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Wembley First Year Anniversary Post – 16|12|2023 (written: 16|12|2024)

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London, 16th of December 2023. The day has come.

The day I was looking forward the most to during my stay abroad. Goddamn, that was a disaster, mentally draining even. I got up at 8AM because I wanted to go to the pop-up store. But I felt like shit. My back hurt like hell, my limbs sore. I didn't know I had Covid but hell, if I knew, I would say "Fuck it!" and still go. Because... This stay abroad was hell. I felt like being in a hole and Sleep Token... I needed them to say the least. To get comforted by their presence and music.

I won't recapitulate everything. But I can say this:

I was one of the first 100 people with Philipp, one of my dearest uni friends (who I could convince getting a ticket with my presale account information) queuing up and waiting for Alina, the person who ordered me a ticket, even though she didn't know me. All she knew was, that I was German, like her. And as she came to the pop-up store as well, it felt like....I belonged there. Behind us, Amy, from Ireland, a treasure of a person.

And as we stood there, I was texting with Alex ( @fivewholeminutes ) who gave me updates of the queue. With her, a propeller hat and a sign, asking the boys if they could give her a pick or a drumstick "for a friend". The friend that she knew for only 3 months, that she met a day before Wembley. Hi, that was me.

As I stood there, with Philipp and Alina, my back killed me even more. The pain was unbearable. But if you know me well and see me, I am like a little owl, looking around, to make sure how my surrounding situation looks like. Because big crowds, people I don't know... they scare me.

And as I looked on my right side, I stared into a camera. I started smiling and the person took it down. The person was no one else but Adam, and as he took the camera down, he smiled at me and gestured to not tell anyone he was here. I nodded and he rushed off. "What are you doing?" Philipp asked me in confusion but I just shook it off and smiled.

After 90 minutes of waiting we were allowed to finally go inside. To my surprise, the pop-up was just a tiny corner, located inside a bar in Camden Town. And it was stressful. Because of the little space with too many people inside. I got myself the limited T-Shirt for £30, not getting the coin (which I truly regret). But in the end I spent more than £200 lol.

And in the evening, being at the arena, it just felt like home... I hoped that III would come back. I didn't see the posts of him, or the new masks that were made by Lani. I didn't know anything.

Lets just skip Health (even though they were incredible, fuck, I love them)...

As Vessel came onto the stage, the melody of Chokehold buzzing in my ears, my back still killing me, I felt the tears streaming down. I was here, united with the boys.

And before the second part started, I could spot a red spot, moving and dancing around like a goofball. And then I realized that he was back. III was back. And I glanced over to IV and II, admiring them as well, I noticed that something was different. From the very distance it was hard to say but... I saw the new masks. Wow.

The ritual went on, I got to hear Dark Signs live for the first time, the growlings of IV during Vore made me sob as well. Everything was just... perfect.

But after quite a while, it was dark. And silent. I started to worry. The boys were not on stage. Where are they? It doesn't take that long, when they take a little break.

And then the lights went on again. The crowd cheered, but.... nothing. A little while later, Sam and Vessel came onto the stage. I was scared. Was it Ves who wanted to say something to us? Since it was Wembley? Did he need Sam as his emotional support? What was it? Were they about to cancel the rest of the ritual?

"Hey guys. How is it going?" Sam spoke, my hands, recording, slightly shaking.

"So... Vessel can't sing but you guys can." Sam continued. Telling us, while the poor soul of Vessel was standing next to him, wiggling nervously, he was sick and couldn't sing because he was not well. Fucking hell. At this time I wanted to run down and just scream it would be alright. That Vessel was loved. I could see from the distance he was tense. Nervous. Anxious. After Sam was done, he hugged Vessel tightly. And damn, Vessel needed this.

As they walked off the stage again, I heard someone saying "What is that kind of fucking bullshit?" That guy was bothering me ever since he said it. And trust me when I say he made it worse.

But I wanted to do my personal best. For Vessel. For the boys in general. My body hurt, I had an entire emotional rollercoaster going on inside me. But they needed us, they needed me. As much as I needed them.

And ... The Summoning came up. The lights were incredible. We sang it. We sang this song for Vessel. Next to Granite and The Love You Want. And seeing Vessel singing the last notes of TLYW with us and then breaking down, sobbing... Holy shit. It killed me.

But second mental kill was Atlantic. I recorded everything. And... I lost my words for a while. I sang... with him, and broke down into tears. Of sadness that was consuming me. The desperate signs of me missing someone I loved so much, breaking down with Vessel together... but... after Atlantic he went on with Nazareth (Vessel, excuse me!? Are you kidding me!?). Dude, I was shocked. Don't get me wrong but... that was the biggest twist ever. That is all I can and will say.

The lightshow was insane as always. The dancers during TLYW, and Rain... wow.

Oh Ascensionism, my beloved. It was so beautiful... but this one guy ruined everything. He never stood up... but then he did, during Ascensionism... and before that he was complaining that he "didn't sign up for a karaoke event".

Fucking bullocks.

Take Me Back To Eden... it was beautiful. Vessel, on his knees, singing his lungs out as much as he could.

And after I thought it was over when they finished The Offering... Vessel came back. Standing at his piano.

And it felt like he wanted to give us something.

For the first time being... I looked at him, nervous.

But all he did was sobbing and choking out two single words...

"Thank you... Thank you." And he started playing the notes for Blood Sport.

Blood Sport. A song I always am crying to.

