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very often it feels that im dragging this in hope that it’ll change and things will be better, but i always get back to the exact same spot where you found me.

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bittersweet

I’ve noticed how he touches me since I lost weight. He’s now reaching for my hipbones, grabbing me by my waist with both of his hands, looking down at my stomach, running his fingers through my ribs while I lie nex to him.

He’d never say it, but I know he likes me better when I’m thinner.

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sometimes i feel i overwhelm people with my crazy emotions, and they’re just too embarrassed to say something so they just roll with it, and when they realize they’re stuck with me.

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Bothering the beast

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Velimir Khlebnikov, from Collected Poems & Selected Writings; “Everland,”

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procrastination !

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when we love someone, we take care of them, right?

when we love someone, we care about them, right?

when we love someone, we demonstrate and let them feel loved, right?

when we love someone, we think about them and their feelings, right?

so you see why it’s so hard for me to believe that you really love me?

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i need therapy so bad

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i did 4 times and got locked up :/

The BPD urge to do something to harm yourself just serious enough people take your illness seriously for once. But you don't because it will probably get you locked up so you continue your suffering in silence.

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mind your business alright

you aren’t the “mom friend” u were a parentified child and was forced to take emotional and maybe physical responsibility for other people in ur life from a young age and now you can’t stop yourself from carrying that behavior over to ur other relationships because you don’t know any other way to live

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no, it was my dad actually

nice personality disorder did your mom give it to you