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Day 8: It’s a hard nut!

Craving to write just about anything should not be my complain right? Well, I am a professional content writer and many of you might imagine me surrounded by topics and bubbling with inspiration isn't it? quite ironically, you could be terribly wrong at this on most of my workdays. Professional content writing is all about set patterns and super-tight deadlines. and it's not that I want to get rid of it, but it's still increasingly challenging to stick to.

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Day 7: Inhaling and Exhaling Thoughts

Every time I come up with a resolution to write things down as a diary, journal or blog on regular basis, I won't lie, I failed. And I failed miserably. Most of us do. But those of us, who realized the importance of jotting down things early on in there lives, struggled much lesser at work, with relationships, with emotions and with life in general.

I am stressing the point here because, I did realized some changes while I started giving voice to my thoughts. Just like inhaling and exhaling, I started Listening and expressing.

We consume a lot of ideas, thoughts and beliefs by way of interacting and existing in a society, but ironically, we seldom have an opportunity to express things ourselves. Most of us inhale (or listen to) too many notions, ideas and opinions, and fails to prevent it from creating a chaos within our minds. On the other hand, exhaling (or expressing) of ideas is just too infrequent for most of us.

This uneven arrangement is formed sometimes merely because of situational and behavioral constraints to put your word forward, but a prolonged stretch of such behavior creates enormous tensions in your personality, and often reflects in our social behavior..

So just as a flow of breath, it's of paramount significance to maintain the inward and outward flow of thoughts. And noting down or arranging thoughts in pointers in order to revaluate it further, helps us clear the mist of confusion caused due to various emotional and situational variables. Writing the word down finally narrows the scope of attention to the most important detail of the thought.

We can come up with conclusions in a better and faster way and may decide upon a thing more rationally and objectively, with the virtue of a written information, that gives us a clear and consise path to approach a problem.

At work, (Or almost anywhere) A precise task list helps us with organizing, but most importantly, it pacifies the chaos and prevents us from getting overwhelmed with responsibilities.

It curbs the numbness and confusion that often brings indecisiveness.

Secondly, Writing helps a great deal battling with bitter emotions and memories. In my experience, writing brings about the same experience as telling or conversing.

Even if it's a note to self or a chit chat with "dear diary", what makes it more special and almost equally impactful is that the writer finally decides let it all come out, and relieves the mind from bearing the tensions of constant, self planted negetive thoughts.

And about life in general, Words are better ways to recount the memories, experiences and the times we go through. As everything else captures the moment, yet words capture the very emotion and hence can seem relatable to anyone.

At the end of the day, It's about speaking. Just to realize that we do have a voice, an opinion and a mutually exclusive thought process. And most certainly, If there's always chance to listen, then there's obviously a chance to speak.

-CW

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Day 6: Craving for the unknown

I wasn't ever really sure about what I exactly needed, to be content with my life. Even at this point when I am writing this, I am unable to define at least one trait in a person/ thing/place that appeals me the most.

If it's happiness, than there are degrees of happiness, joy, bliss and ecstasy. So what brings me joy and what makes me ecstatic. I was always wondering, I still am wondering.

I sometimes could not understand the phenomenon that puts me to work or makes me feel passionate about something. But it surely does. And what's interesting is I always find myself between swinging between the two extremes of pro active behaviour or aimless inactivity.

Mere thoughts were never enough to stimulate me towards anything. I always needed (and still need) a supppoting stimulus, a person, a situation or a thing to add to the significance and bring me in action.

But the fun part is, I am happy but never content. I am relaxed but never content. And I don't consider it much of a trait either. Its a little more than remaining mediocre and little less than being obsessed to perfection. Now that's a weird way to put up.

Or it's simply this way,

The real sense of ecstasy brews during the journey, during process and action. It vanishes the moment action faces a hault. Even if the hault is at your ultimate destination. And so the restlessness to embark upon a new journey is so overwhelming, that we cease to realise that the joys we've been looking for, actually happened to us :)

-CW

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Day 5: Depression: know it before you say it

Just as I was browsing through tumblr this afternoon, clueless about what to write for today’s blog, A pop-up here reminded me that its world mental health day today.

I suddenly felt like I have a whole chunk of things to talk upon.

Pondering about mental health issues, especially the much dreaded depression, I always felt like there is a massive ignorance due to neglect of material facts in understanding depression, or even mental health in general. Which in turn made its stigma to stick around, for the longest time now.

Thinking about depression, I was always more concerned about people falling prey to their own perception, and end up believing that they are depressed, WHICH THEY’RE OBVIOUSLY NOT!

I am interested and curious about the flip side of this discussion, to help people not feeling anxious about mental issues they don’t even have, and to identify objectively that their current mental state may be a product of a recent mishap, an unexpected siduation, or merely due to a string of complex ideas popping up for no reason.

And since we don’t have a better articulation to express the situation, it’s too convinently labled as depression. This this ironical yet true that this danger of having a false perception is higher even in well informed and information rich societies.

