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seeing double?

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I'll see my favourite character happy and smiling just once and be like omg I never want him to get hurt or feel pain ever again, give him peace 🥺🥺 and then the very next day be like, okay, back to pushing him down the stairs

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choose one

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Minutes after a fight with Leliana and Morrigan

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OK I'll bite. What's dragon age

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I will say, the only reason Dropout has the tme trans rep it does is cuz Ally Beardsley is in 200 episodes, and being that Ally literally transitioned while working there (basically transitioned on dropout in front of our eyes) it does make you kinda wonder if that rep would be what it is if Ally hadn't been in that friend group and already working at CH. Like obvi there are others featured but none of them have the same presence at all.

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It's always important to pay attention to the Palestinian Christian community and now more than ever. I want to highlight Rev. Munther Isaac's sermon, God Is Under the Rubble In Gaza, that never left me since the day I read it. Rev. Munther is a brilliant voice for his community and never fails to call out Western Christians, especially Christian Zionists, for their blatant hypocrisy.

Bethlehem, and Palestine as a whole, is not a mythical fairytale land to attach your biblical fantasies to. It should not suffer under the weight of your biblical orientalism and your evangelist conspiracy theories. It is a real place with a struggling people who practice multiple faiths in a way that does not have to appeal to you. Its people take precedence over your imagination and your propaganda.

God is under the rubble in Gaza. He is with the frightened and the refugees. He is in the operating room. This is our consolation. He walks with us through the valley of the shadow of death. If we want to pray, my prayer is that those who are suffering will feel this healing and comforting presence.

We are broken. The people of Gaza are suffering. They have lost everything except their dignity. Many attained glory — they attained martyrdom — even if they did not ask for it. Now, again in our history, they find themselves facing the same choice: death or displacement. Our Nakba continues!

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do you think you could take a vampire?

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as an american i don’t like america and won’t defend it from its detractors unless they’re coming for free refills or garbage disposals in which case you sound jealous

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my warmup today 🤗

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my main problem with inquisition is that the world (ferelden in particular) feel like sandboxes that the inquisitor can run around and do whatever they want in. the inquisition runs into no resistance that can’t be accounted to the person resisting either being an idiot or working for corypheus. the idea that anyone in this world would be suspicious of the inquisitions motives is never addressed in a serious capacity despite there being in-game historical precedent for nations/entities using disasters as a way to invade a country. we should get ambient dialogue of npcs in redcliffe or wherever wondering what the inquisitions presence means for fereldens future, some people worrying this is going to be another invasion.

 the reason the conflict with loghain works so well in origins is that we can hear individuals on the street reacting to it, we get cut away scenes to specifically show the nobles arguing over what they believe. meanwhile in inquisition there isn’t any meaningful interaction with a ferelden noble iirc beyond the five seconds you get with whoever is king/queen. which is why imo the introduction of ferelden not liking the inquisition in trespasser catches so many people off-guard because despite it being perfectly justifiable and in-character with what we know of ferelden, none of it was touched on in any meaningful way in the base game. 

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fandom will see a nonbinary character that doesn’t lean towards any particular gender, just strictly nonbinary, and be like “shipping them with a woman is gay and shipping them with a man is straight!”

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i do wonder what school of magic the various illusion-like spells we see in dragon age are considered as belonging to

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Meredith...is such a good villain. She's so perfectly nasty. She's real but she's just campy enough. She dresses herself to look like Andraste. The god complex of it all.

And Hawke by act 3 being so...not COCKY bc that implies some falsehood. Apostate Hawke, in act 3, knOWS, has PROVED time and time again, that they are Apostate Number One. There is no bigger fish to fry. Hawke knowing, with every conversation, that it will come down to them vs Meredith in the ring. And they are SALIVATING for it. And Meredith can't do anything!! Money is power. Hawke is backed by the nobility. Hawke is backed by the Fereldans. Hawke is backed by the Underworld. She can't move against them like she would any Lowtown apostate. And HAWKE KNOWS OHHHH THEY LOVE RUBBING IT IN HER FACE THEY'RE PRACTICALLY FLAUNTING IT. THE PSYCHOLOGICAL WAR FARE. The "We'll catch up at the Gallows, knight-commander, I've been eagerly awaiting a duel with you." THE FUCKER THAT KILLED THE ARISHOK IN SINGLE COMBAT??? fuck I love them. One of the tastiest rivalries in the series is Meredith vs. Mage Hawke.

(And while Meredith is too busy being pissed at Hawke for being King Bitch, Anders and Thrask are basically emptying the Gallows right under her nose. He is being a cunt for the People.)

