cherrymoonrising

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“Death is the mother of beauty.”

“And what is beauty?”

“Terror.”

The Secret History by Donna Tart

[cherrymoonrising]

[cherrymoonrising]

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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The thing I love most about The Secret History by Donna Tartt is that is an incredibly different experience each time you re-read it, and the effect is surreal. The first time I read it, it was as if through a mist—I found that I was not fully comprehending, just enjoying, and at times slightly disturbed, by an interesting storyline by a talented author. The second time I read it—I noticed those patterns, comprehended the underlying meanings, tone, and messages throughout the book. And I was struck by how completely I had missed the reality of the depth of the story. I like to imagine that this is because the first time I read it, I had no knowledge of how events would play out and I was reading wholly from Richard’s perspective—exactly how the experience of living through these events from his biased and romanticised perspective. The second time, I was able to anticipate the timeline and happenings of the story, and therefore was able to read from an outsider’s perspective, without the veil of Richard’s unreliable narration and distorted view of all characters and events.

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I was your starry-eyed lover and the one that you saw

I was your hurricane rider and the one that you’d call

We were just two moonshiners on the cusp of a breath

And I���ve been burning for you, baby, since the moment I left

If this isn’t Wolfstar then I truly don’t know what is