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An Ode To My Womb

I could never love you like a mother should

I can’t pour out all the love I can into you

You scream and kick and twist me into knots

I can’t love like that, so devoted and unyielding

I am selfish and distant, I need time for myself

Not the constant love a child needs, unabashed and overflowing

I know I want to love others the way I was never loved

I don’t shudder at the name of “mother” like I claim to

I want to be split upon an altar, to sacrifice my soul

But I know I’d tremble as the blade rises

That it’d cleave the edges of a hole

A hole so deep, a hole so wide, that filling it is impossible

An abyss cannot love a child

A hole cannot fill a hole

And so I cleave you from me

So some other bitch can love the terrible burden you contain

And I’ll stick to loving grown up things

Who become children with my claim

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Happy Trans Day of Remembrance. I know it’s a hard to live as trans people, but I hope that this brings you some comfort. Because we deserve to live and be who we are.

Cleansing Tears

Today the sky weeps for those taken too soon

She weeps for children who claw at their skin

The youth that scream in fear and agony at world that wants them dead

The arrogant prophets claim their gods rule her

That their tyrannical, merciful, and judgmental gods scream curses at the children of Caeneus

Their propaganda laced sermons stain her like smog and ash

For that is all they bring: filth and destruction

Weep with our sky, Caeneus, for her tears will germinate our revolution

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verified ways to donate to gaza directly

Donate to a Palestinian family directly:

gazafunds.com - Donate directly to a Palestinian family in urgent need of evacuation, medical treatment, daily necessities or more. Site run by Palestinians, all GFMs verified (full list here). Spotlights 1 stagnant GFM at a time. (*If you can't decide who/where to donate, just go to gazafunds.com & donate to the 1 GFM they show you!)

masterlist of 200+ verified Palestinian families' GFMs: Operation Olive Branch

Help provide tents:

The Sameer Project: Currently providing tents & transport for families in Rafah who urgently need to evacuate to Deir Al Balah. Has a team on the ground in Gaza who have supplied tents to 1% of the displaced population in Rafah. Run by Palestinians. (paypal) (gfm)

@helpgazachildren: Currently helping Palestinians in a refugee camp in Rafah flee the Rafah invasion to Khan Younis. Funds go directly to Hussam, a Palestinian in Rafah who hosts a refugee camp. Funds will cover the cost of tents & transport fuel. Managed by a Palestinian @.fairuzfan. (gfm)

Food:

Care for Gaza: Palestinian charity on the ground in Gaza distributing food, cash, medicine & other essentials to displaced families. Proof of their work found on their Twitter. (paypal) (gfm)

We Feed Gaza: Team of Palestinian volunteers in the heart of Gaza distributing food & water to 344+ families. More details & proof in their gfm. Vetted & promoted by LetsTalkPalestine on IG. (gfm)

Direct Aid for Gaza: A Palestinian activist on the ground in Gaza distributing food, cash & other essential supplies to displaced families. Proof of their work found on their twitter. (paypal) (gfm)

Water (*urgent and crucial!)

Gaza Municipality: The official Municipality of Gaza is doing vital, life-saving work to rebuild the water pipes in Gaza City to restore access to clean water & waste management services for the people of Gaza.

eSIMs (highly needed):

guide to buy & send esims to gaza

Crips for eSims for Gaza: donate any amount to this team of volunteers who pool funds to buy & maintain gaza esims regularly (see their financial accountability document).

Medical Aid:

Gaza Wound Care (urgent): Palestinian doctors in central Gaza treating injured/sick children & mothers in neglected displacement camps far from hospitals. Facing a severe shortage of medicines, equipment, and medical supplies. Currently raising funds to support their efforts to battle infectious diseases in refugee camps. (gfm) (paypal) (gogetfunding)

international charities: Palestine Red Crescent Society, Palestine Children's Relief Fund, Medical Aid for Palestinians

How to help if you can't donate:

