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Trying to raise some funds to cover domain/hosting costs for the 2024/2025 year (my renewal comes up this October). Goal is $200 USD. Anything helps.

Every LGBTQIA+ spot I found myself in was the same… I mean, if Diva Worship and fashion is your thing, that’s perfectly fine… I was looking for the queers who made noise tapes, liked weird shit, appreciated Joel-Peter Witkin for the art and not the shock. All the Industrial/Noise communities I found were littered with edgelords (with some “cool” people sprinkled in if you’re lucky)… I was hoping to find people who were exorcising their demons through their music, not people trying to abuse others with it.

I started FANE because I couldn’t find it elsewhere. We’re just starting, only 2 issues out with a 3rd in production, but I genuinely feel we’ve got something special here and I desperately need help to make it grow. I’ll save you the long winded version of the story: Anxiety, Depression, SI for decades lead to breakdown, job loss, and lack of income. Waiting lists, doctor visits, Adult ADHD diagnosis with possible Autism, getting the right medications, making slow improvements. Haven’t had income or been able to hold a “real” job now for 5 years. I don’t qualify for any kind of financial assistance or disability. I don’t know why I have the energy and drive for FANE when sometimes I can’t muster enough drive to answer a phone call, or return a text message. Well, it’s called mental illness for a reason I suppose.

I’m not begging you to give me a cozy life, pay all my bills, hook me up with the latest recording gear and tech, etc. I know we’re all struggling and the cost of everything has skyrocketed. If you’ve got a couple bucks to spare to make sure that a $200 yearly bill doesn’t kill FANE, it would be greatly appreciated. I will always provide FREE PDF versions of every FANE issue, special report, or any other such FANE related publication. Again, literally anything helps.

I truly appreciate all of you, and sorry for the virtual solicitation.

-Rob

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Finally, you can get your hands on Issue 2 of FANE!

On The Cover: “The Inspiration of Derek Jarman” by Daniel Land / “Remembering Derek Jarman” by Matthew Levi Stevens, Bruce LaBruce, Florian-Seraphim Fauna, Ben Waddington, Jhane P., Barry H., Jo Z., Kassi W.

Interviews/Features: Xayla Kia Daisy (Photocopy Art), Maria Iolanda (Painting), Tomasz C. (Collage/Painting), Pain Chain (Collage/Music), Plaguehorse (Music), Death Spa (Music), Chv.Volk (Music), A.S. Valentino (Music), Celeste Ziehl (Prose/Poetry), Steff Juniper (Poetry), “The Anxiety Riddled Life of Mr. Disembodied Eye” (Comic Strip), “The Hoarse Motivator” (Unsolicited Advice), and “Pets Are Awesome” (Because everything else sucks).

Music Reviews: MATRIMONY, Unicorn Hits, Solar Hex, WELTSCHMERZ, Walter Campbell, uncertain, False Maria, Dumb Dog, Cum Gutter, smr.tni, Gender is the Bastard, Quivering + Nausia, Yellow Belly, Death Spa, Norillag, Chuck Steak, Pain Chain, Princess Disease, Straight Panic, Threshold: Body Hammer, In Cascades, Hidden Gateways, Cranial Key, CZ, and Nudeconsumer.

110 Unapologetic Pages of LGBTQIA+ Goodness.

Download for FREE at FANEmag.com

After you’ve read the issue, let us know what you think. We’re always open to constructive comments, and who knows, you might even make the Letters section of a future issue! FANEmag@gmail.com

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It really is gonna be pretty nice.

Coming soon :)

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Wish I could figure out why Instagram keeps pushing abused animals and homophobic bros into my feed. I don’t want to see either, and I don’t engage with that content, so I dunno what to do.

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Would absolutely LOVE to hear from fellow LGBTQIA+ who love Derek Jarman. Deadline to email FANE is Friday, April 5th Wednesday, April 10th. It’s been 30 years since Saint Derek ascended to the afterworld. We’re trying to show a little love and reverence in his memory.

I really, truly feel this is important. If you love Derek, please, consider telling us so.

By all means, feel free to spread this far & wide.

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Let’s go, Qwierdos!