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thoughts on handersbela? just in general, since you’re so good at thinking about dragon age

this is VERY good timing... i have been thinking lately of Them

i read a little snippet of andersbela fic the other day that wormed its way into my brain... theyre so interesting. putting them in a terrarium to study. with isabela’s avoidance of causes and anders constantly dwelling on his, they’re natural foils who can be lighthearted with each other and also have genuine discussion that brings out a unique philosophical side in isabela plus anders’ humour and slips of i think mixed frustration and admiration at the life she leads. their approach to relationships would create so many sparks (and not just in the bedroom. okay ive made my obligatory joke about them canonically having sex) with anders’ desperation for attachment while he can get it and isabela’s desperate avoidance of the same, and isabela’s need to take care of herself first and foremost and anders being self-sacrificing to the point of self-destruction. with my preference for red hawke i like hawke as a fierce solid support for anders and isabela as someone to lighten and distract; hawke to defend and stand by isabela as no-one has and anders to be gentler and affectionate with her as no-one has but also to challenge her to be everything she’s capable of. but with other hawkes there’s so much you can do too. the POSSIBILITIES

the idea of hawke holding onto them and them both convincing themselves they can risk having this one thing just for a little while... um some assorted thoughts. i think the classic arishok duel aftermath with anders desperately trying to save hawke’s life afterwards and isabela with her heart in her throat knowing it’s her fault is peak drama of all time. i think anders moves in and isabela always leaves in the morning and one time she can’t move because the stupid great big dog got in and laid down on top of her and she likes waking up with them so much and the whole day is full of light and she doesn’t come back for weeks after. i think isabela insists on anders’ terrible lute playing. i think anders doesn’t wear a hawke favour bc he has malcolm’s honour but one day he finds a hole in his coat skilfully patched with a square of blue and gold that doesn’t match at all. i think isabela never fights with as much brash cackling confidence as when she knows anders will heal her before she even stops to realise she’s taken a hit (obligatory “my hands look like this (glowing spirit healer magic) so my girl can look like this (sexy armour)” joke) and anders never feels as safe as when he knows he can count on her to appear out of nowhere to watch his back. i think she’d fascinate justice. i think anders is so bitchy abt her act break disappearing act and isabela snaps right back and that they always make it up to each other repeatedly. i think anders doesn’t understand why isabela keeps leaving and she doesn’t understand how he can bear not to keep moving

they both love hawke so much and they’re both so terrified of what it’s going to do to hawke, is the thing. i was vividly imagining them the other day (i really do mean it when i said this ask was good timing) and there was this rough wistful act 3 dialogue in my head that went like... isabela out of nowhere tells anders he should marry hawke and get out of kirkwall and have a dozen glowing children who talk too much. and he’s vaguely amused and disbelieving as they chatter through the hypothetical (“who’s going to marry us, then? the chantry?” “ship’s captain! right here! you get any old revered mother instead of me and i’ll scratch her eyes out”) but eventually he shakes his head, and says quiet, tired, “if only i could run away anymore.” and then he raises an eyebrow, and says, you should marry hawke. yeah? yeah, marry hawke, get out of kirkwall. have a dozen pirate children with no manners. win each of them a dozen ships to sail. and they laugh through the hypothetical and she says, “it’s almost a shame i’m not the marrying type.” and they both kind of sit there with the knowledge that hawke has lost so much and they’re inevitably going to leave them alone

and then because i’m a sap the last straw is isabela’s chance to step up and fight for what’s right and what’s hers without running away, and anders isn’t cast aside like he always expected but fought for no matter the odds, and hawke gets out of kirkwall and onto the open sea, sailing off with their loves to free the rest of the mages and to learn how to laugh again. and then corypheus rises and hawke is the one to leave them behind after all

also the champion of kirkwall and their bf and gf who can’t stop getting kirkwall burned down is, like, so funny. can’t you three do this at home.

those are my thoughts sorry it got long and silly and embarrassing its late and i love them both so much

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my aunt used to be a beauty pageant kid. had long, beautiful red hair with a curl pattern that made hairdressers jealous. her mother would pay people lots of money to spend hours styling my aunt's hair

predictably, as a young adult, my aunt cut all of her hair off. buzzed down to the scalp. she still keeps it pretty short- long enough for curls to develop, but only on the top of her head. she says she can't stand the feeling of her hair touching her ears or neck.

recently she's started collecting and styling wigs. she'll even wear them, occasionally, to a fancy event or if she just doesn't want to be bothered by distant family when she goes shopping. and she spends hours styling these wigs, even though she doesn't use them all that often.

i asked her about it. she said that sometimes, growth looks a lot like regression with a twist. that she's reclaiming something she enjoyed as a kid, and could have enjoyed more. she said she's practicing having agency, and that it's a skill that doesn't come very naturally for her. having agency, i mean. she's really good at styling wigs.