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im not smart enough to know the actual models of trains but i am at a point where if theres a train in a movie/tv show [set in the united states] i will immediately comment on the accuracy of the train and where its meant to go. 500 days of summer features an amtrak train and has it taking a route that is real which was very exciting to me. 9-1-1 probably had the least accurate trains but i assume it was on purpose.

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january over so its time for a little resolution update baby.

read 26 books: 35%

i read 9 last month, which is on par with what i expected to happen. ill admit one of those was a graphic novel that took like thirty minutes to read, and theres two books on there with about 125 pages each. but im not really worried about that as long as im not specifically reading small books for the purpose of the goal and instead just happen to read small books.

the real problem is that six were library books, so ive made almost no progress in the owned books department, but i did put up some new shelves so its not a big issue space wise anymore. i still would like to work my way through those owned books though. i should mention that the library books are all libby ebooks specifically and im unsure if i find it easier to reach for cause its on my phone or cause i know i have a limited time to read it or if its cause its mostly different genres than the physical books i own.

watch 104 movies: 19%

i watched 20 in january, which is much more than i needed to, but i also expected this would happen, and im not mad about it. last year there was a few months that i didnt watch any and some that i watched one every day so this is just sort of how i do movies i reckon.

visit all county historical plaques

ive gotten 2 so far. this is not good numbers, but im not worried about it, because theres two places that have like ten each. its been a real wet and cold month which doesnt make for wanting to go out anywhere. i can blame it on the weather for the first two or three months but after that its just me as a person i think.

life improvement

ive been applying to jobs and theres been a few i was real fond of but i aint got shit. im not worried about it cause i dont think im by any means Unemployable its just a matter of how much ill hate whatever i get. but its not like im at the bottom of the barrel yet and i suppose worst case scenario i go back to a factory nothings stopping me from continuing to apply.

all that other shit

everything unmentioned is cause i didnt do it or make any progress and i dont have any thoughts about it. well i do but theyre not particularly interesting. mostly ive been expecting a level of spontaneity to all the things i havent done and i think i need to acknowledge thats not the person that i am and i need to have things planned like two weeks in advance. preferably putting money into it so i dont chicken out.

news years resolution post. resolution seems too firm theyre more pretty loose goals. theyre not all that serious its just my way of reminding myself theres something i want to do. intention is to update every month to keep track of my progress. or lack of it. who knows what will occur.

read 26 books

last year the goal was 52 and for some reason i didnt read anything until december, so im halving it. i did read fifteen books in december so as long as i actually read for at least two months i should finish this up no biggie. 13 of those books were library books and i need to start working on all the books that i own because i dont really have room for all of them and im sure once read i wont keep most of them.

read in public once every two weeks

this has less to do with reading and more to do with trying to get myself to go to parks and such as that, i just feel like reading is an activity to do while there that isnt exercise which i would get self conscious about. every two weeks is really arbitrary, i just need to try to consistently do this. i think existing in public and also being outside is good for pretty self explanatory reasons and i want to try to explore more of my town on foot, which admittedly ive never really done.

watch 104 movies.

last year i watched 121 so this should be relatively easy. its two movies a week which is not an absurd amount by any means. historically speaking i wont do it this way and will instead watch like 30 movies in one month instead but its not necessary.

finish baldurs gate 3/one of the switch pokemon games

i have three pokemon games that ive played like three hours of each and i want to at least make an effort to finish one of them, same with baldurs gate. i dont finish most video games i buy and i dont buy enough of them for it to be a big deal but it does sort of make me feel bad and also i do like playing them, so i really wanna try and finish them.

visit all county historical plaques

this sounds fun and also i think itll be a good way to get myself exploring and paying more attention to the local area. theres only like 45 and most of them are clustered together so i think i could do this relatively easily in a handful of afternoons.

go to a live event once a month

ive been wanting to go to a ball game for more than a year and i just keep never getting around to it, so i really wanna try to get myself to go see shit. im not attached to sports, it could be any live event, but sports does seem the most plentiful and generally speaking i think id need to go out of state to see a comedy or music act that i like unless i deliberately go to one ive never heard of, which im not really keen on, because the thought of being at a comedy show i think isnt funny is a nightmare situation for me, and also ive never been to a live music event so i feel like i should at least be familiar for the first ones i go to.

general life improvement shit

i want to get a job that doesnt make me wanna kill myself. preferably with insurance, because i need new regular glasses and i want to get prescription sunglasses, which ive been wanting for nearly a decade and i just havent gotten yet for some reason, and also depending on how annoying it is it would probably be nice to get on anxiety medication for a bit. or maybe not. taking medication gives me anxiety so it might be a net zero gain. i also want to try to take some online classes at the community college cause ill get financial aid so i might as well slowly work my way to some sort of degree even if i dont really care about it.

new hobbies

i think i should get a record player and try to get into records, which is something ive been thinking about getting around to for like four years. i also really want to try to make a blanket[?], which i assume will be kind of shit ass, but it seems like a very approachable project in terms of someone basically new to fiber arts that will also find some sort of use in my house, its just a really time consuming one. everything else you can make is stuff that i dont want so i wouldnt make or its like clothes and that seems intimidating cause you gotta wear that shit outta the house. i also really want to try my hand at painting, i dont have any thought that ill be good at it but its something ive had in the back of my mind for a while so i want to give it a go at least a few times and see if i enjoy it.

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through pure random chance someone said "jerma rip your shirt open" and he said no i like this shirt. let me put one over it and rip that instead. and he gave the nation of mexico an eternal gift

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having a cat is great. there's a small little animal wandering around. effervescent

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i am simultaneously self-improving and being self destructive dont ask me how i just am

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big big baby

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this guy just raps numbers

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does anybody know if this moment in american history is precedented or not

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People who drive small cars in the US have balls of steel. (Here'a my car compared to the sort of pickups I see every day) (website is carsized.com)

The American method to car safety really is My Car is Bigger So It Wins The Crash.

And people drive these things like fucking maniacs. Every time I get behind the wheel I need to get into the headspace that literally everyone on the road is out to kill me. The lack of airbags combined with the fact everyone's driving fucking tanks at 60mph means I can kiss the world goodbye if I get into a wreck. If I disappear, assume I was plowed by Brad in his Ram 2500 while he was distracted stuffing a burger in his face.

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POV: you’re trying to take a bath

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I really love the r/volcanoes subreddit because most of the posts are just people going "what if a Volcano exploded right now?" "What if twenty fucking Volcanoes exploded near you right now?"

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I need a letterboxd for sports games. I need to be able to sum up my disappointment in a witty one sentence lyricism. I need to give games half a star

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how it feels to wash your hair and brush your teeth and have clean clothes on

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lonely castle in the mirror- mizuki tsujimura

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how to make the endless fear stop tutorial?? please? anyone?????