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A Sonnet For Symphony

I never thought that this would be how we'd meet

I never imagined them so small, your feet

I never thought I'd Miss out on hearing your screams, your cries, your wails

I didn't expect this moment to feel like hell

Mm

But I promise you will be held

I promise to take my time telling you goodbye

No matter how much it makes me cry

You're my forever angel baby

And every time I look up to the sky

I'll imagine you there looking me in the eyes

Rest well little angel

Don't be scared to fly

We will meet again in another life

And one day Your momma is gonna be alright

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Ain't that the truth?

Everyone is learning everything one step at a time. And Everyone learns at their own pace.

Nobody really knows the right way to live life because there is no one right way.

there are an infinite amount of choices you can make.

And a million different paths you can take.

Don't give up. Just focus on getting through today, everyday.

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I miss you

And I don't just miss the sex

I miss the way you used to smell

I miss your words, I miss your text

I miss your eyes

and your laugh, it was the best

I miss watching you cook for me

I miss laying on your chest

I miss listening to your heartbeat

I miss your hair

And the way you used to dress

I miss taking naps together

Whenever we felt stressed

I miss reading you my poetry

You were always so impressed

I miss so many things

If I were to let you know the rest

I guarantee there'd be

no room on this paper left

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It's not your fault

that I can now see

You just wanted to be

what was best for me

In fact you were so good

that when you left I couldn't breathe

I'm the one that fell so hard

That I didn't want to think

What on earth my life would be

If you chose to leave

And I know I'm not a very happy person

I think that's plain to see

Even when you were with me

I couldn't let things be

My optimistic mind

Appears to have escaped me

The darkness of my past

is still a big part of me

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There's one thing I can't stop wondering

How long did you know you were gonna leave?

Just how long did you still make me believe?

How much of my time did you waste?

All the while Being fake?

Did you love me at all?

Or was it all just a game?

Maybe all these tears were for bullshit

Maybe you didn't mean any of it

We all know that I fall in love too easy

And sometimes I can be a little cheesy

Maybe it was just too much, too quick

Maybe I was just too lovesick

Maybe I was just trying too hard

To heal my recently broken heart

But you still should have just told me the truth

Instead of making me hold on to my love for you

Now we've been apart longer than we were together

I still wonder what it'd been like if we lasted forever

I know that I should be over you by now

But I still can't really let go of you somehow

But I'm still trying

I promise that I am

And one day

I hope that I can

But what can I say

You were my dream man

And trust me I've checked

None of them are quite like you

And I mean that with respect

You were my diamond in the rough

My once in a lifetime

I don't think a day will come

That I won't dream you were still mine

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A forest blanketing me in a sea of green

Will always be the most beautiful thing I've ever seen

Out here I have no fear

As if everything I've been trying to find is finally clear

All the hustle and bustle of my daily life is quiet

Hidden in the background of my mind

All that's there is me

and all the life inside the trees

Nothing matters

Nothing is expected

All I need is me and the trees

The sun slowly peaks through the heavy canopy overhead

If you watch closely you can follow the sun rays to see where they've led

There at the big oak up ahead

Right here we'll sit

Right there that's it

We'll close our eyes and focus on the sounds

The birds are calling from all around

The dragonflies are speaking with their wings

Listen closely to nature's song as it sings

You can come out here and simply be

There is nowhere else you need to go

Just sit still and be free

Let yourself relax and breathe slow

Take a moment to just let go

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Lately there's been a battle inside my head

On whether or not I should keep trying to fall in love again

Truth is I really wanted it to be you

You were the one I wanted to come home to

Now I'm sitting here in the dark

Holding on to my broken heart

Because that's all that I have left

Of those 2 beautiful months my mind won't let me forget

I'm tired of holding my heart on my sleeve

I'm tired of always trying to believe

That someday I'll find someone that won't want to leave

Someone who's strong enough to handle me on my worst days

But sensitive enough to remind me that it'll be ok

Someone who knows how to have fun

Someone with open arms into which I can run

Someone who loves me exactly as I am

All I need is just one man

But my heart is currently shattered beyond repair

And right now I really just don't care

I deleted all of our messages today

Because I can't keep reading the words you used to say

Even though they were words that used to make me feel ok

now they just fill me with a sense of dread

Now they have a way of keeping me in bed

No matter how hard it is I'm gonna keep trying to forget

I love you more than I thought would be possible again

And now at this point you're not even my friend

And I no longer see you in my life In the end

I'm sorry I let myself fall so quickly

But controlling my heart seems to be tricky

Well right now I have my heart closed off in a box

Until one day I find someone that can unlock the locks

right now I'm taking it one step at a time

Until the day I can get you out of my mind

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The first time I looked into your eyes

You looked like the one but it was only a disguise

You made me feel like I was the only one you'd need

I never really noticed all the greed

Not the greed for money because that's not what you need

But the greed for me, my peace, my sanity, and the blood that I bleed

I'm starting to think that you liked to see me suffer

To see the pain through the tears and the words I would utter

I can't think of another reason to explain

How you could just keep going when I was screaming your name

Screaming "please stop" but it would always end the same

With me shutting up and "knowing my place" it was always the same old case

All I know is that I tried so hard to make you see me

So hard to show you just how useful I could be

But I shouldn't have to let go of the me that I was

I shouldn't have to become a whole new person just because

You're scared of who you are and what you could become

I'm sorry to say this

But you win, I give up, I'm done

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