But... Vessel. Hearing his words without a voice changer, expressing his gratitude for everyone. His second one was barely hearable because he was crying a lot.

Gosh. What a moment.

I sang along, with him, tears in my eyes, sobbing, shaking.

And breaking down when it was over. When everyone came to do their goodbye, it was hard to let them go. I didn't know what to do. Instead, I sat down, my body aching in pain and crying a lot. Feeling the sadness washing over me, the gratitude I have for the boys, every emotion flodded me.

And all I can say...

Wembley was amazing. Vessel and the boys did everything to make this night unforgettable.

Even though I cried, yelled, screamed, laughed and was in pain...

This collective had my back. As they always do.

Thanks to them I got new friends. My second home.

Thank you guys for being here.

And thank you Sleep Token, thank you Vessel, II, III and IV for everything.

I will join you, no matter what will happen next.

Until our paths meet again.

You are so loved.

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Thank you to everyone who read this.

I will add some extra links to another post of Wembley here. It will contain some pictures and videos from this night.

Special thanks to @fivewholeminutes and @thevenomousseprent ... two Tumblr cuties that I got the honor to meet and spend time with for the first time ever. I love you. So much.

Off-Tumblr people but worth mentioning: Thank you to Alina who bought the tickets. You are a gem. And thank you Philipp for doing this by being so casual about it (and also buying the groceries for me on Monday before you flew back home).

Have a lovely Wembley anniversary day everyone.

Love, Lia.

(Wembley archive #1 and #2 – Video and photos taken by vesselsscarlet, please give credit if you want to use/repost them! ©vesselsscarlet)

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Ofc Happy Wembleyversary to all Sleep Token fans!

But today is also a very special day to me bc it's the one year friendship anniversary between me and @vesselsscarlet so yk. Today is a great day <3

Thank you Lia for being the best friend in the world bestie ich liebe dich🖤

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sweet and pure asks

🐰- do you believe in soul mates?

💌- diary or journal?

✨- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

💕- are you crushing on someone?

💋- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

🐝- describe your aesthetic in emojis

🍼- what is your favorite memory?

🌸- what is your favorite flower?

💖- have you ever been in love?

🍰- strawberry or vanilla?

🍯- describe your favorite smell

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

🍪- cookie dough or cookies?

☕- coffee or tea?

🍃- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

🍂- what’s your middle name?

💫- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days?

🍭- how tall are you?

💒- which show would you want to live in?

🎄- what is your favorite holiday?

🍦- what scented candle is your favorite?

🎶- favorite song right now?

💘- 3 ways to win your heart?

🍩- current mood?

❄️- what is your favorite season?

💍- your current relationship status?

📷- a photo of yourself

💅🏻- do you like being spoiled?

🕊️- 3 habits you have?

🦄- how do you perceive yourself?

🦋- how do you think others perceive you?

🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys

🍓- one secret about yourself

🍒- how do you act when you have a crush?

💔- the reason behind your last breakup?

💬- what your last text message says?

🎥- what show are you currently binging on?

⛅- what is your morning routine?

💗- who do you miss?

🥀- last time you cried?

🎁- when is your birthday?

🔪- scariest/creepiest experience?

💤- date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

🎀- any question you want

~~Not mine

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Going Mad at Sea: A Packing List.

Are you planning on a nautical severance from your sanity? Here are some things to consider packing along!

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Heyyy I'm a big fan of your tiny Gentlebeard drawings!! And I was in a bit of A Mood™ so I was thinking, could I request you to draw something of. Like. Transmasc Stede? For the tinys?

I'm sorry if it's a weird request your tiny pirates make me so happy and stuff :')

oh you're so sweet!! I'm so glad my tiny pirates can be a source of happiness, here's a lil stede for you <3

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not having the energy to reach out to ur mutuals so u like their posts and hope the telepathic love gets across

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Edward Teach Edward Mortemer

(OFMD) (Distant Shores)

🤝

Queer pirate captains named Edward that will never get a proper ending because of corporate greed.

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“All those centuries, and you haven’t learned how to use a cell phone?” “I am 800 years old! Unless you know how to work a 15th century printing press, you can stop laughing and show me how to do the Twitter.”

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((inspired by a convo with @spirker ))

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Stede in his wedding bows:

(And that's the first time Ed finally let's him know that no, he didn't just casually find the ship. He'd been tracking him for days)

Stede, unprompted: so, I'd been gut-stabbed 🥰😃😍

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Do you ever just scream into the void...

EDWARD MORTEMER COME BACK

Do you? :')

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I refuse to take anything seriously.

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This morning Stede called Ed "sweetheart" for the first time, and Ed's brain promptly melted with sheer love. He's gotta think of a cute pet name for Stede, RIGHT NOW

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do u have those mutuals who are like WAY COOLER THAN U and when they reblog/like ur stuff ur just like 👀💯✔️👀

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saw this on my dash and had to recreate it for them <3

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Funny how the same people calling Con homophobic for doing a *hand gesture* (that 90% of the gay men I know use to refer to themselves) are also the ones calling a gay man a child predator for showing his underwear in a livestream that was marked as 18+ from the beginning.

I'm okay with people being uncomfortable with it, that's all within your right (especially if you actually were there). I was weirded out at first even though now I find it funny and don't really care. But slightly inappropriate content happening in a place that was supposed to be for adults is not the same as being a predator.

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Why does everyone suddenly hate Con now? Did he say something positive about Izzy again or did he actually do something bad?