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ishq thoda katarnak hai.

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Batane ki baat nahi hai, Par... batane dogi kya?

Ishq bepanah hai tumse, Ek bar... jatane dogi kya?

Tum titli ho, pahad ho, Aasmaan ho mera.

Ek dibiya me, sindoor rakha hai mere pass.

Tum... lagane dogi kya? –Zakir Khan

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Hello my friends! 👋💓

The situation in Gaza is worsening day by day, and my family is still struggling in very tough conditions. 😔💔

I only have $223 left to reach the $9000 goal, and I hope to achieve it today. 🇵🇸😢

I sincerely thank everyone who has supported and stood by us during this time. 💗🍉

https://gofund.me/abbc2759

<3

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Oh ye sharam sei marr jaungi meh iss nashe ke saath

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If I could put it into words.

If I could put it into words I would say that I want to chip the skin of my fingers not only till I see blood,but till I see my flesh.

I would say that I want to gouge my eyes and break my bones.

I would say that I want it all.

I want the world.

I could never have it.

I would say I'd experience the drug that is pain so addicting and freeing.

I'd say I'd want to help those like me.

I'd say I am not free but I wish others to be.

I am not kind, nor compassionate.

I would say that I no longer enjoy being brittle.

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Please, I beg for your love

OVER

AND

OVER

AND

OVER.

AGAIN

AND AGAIN

AND AGAIN.

I will NEVER get tired my love my skin craves yours.

My eyes burn red to be seen by your eyes.

Oh, so blind you are

How pure you are

Break me like sticks, I am fragile and torn.

Climb in my heart like vines, I am brittle and shallow.

But no more shall I hold this hurt.

As I bury your soul in the dirt, I can only hope that you'd stop rotting in my mind.

You reek of kindness.

It gags me.

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Do you want to hear a story?

When I was a child, I cut my nail off completely accidentally. It died, and my flesh laid open to the wind, something that i hadn't felt before. The blood on my finger was blue under my nail, it was cold, unpleasant, and painful. I could never forget the surprise i felt when I woke to find that i had hit my table fan's wings in my sleep. I did not yell, I did not scream, I walked to my mother, I told her, I sat and fainted for a couple seconds. Blood poured out my hand, reaching my wrist, then my elbow. Staining my white rags. Staining the white tiles.

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And there she laid before my eyes, as pure as the sun and as beautiful as flowers.

There she laid with her dresses and letters.

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Father?

Father why are you so cold?. For your body reeks of sickness, both your blood and mind. You kind man why have you gone cold? Father please for once do not tell me you love me, for once, let me let go of the grip I have on my lifeline. Father, please, let me go. I've only ever wanted for you to carry me like you once did, but this time, you must let me go.

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Lay in grass, touch your soul, the grass hides the filth of dirt, your soul is a mask for your filth that you hide in your mind.

Lay in grass

Touch your soul

Touch your mind

you're here no more

Do not explore

Do not explore

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Hunger.

Your stomach, it twists and turns wild,

pain

pain

pain

I, at no time found you to be so

hungry

hungry

so, so,

hungry.

Crave some

flesh

crave some

blood.

Replenish your

hunger

then feel once more.

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You're the sun of the world that spins and sings un-chantable songs in the mist that your ears can't quite catch; And I am the sea the turns and twists by your winds and your melodies, signing your land with each storm that you pull.

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Oh please, my dear, entangle my fingers in the gaps of yours once more.

The tips of my fingers are as red as your lips they burn for your touch.

For my love is buried deep in my body- would you unroot it for you to hold?.

Would you crack my ribs till my affection lays raw in your palms?.

Would you my dear?.

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Your ray of light darkened every day bit by bit till the realisation bit your mind as you drowned, she felt as cold as storming seas which you know of well.

She left, your ray of light.

She left with all the daisies you gifted her.

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Somedays I sit blankly, scrolling through my scattered and impure mind that you somehow always found a way into.

I search, I scour every memory of us to find instances where I knew you'd leave me.

I scour through every word, every promise, every hint.

I find it, I found it long ago, but I keep on searching.

Hoping that I hadn't.

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And through the distance that slowly buries your name in the dirt day by day I remember you, I remember you through the hurt, and numbness I feel whenever I catch your name in the light, the light of my mind is dimmer and dimmer day by day but it stays lit, craving for your name.