Share & amplify Palestinian fundraisers in your irl & online circles

Organize or help to run an online/irl event to raise funds for Palestine

Boycott

Get involved with a protest/strike/direct action in your area

Contact your reps

Educate yourself & others both irl & online

Daily clicks on Arab.org

(you can even adopt 1 fundraiser campaign to regularly boost it & make materials promoting it online, or print posters/flyers about Palestinian fundraisers to encourage others to donate. (poster/graphic about gazafunds.com: here, flyers about esims: here, flyers about gazafamilyfunds: here)

(longer masterpost of all ways you can help)

updated 3/6/2024 with Gaza Wound Care & We Feed Gaza. I wanted to focus on Palestinian-run grassroots initiatives that will actually reach Gazans on the ground, so all of these except eSIMs, PCRF, MAP are by Palestinians. i have verified them but please feel free to do your own vets for your peace of mind.

Remember small donations really do add up. Any amount counts, even $1!

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Dead Boy Character Study - Crystal and Edwin

I know that Charles' remark to Edwin about how similar he and Crystal are is a sweet way of saying he loves them and food for thought. Crystal and Edwin are similar in plenty of ways: their snark, their drive to help people, and most importantly their coping mechanisms. From Crystal's flashbacks, we see that she coped with her parents neglect by turning her hurt into anger via toxic behavior like petty misdemeanors and hurting people around her. Edwin deals with his own fears of hell and jealousy over Charles bonding with Crystal into anger too. He snipes at Crystal and Charles, the whole montage of him trying to smash off the Cat King's bracelet, and gets especially angry when Crystal tells him that she willingly let David posses her. Even their disappearances (and Edwin's death) were handled similarly, Crystal's parents didn't even bother looking into her radio silence and assumedly Edwin's parents and his boarding school did the same. In short, I think that their similarities are too slept on. They're angry, neglected, and hurt kids who got screwed over by boys who claimed to love them. And that's even not going into how they serve as foils in how Hell hurt them. I really hope that in season 2 they get to bond more. They have the perfect set up for friends who insult each other as a love language but are really ride or die.

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[image description:

image 1: Text says: commissions for Palestine. there is an image of the artist on their drawing tablet.

image 2: Text says: $1-$5 Lined Chibi. $7 for flat monochrome. $9 flats and rendering. Drawings of Kim Dokja from omniscient reader and the pokemon Deino are used as examples.

image 3: Text says: $15 lined fullbody. +$7 per extra character (up to 3 characters total). The example is a drawing of Lee Jihye from omniscient reader.

image 4: Text says: Comics. $50 for full page or $25 for half. Up to 3 pages. Must provide script. a page of comic titled solitude, starring Kim Dokja and Lee Seolhwa, and a half page of a comic starring Han Sooyoung and Dokja are used as examples.

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I'm reopening commissions for Palestine. I will draw you something if you donate to any of these (note that gofundmes require you to donate at least 5 of whichever currency the fund is using):

The Gofundme's and other fundraisers on this masterlist

Helpgazachildren's Gofundme

Esims for Gaza (or this crowdfund to donate esims)

The Municipality of Gaza's life for Gaza campaign

Though I'm focusing on these 4 for these commissions, if you donate to other verified fundraisers for Palestine/funds for people on the ground, or to verified fundraisers for Sudan or Congo, I'll also draw you something.

guidelines/other info:

Turnaround of around 1 month for lined chibis, 2 months for fullbodies, and 4-6 months for comics. I will update you as soon as I have a sketch (approx 2 weeks for chibis, 1 month for fullbodies and comic thumbnails), or if there are any delays.

Please include a visual reference or detailed text description of the character(s) you want drawn, unless I've drawn them before and you're okay with me going with my design.

For comics please provide a script. I can work with prose, or with a description of the page. It doesn't need to be a formal script, but please don't just tell me the characters you want in it and expect me to go from there.

I can draw OCs, mechas, and furries.

I won't draw anything nsfw, or real people without their permission.

personal use only

I reserve the right to refuse a commission and may ask you to choose something else. If you want to know in advance if I'll take it, feel free to DM or send an ask.

