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The San Francisco Examiner, California, November 16, 1933

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i’m so glad earth only has one moon, if there were more i’d have to pick a favorite and that sounds too emotionally taxing to even fathom

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well, you see, the thing is: (instead of finishing my sentence i curl up comfortably in bed and go to sleep

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I audition for the role of Ophelia.

Ophelia might be 18. She might be 25. We don’t know. We know she’s young and pretty. I’m 27 and fairly pretty. I’m not young.

The director says he won’t cast someone who “looks” older than 25. I know this means he won’t cast someone who looks older than he thinks 25-year-olds look like.

The truth is, your face when you’re 27 is the same face as when you’re 25. The truth is, your face when you’re 25 is usually the same as when you’re 23. It changes sometime in the night when you’re 21.

Your face when you’re 20 is your face when you’re 18 is usually very close to your face when you’re 16. But when you audition for a 16-year-old when you’re 16, you lose the role to someone who’s 25.

You realize that all of those teenagers you watched in movies growing up were adults. They needed to be beautiful. They needed to be desired. Not awkward, growing, acne, baby fat cheeks.

That’s why you never looked like them. You wanted so badly to look like them.

Now 27 is too old for 25 and you spent your life waiting to look old enough to look young until you’re too old to look your age.

I lie. He can’t tell whether I’m 23-25-27 or whatever age at which a woman is disqualified.

I get the role. I meet the actor playing Hamlet. He’s 45. I meet the actress playing Hamlet’s mother, and she’s 30.

God forbid a woman looks like she was born before she gave birth.

Imagine if she looked like a mother.

Would Ophelia like to be a mother?

Would she have to look like one? With stretch marks and tired eyes from late nights nursing her baby?

Would she have to grow up?

Luckily for Ophelia, she drowns before she gets the chance.

Luckily for me, I still look young enough for the audience to care.

Ophelia and I leave behind a perfect corpse. And happily, because who leaves flowers at a grave with crows feet and smiles lines?

The play is a tragedy, so we don’t smile much, anyway. Luckily.

The people will cry because I’m worthy enough to die,

and happy Ophelia will never become too old to play herself.

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Ophelia— a somewhat lazy poem I recently found buried in my notes app.

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⭐️bonus⭐️

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No one ever tell me anything bad about the person who runs this account.

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ok well this blew my mind

This is also true with filmmakers. Western filmmakers pan their cameras mostly left to right and Iranian filmmakers do right to left.

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whatever dude i dont even look that tormented mostly

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my xitter feed is awful because every few posts are either reminding me that im going to hell or that we're living in something worse than hell for women. and im tired of that and my anxiety doesnt help so i just shut down when i get the smallest reminder of these things

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Please help my friend afford food.

Mahmoud @ma7moudgaza2 and his family are running out of food.

In order to afford a sack of flour that lasts his family of 20 people A SINGLE WEEK, Mahmoud has to risk a difficult journey laden with criminal gangs hired to steal aid, and pay the equivalent of $350 USD.

They eat so scarcely that Mahmoud updates me when they are able to acquire food. The messages are too far apart for my peace of mind. Please help relieve Mahmoud of this burden.

$21,080 / $35,000 as of 24 November 2024.

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@ krimamr

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Dirt poor? No problem 😎

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corporate ppl are always like “i hate email comms they cause so many delays” but those people are fools. i crave communication delays. i hit send on an email and then immediately shoot a prayer up to the heavens that the response may take 2-3 days. let’s slow everything down just a bit thank you.

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Laptops are always so much more Fucked than phones in my experience. A laptop is like a beautiful horse that wants nothing more than to break all of its legs. A decently solid android phone will act normal

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i hate Tumblr ads i got the worst ad in existence. can they take my data and personalize the ads instead. i dont care anymore

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i fucking hate being an adult with a slowly increasing number of responsibilities its like one day you wake up and youre like aw fuck when was the last time i descaled the coffee machine