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TW: Mentions of suicide, grooming/pedos, abuse, etc.

I’m quite aware that many, many people have already brought this situation up several times before but I think I’d like to share how I feel about all this drama within our communities as a whole.

I, as a transgender male and minor, do not feel safe.

This includes anonymity online. I cannot go more than two months without being made aware of some new situation happening online, and a good majority of the time it is from people I have known, whether it be people I am really close to or that I’ve seen off and on via MAProjects, good majority of the time.

I cannot escape to the online world if minors are being worshipped as gods and groomed. I cannot escape to here if people are constantly being treated with laborious work on simple MAProjects, some being paid and some not. I cannot if people use their own problems as a valid excuse but then invalidate those who sympathize with them for the same reason. I’d like to point out that people with disabilities can still have an ableist mindset, especially if they’re using their own disabilities as an excuse and invalidating others who are doing the same or accepting their disabilities with similar situations. I cannot make this anymore clear, I am so tired of my friends being put down for the things they cannot control by having pity for their perpetrator.

Within the span of what’s almost been a year now I have seen so many people including my friends either come out as extremely bad people, or being treated some way by the aggression these people bring. I have been, in some way, included, or almost included, several times in these situations, and I have tried to make my words clear, each attempt in vain. And, due to this, I continue to stay silent, because nobody in either world will listen.

This is why I don’t usually promote things unless it’s to protect the lives of others. I cannot handle the confrontation and the risks it will take and do not want to risk falling into several rabbit holes of spiraling madness and drama just because people on the internet don’t know how to not be disgusting. I’ve seen my friends be groomed while they were minors, and I’ve seen many adults attempt to befriend them when they were far too young. This had also happened to myself. Luckily, the adult in question is now distanced from me. Unluckily, that was because of his own problems, which I won’t bring up here but he was a pretty bad person. I had to deal with that alongside others who had went through far worse.

I will not be bringing up what had previously stirred this conversation. But I will promote to you a recent video what has a fine example of what I’m talking about, made by a mutual of mine.

The fact that hundreds of people must promote these kinds of things, including minors acting way more responsible than adults, is honestly just sad. (I am in no way saying not to promoting this, I just feel it’s pretty sad that we have to.) People hide behind a disguise and act extremely irrationally and creepy. We get to see their true identities, but if we do not already know them, it’s all in vain. People commit crimes. People stalk us. People hunt us down like wolves, it’s terrifying.

I have loved the Warriors community and general MAProject community since I was around ten. They were my favorite things to enjoy, and when I got old enough, I participated. I deeply regret this. I should never had set foot into a place where people show their true identities, but never who they are in the real world. Minors should not have to deal with dangerous adults when they, a good majority of the time, can’t even report their actions to the police. It’s awful. They don’t deserve to go through this, we all unanimously don’t.

Other people I’ve seen, if not grooming already, or even alongside it, continue to be creepy and weird around people who have thought they were a friend. I’ve seen several people using suicide as a guilt trip, which is awful. Suicide is a massive struggle in the real world, and to make such bold claims such as that and things like sexual assault, abuse, etc., is to deny or invalidate others who of which have dealt with that struggle from telling the truth. Trust me, I’d know. Nobody believed me because I couldn’t show anything. They blamed my mom for everything when I believe, truly, that she is one of the most responsible people I’ve seen.

We are in this together, I swear to you. We cannot change this, but the most we can do is warn everybody else. I know the pain and the fear that many feel right now. If we can’t at the bare minimum escape online, because we recognize that we are footsteps away from war in reality, then where else can we go? Where can we find the safety and comfort we used to have? Nowhere.

If you are to go online you must recognize and face your flaws, and not let people grow victim to your actions. If you are to go online as a minor you must minimize yourself so publicity doesn’t know who you are. I feel terrible for those who are children, showing their faces to people online, risking their safety and endangering themselves any day if their parents grow irresponsible or look away for even a moment.

I fear for our safety. The most we want to do is talk in friendly demeanor, animate, draw and share our creative liberties, and, most importantly, feel the minimal security everybody should deserve. But the only way some feel that sense of safety and security is to use other people like puppets. Don’t you guys want people to look up to you as a role model, as an example of who these people want you to be?

Would you really risk your reputation and love just to commit a crime, if not several, for your own guilty pleasure? It’s awful! How could you even possibly make that decision without a thought in mind? It should be an obvious no!

And yet, people don’t care. But until they do, this is the best I can say to everybody who takes their time to read this. A warning, if you will. We are not safe online or in reality. We may never be. So many lives are at stake, war is brewing in such quick notice, and if we are unable to distract ourselves by appreciating a separate, more secure community, then how will we ever recover from heartbreak and suffering and fear? It isn’t safe here.

To many younger minors who have somehow gained access to read this, please do not make the mistake I have. Don’t socialize with people you don’t know, especially adults. Don’t make such big decisions online until you’re older. You shouldn’t have to go through these struggles as well. It’s heart wrenching and a crime no child deserves.

You are not alone. I wish you the best, and please be careful about what you do online.

I have the right to speak of this online as of my First and Fourteenth Amendments. I do not stand for the people around me to be endangered and killed. This isn’t right and it hasn’t been for a long, long time.

Hotlines

List of suicide hotlines (src. Wikipedia)

List of emergency hotlines (src. Wikipedia)

MAP (Medical Aid for Palestinians)

Other Palestinian donation sites (src. Arab.org)

Cases against Trump (src. The Atlantic)

As always, be careful, and please, stay safe.

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Last words of a shooting star.

