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A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara + friendship

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Sean Young Polaroids - Blade Runner (1982)

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Willow Smith, playing a St. Vincent signature guitar

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and when we break we’ll wait for our miracle god is a place where some holy spectacle lies

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Widows (2018)

Directed by Steve McQueen

Cinematography by Sean Bobbitt

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If you’ve got a better plan for me tell me. I’ll try it. Maybe it’ll be better than this.

Wildlife(2018) dir. Paul Dano

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The Lighthouse (2019), dir. Robert Eggers

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Shirkers (2018) dir. Sandi Tan

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Varda par Agnès (Agnès Varda, 2019)

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As I Was Moving Ahead Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses of Beauty (Jonas Mekas, 2000)

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Sean Talamini, also known as Illustrasean, is an artist living and working in Philadelphia, PA. 

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~*~cinematic parallels~*~

That kid from Titanic/Actual director Xavier Dolan

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EUPHORIA is a must-see GenZ drama

HBO has put a lot of marketing into capturing the Gen Z crowd with EUPHORIA. The Zendaya-led cast is inclusive (sort-of?) and ultimately a beautiful tale of addiction.

For starters, Zendaya has never – I repeat never – been this good on screen. Her addiction feels real, her highs feel uncomfortably realistic, and her lows hit with a thousand bombs. She’s always been a beautiful actress, but I don’t know until this show that she’s proven to me that she’s a good one. In this show, she’s both and more. Her character is something with whom we immediately empathize—her sardonic tone, her clever wit, and her awkward friendliness. I can’t wait to see where she takes us and how.

The show’s creator, Sam Levinson, is a recovering addict but he is not Gen Z. The kind of life and empathy he brings to the Gen Z characters that make up this show is something I haven’t seen before from an inherently conservative disdain that television has for this generation. This to say that the show is realistic and it paints a holistic picture of the characters in the world without making them jokes or stereotypes.

However, where the script fails for me is in the character of Jules, a trans* girl who befriends Zendaya’s character. I hope we see Jules grow more; but as it stands, we see a stereotype of trans* experience: search for sexual fulfillment in dark motel rooms with creepy old men and relentless bullying by peers. Levinson’s impetus, of course, to portray this reality for many trans* teens is commendable, though, I often wonder if art ought to complexify the sadness surrounding queer and trans* subjects. Only time will tell if Jules is more than a stereotype. For now, I love her confidence, her love for her father, and her insistence to be noticed and taken seriously.

If you need another reason to watch the show, the show is breaking barriers in its portrayal of male nudity, which at least in the first episode far outweighs female nudity, a notable subversion of the status quo when it comes to premium television shows. So, if you want to see penises, watch Euphoria. 

The show is must-see television. I can’t stress how excellent Zendaya is, how empathetic the characters already are, and how beautiful the direction has been.

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jules in the first episode of euphoria

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And then it happens. That moment your breath starts to slow, and every time you breathe, you breathe out all the oxygen you have. And everything stops: your heart, your lungs, then finally, your brain. And everything you feel and wish and want to forget, it all just sinks. And then suddenly… you give it air again, give it life again. I remember the first time it happend to me I got so scared I wanted to call 911, go to the hospital and be kept alive by machines and apple juice. But I didn’t want to look like an idiot and I didn’t want to fuck up everyone’s night. And then over time… it’s all I wanted. Those two seconds of nothingness.  —  Euphoria, Pilot

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One of the Delaroche Sisters’ songs for the Pepper Heights Zoo. As heard in episode one of Dreamboy, Goodnight, Esmerelda.