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Christmas and Autism

Christmas is dreading the whole holiday from months away.

Christmas is spiraling into dark mental places due to the extra stress.

Christmas is hating yourself for being such a downer and ruining this fun and festive time for everyone.

Christmas is taking a one-hour detour to deliver some cabbages to your parents, only to be yelled at for something entirely unrelated thing which you forgot to do two weeks ago.

Christmas is hating receiving presents, and hating the forced reactions of the people whom you gifted something, because you didn't know what to get them. You can't read people's minds, and asking them what they want is rude.

Christmas is locking yourself in the upstairs bathroom of your grandparents' place, but leaving the lights off in order to avoid being seen and praying that no one will come to check up on you, because you know for a fact that the panic attack you're having would have you written off as an attention whore.

Christmas is feeling such visceral hatred for the people who are supposed to be closest to you, and then hating yourself for believing you're a bad person because you feel this way.

Christmas is my least favorite holiday, yet every year I choose not to abandon it out of fear that doing so would degenerate me more. I've been hard-wired to believe that taking two steps back from tradition is going to be the end of me, and I'm so genuinely frightened by the thought that I do things which I know are extremely bad for me.

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*disappointed caveman at the club voice* i guess me just thought it something else

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gen ℤ invents WOKE negative numbers!!!!!!

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just bring fart spray

Imagine being promoted to shit sniffer

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a shame there's no "not now" option to this software update😔

uterus v2.9.1 has been installed.

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"I NEED A HEROOOOO"

~🎶🎤🐱

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i'm aware it just started but i need winter to be over again

i need to see the green of leaves

i'm dying

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i won't lie to all of you

food? with nutrients? it's like, oh my my so good

i'm eating green bean & potato stew made by grandma and even though it's hardly seasoned i feel so alive

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so i was looking at wood sfx and i found a channel with all sorts of that, including a video called

"Impact Wood Hit"

then a bunch of of other wood sounds and also

"Impact Wood Hit 4"

as well as one very angry commenter:

truly wondrous

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here are some pronoun edits of the "his writing is this fire?" image that i made a few weeks ago

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it must suck to do an assassinate and have everyone cheering you on and hyping you up cuz you can’t tell anyone you did it. you have to keep that information to yourself.

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Look if you're anti ai that also includes any and all chatbot ai, character ai is NOT fucking exempt from this how many times do people need to say this. Character ai is part of the system you claim to be against so stop fucking using it! Go talk with real people, go roleplay with them! Interact with roleplaying blogs! Go join a roleplaying discord server! There's so many ethical things you could do that isn't supporting the things you like to say you don't agree with but still willingly indulging in

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"edit images with AI-- search with AI-- control your life with AI--"

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