Indus - a star doomed to burn out ~

I spent all day on this good god-

(fuck you discord)

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Hello 👋,

I hope this message finds you well. My name is Aziz, and I’m reaching out with a heartfelt plea to help my family find safety and reunite with our mother. 😞

The ongoing war in Gaza has torn my family apart. My mother and newborn sister are stranded in Egypt, while I, along with the rest of my sex family members, am trapped in the midst of the genocide in Gaza. We have not only been separated but have also lost our home and are enduring unimaginable hardships. 💔

Your support can make a difference. Whether by reading our story, donating, or sharing our campaign with others, you can help us reunite, find safety, and start anew. 🙏🕊

Thank you, from the depths of my heart, for your kindness, compassion, and solidarity during this difficult time. ❤🍉

https://gofund.me/58268669 🔗

Of course, your voice matters 🖤❤️💚🤍

To those reading this, please help this family in need!! Donate, spread the word, whatever you can! Your help means so much to these 🙏🙏

If you have enough money to get coffee at Starbucks, take that money and give it to the gofundme. Every dollar counts ❤️

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surprise! ellie has made emote servers!

got discord? like silly emotes? i got some silly things for you!!! react with stupid images such as these!!!

they are very big wips so far, the rain world and bastion emoji servers only have around 3 emotes so far at the time of posting. but these are three exclusive servers for anybody, but also rain world and overwatch (EXCLUSIVELY BASTION) fans (including myself)

LINKS

Multifandom emotes

Rain World emotes

Overwatch (exclusively bastion) emotes

enjoy, if you want to

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URGENT HELP SAVE THE LIFE OF MY CHILD

Dear humanity,

Please Help Me – My Son May Die at Any Moment.

I'm Amal from Gaza. 🍉

Here’s my story, and I’m reaching out with a hopeful heart 💔✨, hoping someone will feel what my family and I are going through.

My son is suffering from a severe and life-threatening injury after being shot by Israeli drones. He urgently needs medical treatment outside Gaza.

I beg you, i kiss your feet, to help my son. My son may die at any moment

I lost most of my family. I'm afraid to lose my son too 🥺 .

Please Donate now:👇👇 👇

https://gofund.me/b0a82c94

Thank you for your compassion and kindness

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yes absolutely! please support this gofundme and help out palestine / gaza in this tough time. if you cannot PLEASE share this around, we shouldn’t be ignoring this and should continue to help as much as we can

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RECOUNT AND REVOTE!

For those in the US, there is a petition demanding a recount and revote as well as an investigation about the sudden change in support. Your voice matters and I encourage you to sign!

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Hiii posting here again

[Characters]

Black and blonde hair: Ethan

Light blue hair: Lucian

Grey grey: Nathen 

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Ivysaur (0002) - The Seed Pokémon

Ivysaur like to burrow underground, using their long claws to their advantage. Rumor has it that Ivysaur are able to communicate with the dead.

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fimsh

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[CHOOSE YOUR D!PSH!T]

I did this trend with my sona and my partners <333 Go check them out ( @clotheliam )

(The graffiti art name was by: https://www.graffiti-empire.com/graffiti-generator/ )

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i think itd be cool if you paid a visit to one of my two comic blogs :D currently they’re too small to ping so i have to link them

RED.exe - Link

Fallen Deep Down - Link

one of them is my main focus; its a comic series based off of my books over on wattpad named red.exe! new pages are released weekly at minimum every sunday

the other one is my warrior cats fanfic called fallen deep down! where there’s some drama or smth and i have a problem putting my warrior cats fictional locations at shorelines and islands

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hi tumblr today i present sebastian from pressure because i promised to draw him for some friends after playing for the first time

i get pissed off and yell at him every time i die (i enjoy yelling at him hence why i dont turn the death menu off)

anyways apologies that i made him look kinky i didnt mean to, he just literally sounds more kinky than scary or mean or anything IM SORRY 😭

definitely couldve been a bit less lazy and blurred the table or at least the lamp a bit too as the main focus is meant to be on sebastian but… by the time i considered it all the lineart layers were already merged so. oh well

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YAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

GRAAAHH I WANT TO RELEASE MY INNER ANIMAL

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I *vibed* with cosita personaly, Skibidi anything pissed me off sm 😭

my mind is so unstable right now that im genuinely in limbo between which meme is more annoying so im deciding to hand tumblr the responsibility of voting for me. you guys have one week exactly

thanks back to the tear chamber and to finally work on fallen deep down for the first day in several months

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Dear mutuals and followers, sorry for the politics in your dashboard but in some homes today we cannot afford to "ignore the problems".

The country where I come from, Venezuela, has had an election for president that has resulted in fraud. Mr. Nicolás Maduro has proclaimed himself President although the votes have said the opposite. This regime has devastated the lives of its citizens, resorting to violence against those who opposed it. It has brought ruin to a nation once celebrated as a pioneer of Latin American independence, yet many choose to overlook its plight. Venezuela, a country that once extended support to immigrants and provided aid to others, is now dismissed as insignificant by many.

If you are an advocate who values the dignity and needs of individuals, we urge you to raise your voice alongside us. Don't ignore us because we are Latinos, this is also a war. It is a conflict against an individual who has controlled his armed forces, law enforcement, narcotics syndicates, and citizens, rendering any attempts at reform futile despite our vocal protests. I have family members who are unable to depart through legal means, and if they choose to leave unlawfully, they face harsh judgment from people of the outside.

If you are interested, here are more information you may read:

Twitter Thread Summary // What is happening in Venezuela

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Shoutout to all Oceanic LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Austronesian LGBTQ+ folks.

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Shoutout to all Mashellese LGBTQ+ folks.

Take pride in it all. Your culture, your identity, it’s all so beautiful. Celebrate where you are from and who you are. It makes you you, and that is something to be proud of.

post for Middle Easterners, post for Asians, post for Pacific Islanders

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Chat i started playing phighting... can you guess who I main...?

heres the speedpaint for those interested =]