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protect your energy

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It's kind of emotional whiplash recovering from severe depression, bc you looked death in the face. Like you confronted it everyday. Then you get on the right meds and you're like, "I knew I was never that person, but they WERE me." Not the me I know, but a version. And that version will always have existed. You realize the things that matter aren't the everyday things, but the things you want to remember. The REASONS you wanted to stay. Those are most important. You never forget who you were when depression drove the car, but sometimes while driving, the scenery gives you memories that are important to never forget. I'll never forget how much I wanted to stay.

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your intrusive thoughts are just thoughts and nothing more than that.

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take it from someone who never thought things would get better: it will. life will not always be so harsh to you. Stay strong and keep fighting. There is a brighter side.

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things don't get better, until they do. it can get worse before it gets better. it can take weeks or even months of exhausting days to feel genuinely loved and happy for a while. it can take a long time to make happiness a running theme in your life, but it will happen one day. your future self knows what you're going through and is proud of you for staying alive to see those days.

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What they did to you wasn’t your fault

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‘healing’

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You are someone. You may not know where you fit in, what your future holds, but you are someone. You will always matter.

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Kim Minseok remembering his istg acc password - exodrabble+xiumin/suho

Long Time Best Friends dealing with Instagram 

disclaimer:  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

** this is my first EVER kpop fanfiction post here, so, please, be gentle. Also, English is not my first language, but I tried my best. I hope you enjoy, and that we can spend a good time while we wait for our most dearest Minseok come back from his enlistment. Let’s Love, always. **

       One week back home from the military enlistment, Kim Minseok, exo’s eldest hyung, had spend that whole time really busy with family, friends, house requirements and all kinds of arrangements for sitting down again. While all this was going on, all his friends and managers (and fans, of course) kept remembering him of posting new pictures on his istg account. Minseok liked the social network, and loved photography as well, but was annoyingly used to forget his password (like some of the other members also did), and lost the “timing” of posting his photos.

- Ah, minseok-ah, when will you organize your istg feed, your fans are thirsty for this rsrsrsrsrs.. I can give you some tips, my account is iconic now, I’m the best instagrammer of exo, did you know? - said Junmyeon, jokingly , while lightly pushing his eyes-rolling hyung.

- And then you say you didn’t have any free time while I was out, huh?

- What are you saying, it takes time to organize the feed, my concepts, and match my looks to the environment, actually.

- rsrsrsrssrsr honestly... but ok, I have to do this anyway, I think I’m going to try to recover the password when we get home today, are you really coming to stay the night ? - asked Minseok, suspiciously.

- I told you I’m going, you don’t believe I miss you? It’s gonna be like the old days... well not exactly that, cause now I’m a compromised ma- but he couldn’t finish his silly dangerous joke, cause his hyung shout his mouth quickly while beating him and laughing... some managers around them laughed as well, but more out of embarrassing for those two “old” silly idols than anything.

* * *

    To spend the night at Minseok’s house was nothing like the “boys night”that the youngers members used to worry their managers with: no sexy games or silly teen-like adventures in the streets at midnight. When any of the hyungs gathered at Minseok’s house, was usually to have heart-to-heart and pleasurable talks with beer, or binge watch a nerdy-type movie or art documentary. None of them were particularly competitive to keep up many game rounds, just once they tried the Monopoly, but Minseok and Kyungsoo felt asleep real quickly, Jongdae joked and laughed the whole time while Yixing didn’t get the rules and Junmyeon kept complaining about cheating in the game.

These five hyungs (Jongdae was considered among them, for his hyung-like personality) naturally became closer along the years of the group’s career, but never in a idealized type of friendship: they didn’t exactly keep in touch all the time, or spoke all the time in chats or so, all of them always had many external duties and concerns, besides the fact that their personalities were not to be too “sitcky” with their friends. All of them had interesting memories and dynamics with each other separately, but one “couple” that, along the years, had created a really peculiar friendship routine was Junmyeon-Minseok. They weren’t the closest members since the begins (and, to speak the truth, they weren’t at this point the same person they were in the debut), but they always shared a silent, unconsciously known, respect and admiration for each other. Junmyeon profoundly admired Minseok’s scholar professionalism and disciplined and righteous way of live, and Minseok, along with that, really respect Junmyeon’s strong leadership, artistic sensibility and altruistic way of dealing with the challenges that came along in the group. As the years passed and they went through many things together, many obstacles crossed - some with the help of each other’s advice - they had naturally created a cozy atmosphere between each other. Junmyeon, who were more of speaking feelings, out loud begin to often express how Minseok was ,to him, a real best friend. And that was a real bond, outside the cameras. Minseok has always been more shy and discreet, but he actually felt really warm and happy with his leader’s consideration towards him.

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     Minseok was going to have many house gatherings and events with many people to relieve the missing time, including all the other members of course, but it couldn’t be other than junmyeon, who has been almost everyday by his side in his schedules of the returning from the military enlistment, was the first one the be invited to spend a weekend with the so deared and admired exo’s eldest hyung. Junmyeon was himself getting ready to enlist, so he wanted  to enjoy pleasurable time with people he loved the most, as much as he could, before going away.

     After some helping with house organizing and cleaning to become “comfortable enough for playing around” (as minseok’s wish, and to what jun never complained about), they changed to cozy clothes to deal with the “istg password issue”. Junmyeon wasn’t supposed to take pictures, so he was casually with a white shirt, arms out, sweatpants, his hat backsides and barefoot... It was rare to see the leader without make up, and actually feeling good like this, as he only stayed this way in situations of real intimacy and comfortableness.

