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i'm going lose connection soon i'm in the middle of the mountains salutationss 🫡

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not me and my man running away to the mountains 😋 (we're just going hiking)

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my family has a persian/pakistani carpet in every hallway/room in the house

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EXPLANATION YURR 🤭

i called off my nikkah (islamic marriage) because i'm 18 and i just feel unsure with making such a life altering decision, my bf agrees with me too so we'll get our nikkah sometime in the future but not next month that's too soon, but Youssef's dad is lowk kinda upset because he wants me and my bf to have a halal relationship but idk i feel like i'm growing up too fast, me and my man are lit only 18, i don't know hmm, either way me and my bookie are still going to get married in the future in sha allah, but it's too much pressure esp from my extended family, Pakistanis have huge ass weddings that span like at least a week, and i personally DESPISE ATTENTION and hate hate hate Pakistani gossip culture and all that attention would make me the topic of a lot of gossip, and i'd not enjoy a moment of that wedding, and so basically if i get my nikkah with Youssef then people are gonna start pressuring us to get legally married, and to have kids and OMG I'M LIT JUST AN 18 YEAR OLD GIRL!! 😵 i've been dating Youssef since early Decemeber and i still honestly just want to be lovey and dovey and young and in love without pressure, also trust that i do genuinely love this man, i mean helloo he's a 183cm Egyptian boxer with model proportions, with the most stunning curls ever, and he has a heart of gold why would i not love him?? i want to be his wife ofc but i'm just not ready yet so like yeah, and me and my man are on the same page about this so it's all good 💞

GUYS I JUST DID SOMETHING INSANE BUT I AM FREEEE 💅🏽

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I'M JUST A GIRL IN A WORLD

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for now i am just going to be dating Youssef, i do not want a nikkah yet, i love you though MWAHHH @existinginspace1

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I AM SO NOT READY FOR MARRIAGE/NIKKAH 🙁 i'm lit 18 but i'm freeeee nowww YEAHH

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instant regret

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GUYS I JUST DID SOMETHING INSANE BUT I AM FREEEE 💅🏽

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i hate gremlin, power hungry men, they are disgusting, the evil look in their eyes is revolting, i hate them ew 😵

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One real benefit of reading I rarely hear anybody mention is how much more interesting life becomes when you read a lot. It depends what you’re reading, of course, but most (good) books will teach you something you didn’t already know, and even if you have to give the book back to the library, you get to take that much with you. A lot of people talk about things they wish they’d studied in school–I’ve done it, too–but it’s a nice consolation prize that you can always pick up a book and learn something new. And as that library in your brain collects more volumes, everything around you gains new resonances, new context, and new connections which make your lived experience richer. In quarantine alone I’ve read about religion and politics and history and evolution and computer science and astrophysics without even leaving my house and it’s already a more interesting world. 

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i hate bitter coffee, there i said it