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Something about this cover makes me feel simultaneously comforted and melancholy. I love it.

[cocourt]

I’m flying to Pittsburgh in four days to visit a friend (who’s kinda more than a friend) for New Years.

Other than securing a sitter for the Ruester, I have done absolutely nothing to prepare for this week long venture. I guess it’s all going to come down to the wire as per usual.

I’d be lying if I said I was entirely excited. I mean I am, and I’m not, but I think the latter is because of this disconnect I’ve been feeling with him for the last month and a half (for reasons I won’t divulge) and there’s a lot of uncertainty around how this is going to go and what comes after.

To make things even more complicated for myself I started seeing someone in Seattle about a month ago. I feel just as disconnected from him if not more. I started this relationship (if you can call it that, we aren’t exclusive or have even had that talk) for the wrong reasons so maybe it’s already doomed, but I am starting to like the guy. Not sure how I feel about that. I’m trying to remain as detached as I can for my own sanity.

Neither knows of the other, I’d like to keep it that way. But if they did know, would they even care? I’m not so sure.

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First solo Christmas came and went. Took some time to reflect, fiddling with Notion and planning for the year ahead. Then ventured down to the cinema near my apartment and watched a gothic horror classic. My SIFF ticket stub collection grows and tomorrow it’s back to reality (work and a dental appointment).