Proper consultation, or even a few productive sessions with a professional can easily evade a long traumatic experience of confusion and cluelessness, can prevent from a shattering experience of self pity and constant sense of self imposed vulnerability. It’s literally a talk away!

The very first thing a counsellor do/ should do in this case is articulate better. And that is so much important!

This invariably breaks the chain of thoughts and helps you have a reality check. More objectively. Which, in case of lack of proper counciling, makes the person drift deep into emotions of self pity and confusion, and takes away the sanity to think and decide upon situations.

Making the point again, I strongly feel that there’s an urgent need to cure the ill, but there’s an absolute need to prevent the healthy from falling ill too.

Especially preventing them from making wrong inferences about their mental state.

Lastly, to all the mental issue survivors and worriors, here goes a big fat hug and the most sincere homage to their fight against varied mental issues. Who always choose to keep a smile in spite of a havoc so unimaginable, and deserves the best care in the world.

To those who maybe the most generous souls, yet often rendered as unsocial, quiet and even weird, we as a civilization should feel indebted, for their fight so fierce, that it was able to shake our perceptions and redefine our sensibilities.

They made us more humane as desired, recieved less compassion than deserved!

Peace.

- CW

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Day 4: Done and dusted!

Phew! It's done! It's finally done! Was an interview. Never thought untill I joined in to my previous organization, that there's a profession as technical writing that exists. I am still pretty much a newbie, but this particular title kept me hooked for long and was seemingly enticing if not more.

So it was a technical writer interview with an organization providing clinical productivity software. Even if I choose to skip the technical nitty gritties of the craft (Technical writing), then simply put, technical writing is a blend of writing and understanding software or product workflow. And since its a tricky blend to be found, the one who hits the sweet spot has an edge here.

Nevertheless, the whole point of the argument is, how much difficult it is to identify the skillset, finding the right channel to utilize it, and actually utilizing it. To me, all of this starts with a pinch of self awareness of the individual and a bit of organizations' identifying the potential. Like everything else, this is a two way route.

Glad that I was exposed to this domain and which is acting as a next stepping stone in my career. A finance graduate, hoping to be a professor, landing in supply chain, inclined towards writing and acting as a jack of all, my journey has been a bit confused one if not chaotic. I always attempt to make it a bit streamlined but not at the cost of closing doors that are wide open. I ache for knowledge and I am dying to share. I can take a few steps to figure things out and I am good and content with my attitude to explore.

Living up to my own expectations never seemed more important.

Peace.

- CW

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Day 3: Wait is on!

So, the much anticipated moment is still awaited. ( I shall still keep mum about it, even to myself :) )

Meanwhile, its Dusshera! 😊

Have been thinking about the festivities and I don't know why, but I am exceptionally cheerful! There is so much positivity brewing. Something good is coming. Something great will happen! For sure!

Quite a lot to see today!

Peace.

Happy Dusshera! 😊

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Day 2: Butterflies in the stomach!

More than facing a day itself. What troubles even more is the anxiety to face it. When things or events are distant, we feel confident and comfortable. While its nearly haunting our minds when its round the corner. As if, we are confident about actions yet anxious and skeptical about results.

Paradoxical. Isn't it ?

There is a havoc of thoughts stroming my mind at times. Even now, when I have something really important to face tomorrow. Maybe the next post will be shaped based on the same experience.

As of now, these happenings within myself are making me ponder so intensively, that how much we grow comfortable with our routines and even a slightest deviation makes us so alert, assertive and conscious about the upcoming. About the unknown. Excited. Thrilled. Nervous. And what not.

But you know, we all need to hit refresh at some point. We all need a hault to start over. We all need to pause before we resume.

We all are in a persuit of life and will never choose stagnation by ourselves. Either we walk, run or fly, the fact is that we never want to stop. That's our fate, that's pre designed, and that is ought to happen.

We shall all be either outstandingly simple, or simply outstanding!

Peace.

-CW

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Day 1: Let's call it a Diary

I always wished deeper conversations, sincere relationships and simpler yet enriching ways to live. Befriending strangers and strengthening bonds with people I know.

Times had always been materially comfortable yet emotionally taxing. Drained my engeries, broken my spirits, shattered my hopes and everything good and bad in between.

I am still afraid I cannot ever give the most correct expression which I wanted to. I am too bad at introspection. Its not difficult, but certainly different. I am truly not a coward but fear to face it sometimes. Just sometimes, but yes definitely.

Sometimes I feel that the fears are real and sometimes it feels like an enormous exaggeration of situations. I fail to normalize things I fear. Too frightful for things too silly and too confident for a thing too challenging.

Maybe this is everyone's phase at some point in time, and maybe everyone eventually develops a mechanism to fight it. Atleast, to withstand it. For me, maybe writing this blog is one small step, for others, some other doors may open. But what's important is to strive for a way untill you find it. Important is to reach where you actually want to, not landing there where you're accidentally taken.