I swear Issue 2 is looking good already. I’d love to hear from more people wanting to share their coming out stories, to explain what it’s like living with a debilitating condition (physical, mental), to demystify common misconceptions people have about their identities… and so on. Gotta get some music reviews sorted, too. Don’t be strangers.

FANEmag.com | FANEmag@gmail.com

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EAT.IT.UP.

EAT.IT.ALL.UP.

The inaugural volume of Queer Noise Terror is finally here. Featured are 30 underground LGBTQIA+ artists showcasing the more abrasive and subversive sides of queer music and culture. Circuit party anthems have been traded in for circuit bending experimentation here (we kept all the filth and sleaze, though!). We’ve got lots of noise, power electronics, metal, industrial, ebm, dark ambient… almost 3 hours of audio warfare!

Featuring: STRAIGHT PANIC, Mictain & Mørk Verden, SUGARPIE, False Maria, Burial Woods, No Tuesdays, Hydra, THRESHOLD, HYPERECLUSE, Garden Angel, WELTSCHMERZ, Farrah Faucet, VÆPORS, Chv.Volk, Bratislavská Krutosť, Gyna Bootleg, Destitute Mirror Children, The Cost ov Living, MITH-XX, Quivering / Nausia, Mono Theory, Morerose, Salò Mentale, Tiefling, Walter Campbell, A.S. Valentino, Density Creep, Sk​ú​š​ka Sir​é​n, Robert Ferent, and V.I.L.E. (Desdemona Ill, Richard Ramirez, Sean Ramirez).

A warning for the uninitiated: Noise, as the name suggests, can at times be incredibly distorted, intensely bass heavy, and can genuinely wreck your speakers (and your ears) if not treated with respect. Proceed with caution, for you are now “at your own risk”.

You may freely share this digital compilation with others via the internet so long as the compilation remains whole and unedited. Any commercial use of any part of this compilation is strictly prohibited. Please contact the artists directly with any licensing requests or questions. Now, go get your face melted off!

Download/Stream on Bandcamp

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Controlled Bleeding (1982)

L-R: Paul Lemos, Buddy Flip, Gary Pecorino

Posted by Buddy Flip on Facebook. I think this is the earliest photo of the band in circulation.

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For anyone keeping notes, I ran out of the 10 day supply, can’t get my prescription refilled because of a major shortage apparently, and my brain has reverted back to the 24/7 noise/distraction, and it’s absolute hell. I know so many are dealing with much worse, so I feel bad for feeling bad and so on, and so on, and so on, over and over and over again.

1st day with ADHD medication. I definitely feel different, but I don’t know how to describe it.

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1st day with ADHD medication. I definitely feel different, but I don’t know how to describe it.

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Horny Walter the Nautical Sex Rodent = The content we’re all here for.

for new years day, i decided to start posting more art

here’s my original character, Horny Walter the Nautical Sex Rodent, he drives his nasty boat around the world’s oceans in pursuit of hole, leaving a trail of ecological destruction in his wake

i will be developing a line of merchandise for this new character, talks are already ongoing for the Horny Walter PEZ Dispenser/butt plug

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Very long, emotional, and exhausting doctor appointment today, but at least I finally got some answers: Autism Spectrum = No. ADHD w/Contributing Anxiety Issues = Yes.

Hope some FANE related stuff comes in so I can throw myself into it and not think about things too much for the rest of today.

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I don’t know exactly what it will sound like, I don’t know if anyone else will be involved, and I don’t know when it will debut, but I wanted to introduce my new music project HVNTY to you fellow freaks still wandering this social media desert. Expect abrasion. I think 2024 just might be the year I come back to the land of the living.

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I need to share an embarrassing but funny anecdote.

Until yesterday, I thought “bipoc” was for “Bisexual People of Color”.

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I posted this on Instagram, but wanted to share here as well.

Get involved!

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I think I need to make music again, and I think I want to do it under a new name, and I think I know what the name is, and I think I know how I want to artistically spell it, and I might have ready made a logo, and now I just need to get a working set-up of any kind again.

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I know the world’s on fire. Regardless, happy holidays to everybody.