers into being one of the adult survivors who is most reluctant to go back to their old ways. I think just as much as Van wanted to be away from the killing, she was also terrified that if she let Taissa make a sacrifice to save her and it didn’t work, she would have to finally face the fact that Lottie was never a prophet, and that their actions in the woods were their own choices.

So, with this all in mind, Van ultimately being denied an answer makes perfect sense. It also makes perfect sense that she was killed by another survivor. Her story has been so focused this season on supernatural vs. rational, but in the end, there can be no answer, just like there was no answer in the wilderness. It doesn’t matter if some greater force wanted them to kill each other or not—they did it anyway. The show has been telling us all along—it doesn’t matter. Van’s death at the hands of a fellow survivor brings the show back to the psychological element of the wilderness—Van won’t ever know whether she did the “right” thing, whether “it chose” or it wanted her to choose for it. She dies with the uncertainty that has always haunted her, and within that lies her answer. They killed each other because they believed they had to. Van was never going to find out the truth, which I think is why her teen self tells her, “what would be the fun in that?” It’s not yet time to discover that truth, and the show wants the viewer to understand that the real horror lies within the girls belief itself, not the truth of it.

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I thought it was too obnoxious to wear my full clay bead necklace around all day so I made a Percy Jackson inspired necklace for daily use.

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Pride & Joy — a Percy Jackson universe fancomic about how we have always been here.

I first came up with the idea for this comic years ago, but I put off making it because I wasn’t confident enough in my skills. But I think now is the right time for this message. I hope you guys like it 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️♥️

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my fave duo

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Shout out to my pookie, Piper McLean. I feel like Piper is one of the most white washed characters, so I really wanted to try and draw her with very Native (*Cherokee/Iroquoian) features.

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Hello Sunbearer Trials friends take some Teo × Aurelio you desserve a treat

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Lowkey my favorite character ❤️

Xochiperell Roan my belovd

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Stared at my phone screen for five minutes because I have no social media left except tumblr. Guess I have to go back to reading.

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Feeling an insane urge to reread mphfpc

Hi! Could you draw Miss Peregrine??

It has been a MINUTE since I was in this fandom so hooo boy- I LOVED her when I was a kid lol

I tried to go more by the book description of her but idk how much I like it so here’s more of a doodle- hopefully it’s alright🖤

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I don’t want to see anyone smiling for at least a week because really nothing is that funny rn

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Thought it would be fun to make some doodles of the Sunbearer Trials characters x Harry Potter! Always feel very Potter inclined during winter.

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Practicing my art by drawing my beautiful girlfriend 😔❤️

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Every time I think of Auristela Mount Rageous starts playing in my mind 😭

Think the twins are going to kick my ass for turning them into Velvet & Vaneer 🏃‍♂️💥🥊

Genuinely love the twins' story so much on a personal level(esp Aurelio) I actually had the traditional haircut for 8 years and had just outgrown it right before reading tsbt lol

idk who I cry over more, them or Teo&Relio but common factor is Relio so 🫶

Started working on these back in May wanting to do all the competitors before CM released but moving & shenanigans halted them the main trio are next >:)

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i had you blocked but now i don't see anything i don't like so. get unblocked ig. i like your art a lot.

Ya’ll can’t just leave messages like this and not tell me why I was blocked in the first place. I’m nosy 😭

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Atzi in the El Valle trial! Featuring Niya, Teo, and Xio in the background.

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That one silly video meme but omg aurelio is a baker‼️

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Oh my lord <3

why hello

lesbyler (featuring lesmiwi) dump