cpyyder
how i become myself
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cpyyder · 23 days ago
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I want to go out more. and I want to take pictures of myself. I want to be with my friends. and I want to hold hands. and spin around barefoot. on fresh grass. and we are laughing so much I need you to show me I’m real. you try to take your hands away from mine. I need you to tell me I’m real. and I’m clutching. and I’m shaking. and I’m begging. and you’re not laughing anymore. why aren’t we laughing anymore? but I never was. everything is blurry and my cheeks are wet. I am praying that I exist.
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cpyyder · 23 days ago
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I eat as much as I can. I swallow all these words, but they upset my stomach. I throw them back out a mess of what they once were. Still I devour, still I gulp, yet I force my stomach to hold it. The taste is odd, bitter, unsavoury - does it not belong down my throat? Maybe I should eat with my eyes, maybe I should eat with my ears. How should I eat to feel full? How should I eat to understand?
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cpyyder · 1 month ago
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2025 glow up
Drink water
Fraternize with no one. Live in complete isolation so as not to risk being disappointed ever
take walks
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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I have a lot of creative energy, yet I sit mindlessly scrolling through lobotomizing Instagram reels and TikToks. I've thought countless times about what to do about my restlessness, but I stay stagnant. I want to make something personal and honest with all of my favorite things. I worry if what I make will be enough for me, I doubt myself a lot but my contentment is getting harder to come by and I think I just need to do it
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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does anybody wanna frolic with me. does anyone wanna fucking dilly dally with me
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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we need to make using chatgpt embarrassing bc sorry it really is. what do you mean you can’t write an email
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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I feel like trump looking likely to beat a more competent and qualified female candidate twice, both being the only times a woman has been a nominated presidential candidate, is a real blow to the psyche for all women and girls in the U.S.. It seems to deliver a message of "no matter how put-together, professional, and smart you are, you will always lose to the dumbest, loudest man in the room."
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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Sometimes you see the moon during daylight because I miss you and I sent her to check in on you
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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I should be allowed into every museum’s archives actually
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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daylight doesn’t need any saving. i do
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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I am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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pics I took on my walk today (8)
mostly mushrooms
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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cpyyder · 2 months ago
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me. me when a poem says something ive felt before
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