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My year of rest and relaxation aesthetic

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Still one of my fav Meme of all time

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I will not lose my virginity until I am skinny idc how long it takes

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they're minor inconveniences TO YOU. i WILL consider killing myself

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Adding this to my current workout

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It’s something comforting about being on ed tumblr and ed twitter during school

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˗ˏˋ it’s like you’re screaming and no one can hear you´ˎ˗

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It’s always the fat people that talk about body positivity and how much they love their bodies yet they be the first ones to hate on skinny people, ask tw, or tell us not to promote Ana

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hot girl movie recommendations

- virgin suicides (1999)

- black swan (2010)

- daisies (1966)

- girl interrupted (1999)

- leon the professional (1994)

- possession (1981)

- love lace (2013)

- closer (2004)

- gone girl (2014)

- lady bird (2017)

- palo alto (2013)

- the bling ring (2013)

- helter skelter (2012)

- jennifer’s body (2009)

- speak (2004)

- lost in translation (2003)

- breakfast at tiffany’s (1961)

- moulin rouge! (2001)

- perfect blue (1998)

- marie antoinette (2006)

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i swear fasting is easier than restricting

once i get one thing in my stomach its over for me

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I’m in my spiritual era

(I’m starving to feel something again)

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ED Things

- Napping all day because you have no energy - Waiting for the day to end so you can check the scale the next morning - Holding apple sauce or honey under your tongue to boost your blood sugar - Having literally 4 thousand packs of gum/mints - Having different flavors for different cravings - Discretely squishing and poking at your fat in public - Compulsively checking every window/car/mirror you pass by - Sucking in your stomach all day as a habit - Relaxing your stomach and feeling your sore muscles - Resting only your tip toes on the ground while you’re siting to raise your thighs and make them look smaller - Developing workouts to do while sitting in class - Tensing your hands in pictures to make them appear more boney - Practically living in fuzzy socks and a hoodie because you’re so goddamn cold - Rubbing your collar bones just to make sure they’re still there - Googling the calories absorbed from lotion or henna or perfume - Thinking the 3 calories from your gum is too much for one day - Smoking cigarette butts you find instead of eating - Automatically sizing everyone you pass - Picking your seat in class that has a view of the skinny girls for motivation - Guzzling water in the bathroom before a doctor appointment - Only having sex in the dark - Flinching away from everyone’s touch - Laying on your back and sucking in then standing up and trying to hold that pose - Thinking some thinspo is too big - Discovering all the tricks and poses that make your body checks slimmer - Resenting your skinny friends for eating junk - Reading endless articles about weight loss - Memorizing low cal recipes - Going through low cal recipes to see if you can cut any more calories out - Surviving on liquids and mints - Having to explain why you have so many vitamins to family/friends - Eating baby food as a meal - Literally everything reminds you of your ED - Taking your measurements down to the millimeter - Lying about your religion/diet/allergies to get out of eating - When your weight fluctuates so much in just a few months that you don’t even know what clothes fit you - Instinctively covering your stomach as soon as you sit down - Readjusting your clothes every 30 seconds to make sure there are no wrinkles that could maybe slightly look like stomach rolls - Having that one thing you do compulsively to remind you to stay on track (when I’m sitting down I grab the fat on my inner thigh right next to my knee) - When 100 calories = 2 full meals in your head - Being stuck between always wanting to talk about food but never wanting anyone to ask you questions about it

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Triggering yourself by watching "to the bone" is lifestyle.