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holiday's over

the night before today, all bags are packed and they're ready to go - Ate Cz, Bab and Ate Tet. Why is it so sad? our home is now empty and back to its 6 plates every meal and a 3 occupied bed every night. The holiday chaos maybe irritating but I'll probably miss the random nintendo switch game night, the catch up breakfast and a our favorite "nasa sala pag gabi kasi bonding muna" moments.

i would never trade anything for this memories. my siblings will always be my top one bestfriends. Kung iiwan man ako ng mga tao sa mundo, okay lang basta nandyan mga kapatid ko.

im still not ready for the time na we need to live away to each other, i will always go home running to my siblings because when everything goes wrong they know what to do to make it right.

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to be loved is to be known

really? love? its fascinating, sometimes.

even the smallest details of that human must be known, even the weirdest thing she ates, the sounds she loves to listen to, the thing that makes her calm.

as i grew older each year, i realize that being known is being loved. My ates will always buy me pasalubong whenever i asked but my favorite part is even when i don't tell them what i wanted they always end up bringing my favorite mcdo meal, my favorite iced matcha from mercato & my favorite drink from kk. no matter where they are its always the one message of ate pasalubong they know what to bring.

some people in my life knew the love i wanted.

there's no fear in loving unless you're losing yourself because of loving.

and the scary thing is to lose the people whom you loved and loved you the most.

my sisters, zyxx,nanay & tatay and all the people around me who showed me what real love is will always be the reason of me loving too. Its His way of loving.

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ctto.

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pat loves to give me randomly picked flowers in the most random way, he'll hand me the flower just because & today he did it again.

who knew I'll met a love like this <3

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overcoming anxiety for almost a month is not a joke. Waking up in the middle of the night and battling with my emotions just to get back to sleep again. i want to be at peace

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i remember myself crying hard to Lord dahil may mga subjects ako na sobrsng nahihirapan at feeling ko yun yung magiging dahilan ng hindi ko pagiging intern dahil sobrang hirap hindi ko alam pano isusurvive. but then here i am, the Lord brought me here. No wonder why the Lord gave that battle for me to be ready for what He is preparing for my life. Truly He won't abandon you, He won't forsake you & He will always be merciful.

In His promise I'll forever cling.

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burn out

wala na bang iba? ako nalang lagi talaga? HAHA.

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nakakapagod maging si rose ann

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growing up i was told that whenever everything doesn't come alright or something is wrong you got to ignore it. Di ka pedeng mag dwell sa kung anong nararamdaman mo because you need to move on agad. You don't have the time to process everything. you need to be strong and move forward. But when i grow up. Ang hirap pala. Hanggang sa mapuno ka nalang ng emotions mo and mamuhay ka na wala ng naramdaman sa mga nangyayari. sana kayanin ko pa. baka pag hindi na, awan ko na.

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Lord help me understand this life.

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stuck w boomerz is the hardest part of my life HAHAH iinvalidate niyo na or what pero yun talaga. Yung emotional well being ko hindi mahandle ang environment when im w them🥲

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walang ibang pangalan na alam kundi si rose ann. :(

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ohh to live with boomerz💀

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why adulting is hard?

hi im rose ann, 22 years old still studying and learning how to balance my life - personal to social. Still learning how to balance my emotions and thoughts, learning how life should be living.

im not in my peak adulthood but i don't get why i feel like i need to meet the responsibility of a peak adulthood from studying to being daughter, friend and a person.

how time flies? yesterday im just a teenage girl who only knows to live life to the fullest but right now i can't recall how live life. Balancing everything - the thoughts, the words & the emotions. Life should be freeing, life should be peaceful.

everything seems to be messy

the coffee tastes different

the toast needs to be urgent

from the roaming around to running errand

from fixing, healing, then going back again

someday in the alternate universe it will be better, someday it will be over.

i hope someday the coffee will be back to its old roast, the toast will be savor at any hour, the time would not be rush and life will be lived while.

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life's too overwhelming, sometimes i just want to quit.

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funny how people use you just because they are not okay.

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you pulled the string