To get a commission, DM me on this account or email me at desklamprey @ gmail.com with a link to where you donated (if it is from a masterlist, let me know which one also), a screenshot of the receipt of your donation made after this post was made (6/18/24 at around 1 am PST), and the details about your request. please censor any personal information in the receipt.

if you want to commission me for a medium not listed on this post (ex: acrylic paintings, traditionally inked art) contact me with the medium and your request and I'll let you know if I can do it and for how much.

no set amount of slots, but i'll turn off reblogs when commissions are closed

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Free Palestine

melissa barrera (the actress who got fired from the scream franchise for being pro palestine) has started a fundraiser with unrwa!

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faeries are not real but i wish thwy were so i could spray one with raid

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Free Palestine 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸

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Maybe this will work for college

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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Heart of Tar

Squelching, mewling thing

Demanding light, love, and soul

Toxic fumes make my head spin

Making me doubt my senses

Am I hurting you?

Am I hurting you?

When I struggle and gasp for breath

How can I hurt you?

How can I hurt you?

When your touch burns my skin and scars my soul

I wash my hands of you

I spit and tear and scream

I will be done with your barbarous demands

I will bask in the sun and dance in the rain

I will kiss pretty girls and move like the river’s currents

Untethered, unbound

I’ll leave this forsaken house

This stinking pit

Trade tar and fumes for stars and sweet kisses

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Fall Showers

Welcome back to my random bits of sporadic inspiration

Hope y’all enjoy as I finally write some stuff about fall. (I know, I know. It’s about damn time.) Hope y’all enjoy!

I sit under an old ash tree on a secluded hill. Its leaves are a kaleidoscope of yellows and oranges, sunlight dancing to and fro in the small crevices their fallen comrades have left behind. I take a deep sip from my thermos of hot tea, inhaling the steam and earthy smell of the leaves. I look out at the small town I’ve known all my life. Small wooden houses with different hues of red and blue roofs surrounded by the early dusk fog. It’s coming. I grab my things and race from my perch to town. To shelter. I don’t want it to find me. I can’t let it find me. Once I reach the bottom of the hill, I hear a deep, rough growl rumble. I freeze, knowing I should be running, screaming, fighting, or anything other than standing still. I shake myself out of my fear but I’m too late. I feel a cold, sharp edge run into my abdomen and I see my legs run out from under me. I fall to the ground, desperately clawing myself away from it. The world goes black as I notice the leaves falling around me. At least I think- I hope they’re leaves. Let me have this calm fall day as I leave this earthly plain. . . .

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Abyss pt. 2

Hey guys, I literally just made two separate posts for this one thing b/c of the 

✨ ✨aesthetic ✨ ✨

Hope y’all don’t mind

I dance on the edge of nothingness and somethingness

I have no voice, no face, no body, no home

No one to turn to, no one to hold, or have hold me

I have watched as the people waste what they have

I have watched as they destroy their beautiful world

Now I say, no more

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Abyss pt. 1

Heyo

This is my 1st prose poem in awhile, so hope y’all enjoy

Life happens

Worlds are born in fire and light

Forests sprout up from the fertile soil

Fires tearing apart the very molecules that bind

But despite it all

People laugh, love, cry

Die

Their emotions, their movements

shake the universe to its core

How I wish I could be a part of that

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Welcome to one of my sporadic posts based on prompts I saw on the internet. Hope you enjoy!

Today’s prompt: this one immortal decides to be in at least on painting, newspaper photo, or picture every few decades. The rest of the immortal community is not amused - prompt from https://pin.it/2cml81A

You click on the random spam text your friend sent you. It’s a YouTube link to what looks like another inter conspiracy theorist. Your screen goes dark then lights up, presenting a young person, short pixie cut hair dyed a deep aquamarine blue. They started, “It is a fact of life that everything changes. Nothing remains the same, art, food, social norms, the economy. But over the centuries there has been one reoccurring face in at least one painting, photograph, or newspaper.” A series of photos flash across the screen, newspaper clippings from the 1820’s, Renaissance paintings from long dead artists, and photos from certain movies all focused on one small figure in the background. ”Join me as we journey into the theories surrounding this mysterious figure about who they are, what they want, and most importantly why they’re here-“ You stop the video immediately in irritation. Of course your ex has an entire conspiracy fan base surrounding her. The immortal community makes break ups more complicated than necessary.