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It is so fucking exhausting fighting your brain every day dude

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If you are going stay then please go away

Leave me alone so I can rest

I can’t handle your nonsense

But I keep running back for some type relief

Not sure if I can always keep my self safe

I do try hard

I’m honest all the time

Which I don’t always agree

I have trouble concentrating

And I don’t have any control

So there becomes injuries

That I have to hide

For not to go to a place that will be traumatized

Wish I could just hide

And not talk be quite for once a upon time

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Been in psych wards for quite some time

Wishing the medicine would fix me

But it doesn’t

Wishing coping skills will work all the time

I feel like I’m at my limit

With all these things

Trying to get help but doesn’t seem to be working

Seeing things unclearly

Wishing I was dead

And not alive

Having hallucinations

That I can’t understand

I know they are shadow’s of people that talk

Yes there’s more then one

There actually four to be exact

There names are strange strangler shadow and blackout

They won’t leave

They are a burden to me

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What hurts is the fact that you shared your soul with them just to be strangers again.

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Id rather be "lazy" on antipsychotics than up for days on end and only sleeping a matter of minutes because my brain just won't stop

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“Beautiful girl, take care of yourself. No-one else knows what your soul needs.”

— AstonG

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“Be strong enough to stand alone, smart enough to know when you need help, and brave enough to ask for it.”

— Unknown

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The most confused we ever get is when we’re trying to convince our heads of something our heart knows is a lie.

Karen Marie Moning

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If I ever tell you about my past, it's never because I want you to feel sorry for me, but so you can understand why I am who I am.

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“Don’t ever think that everyone who leaves wants to.”

— Unknown

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“Sometimes, all you had to do was exist to be someone’s saviour.”

— Keigo Higashino; The Devotion of Suspect X

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the feeling when you just wanna be alone and push everyone away so you could quietly kill yourself vrs the feeling of never wanting to be alone and just wanting to be held and told itll be okay even when it wont.

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“Brave doesn’t mean you’re not scared. It means you go on even though you’re scared.”

— Angie Thomas, The Hate U Give

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“I always felt like I saw things differently. Saw things other people didn’t.”

— Lois Lowry, The Giver

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feel drained no matter how much I sleep

by laurenmaerie, tired thoughts