- So junmyeonie, I’m supossed to click “forgot password” and send the link to my email, right? - asked the *a little better dressed* hyung.

- Did you really forgot it or just don’t want to remember, hyung? - a familiar malicious little smile on jun’s face.

- What the hell are you talking about you cra-

- Don’t you remember we created our email passwords together and the same one you used to your istg acc ?

- wai-

- “mygirl**insertARandomGirlName**

- SHUT THE FUCK UP, I CAN BEelieve it’s still that.. - embarrassment face while trying to enter istg on his new phone, where the old password wasn’t saved yet.

It entered.

- I can’t even kill you, cause you know way too much about me, you brat

- haahahaahahhaaaaaahaha... change this stupid password already, hyung, for god’s sake rsrsrsrsrsrs

* * *

- okay, I’m going to make a comeback with a Tan’s photo session, the fans never stop asking me about him..

- Make a istg-story of him, he looks beautiful in this window - says Junmyeon finishing a *good taste* bear.

- Should I play a song while doing it? They will love it, choose one of our old Christmas ones, please.

*while playing First Snow*

 - Hello exol’s, your Minseokie is back at istg, waaaah, rsrsrsr, finally, huh... I promise to note my new password on a paper now hehehehehe and to post all the best pictures of my most loved  moments that I’ve kept all this time... Now I’m gonna record my baby, that you guys always ask to see, he looks specially cute and beautiful tonight * moves camera do record Tan, majestically sitting on the window * say hi, Tan-shi, you’re so beautiful, aren’t you? ... Are you happy to see your dad again? I’m happy too...        

                                          Well, I’m specially happy today cause I’m gonna spend a REALLY nice and TASTY weekend * Junmyeon widely open his eyes, already trying to runaway from what he knows it’s coming * with Tan AND * quickly moves camera and starts to run after filming caught off-guard Junmyeon * my other beautiful cat here ¬ ¬ ¬ ¬ *  

- stoop, hyung - whines Junmyeon, already surrendering and smiling

- he looks so beautiful now doesn’t he? my junmyeonie always looks gorgeous no matter what - easily says Minseok, making exol’s go wild with the surprise - I’m gonna turn off now, cause I’m going to spend  some time with my best friend ok? * junmyeon both blushes and complains about minseok not letting him give a word to the fans *

- aaah-wait, let me say hi to my followers, wait hyung-

- noo, shut the cameras, you guys are not allowed to see what we’re doing now hahahaha

- nooo, SORRY EXOL’S, HE CAN’T USE ISTG PROPER-

* story finished *

- you-re not gonna post this, hyung.

- Why? - already posting

- That’s why they don’t allow you to posts many things on your istg, hyung, - half laughing, half worrying, said Junmyeon, Minseok’s best friend, walking to the kitchen after the rest of the beers.

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happy xiumin day

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❀ quarantine tips for people who deal with mental illnesses ❀

- try to enjoy the sun as much as you can!! even if it’s to open your window to let some daylight and fresh air in!

- try to get dressed every morning, even if it’s to change from your pajamas to a hoodie and leggings. believe me, it does make a change

- make a list of activities that usually keep your mind busy

- being close to your pets helps a lot

- try to meditate everyday, it’s super beneficial

- i know it’s hard (specially because our bodies are way less tired) but try to go to sleep at the same hour everyday and keep a concise sleeping schedule

- don’t force yourself to be extra productive just because you are at home, let your mind and your body rest

- try to keep contact with your loved ones and talk to them regulary (keeping a list of people you want to text/call everyday also helps)

- trying sensorial hobbies help a lot during this time, specially if you suffer from dissociation or if you feel out of touch with reality lately. embroidery, playing an instrument, painting, gardening... you name it!

- writing a list every single day of things that happened that day that you are grateful for helps a LOT

- if you are too tired to exercice, yoga helps

- try to be kind to yourself. you deserve as much love as anyone else

note: my private messages are always open to whoever needs to talk or if you simply need a distraction. you are so loved and strong. you’ve got this ♡

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gaia 🌎

the goddess of the earth, born at the dawn of creation 🌒🌓🌔🌕🌖🌗🌘

background 🍃

gaia (or gaea), more commonly known as mother earth or mother goddess, was a being from greek mythology that existed before the titans even did. she is often seen as the goddess in the pagan religion.

gaia’s birth 🌿

she was created from the god named chaos and she gave birth to eros (god of love), uranus (heaven/sky), and pontus (sea), just to name a few. what gaia is known for most, however, is giving birth to the titans.

altar ideas 🌸

if you plan on working with gaia, here are a couple of things you can include in your altar!

figurine that symbolizes mother earth

plants (especially holly, which is associated with gaia)

crystals such as chrysocolla, pyrite, aquamarine, emerald, tiger’s eye, labradorite, malachite, peridot, moss agate, hematite, and tourmaline

green, silver, or white candles

incense such as meadowsweet or oak

you can diffuse oils like lotus or cucumber

herbs associated with gaia are hollyhock and frankincense

offerings 🍄

cake

wheat or bread

fruits and veggies

seeds

any earthy type of things :)

helping mother earth🌛

these could also be considered offerings :)

plant a buddy or start a garden!

clean litter and trash off the ground

reduce your use of plastic

donate to environmental charities

ground yourself

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