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The birds mock me with their freedom, they know I could never achieve the weightlessness that they have.

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This aged wonderfully, she'll really never know now :/

What if I can never tell my mother? What if my time comes before I can explain to her? What if I die with my mother assuming the short hair, change of name, and boxy clothes were all just a side effect of tomboyish behavior? What if I die as her daughter, and not her son?

Will I be buried in a dress or a suit?

Will she know the weight of this decision?

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I wanted your friendship. I wanted an unbreakable bond, as though we were brothers.

You wanted in my pants.

What a heartbreaking end to our time together.

I wish you had loved me the way I loved you.

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Hi 👋, My name is Mohammad, and I’m reaching out in a moment of desperate need. I’m a father of three young children living in Gaza, and we are caught in the midst of a catastrophic war. Our home is no longer a safe haven, and the future here seems increasingly uncertain. 💔

I’ve launched a fundraising campaign with the goal of raising $40,000 to relocate my family to a safer place where my children can grow up in peace and have a chance at a brighter future.

Unfortunately, my previous fundraising efforts were abruptly halted when my account was terminated without explanation. However, I remain determined to keep fighting for my family’s safety and well-being. 🫶

If you could take a moment to read our story, consider donating, or simply share our campaign with others, it would make an incredible difference. Every act of kindness, no matter how small, brings us one step closer to safety and a new beginning. 🙏

Thank you for your time, compassion, and support. ❤️‍🩹

https://gofund.me/fd1faea2 🔗

Everything about this whole situation breaks my heart. It's utterly shattering. Do something to help, donate if you can and reblog this regardless.

https://gofund.me/fd1faea2

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“Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go.”

— Nikita Gill

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What if I can never tell my mother? What if my time comes before I can explain to her? What if I die with my mother assuming the short hair, change of name, and boxy clothes were all just a side effect of tomboyish behavior? What if I die as her daughter, and not her son?

Will I be buried in a dress or a suit?

Will she know the weight of this decision?

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“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.”

— John Lennon

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As the blue sky swirled with laces of pink and orange, as the morning air nipped at my nose and brushed through my hair, as flocks of small birds took off over my head, I realized,

I am constantly surrounded by the beauty of this world. I've started taking it for granted as I live as a ghost in my own life. I've been so wrapped up in my chaos plagued mind that I've started ignoring the most beautiful things around me.

Maybe life wouldn't feel so bad if I watched a couple more sun rises kiss the morning sky.

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You not using my preferred pronouns doesn't effect me, you can't hurt me with the wrong name, your perception of me has no effect on me. I know who I am, regardless of if you have a problem with it. My love is not limited by your hate. Your fear will not shackle my freedom.

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You have to break bones to learn how to heal them.

"Do you understand the violence it took to become this gentle?"

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My heart is so heavy that it's crushing my lungs. I cannot breathe.

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“You will have days where you feel better, and you will have days where you want to die. Both are okay. There is no magical cure. You just need to close your eyes, and trust that the waves will pass, and soon you’ll be able to breathe again.”

— Unknown

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In moments like these, spent with you, I see my life unfolding in front of me.

As I run my hands through your hair I think about spending every morning waking up next to you,

As your hand brushes mine I see every warm embrace we share,

As you smile at me I imagined our future home together,

As you reached up to brush the hair out of my face I see your gentle hands caring for me as I do for you.

And as we sit here in the sun, with your head on my lap, I can see my future in your eyes.

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My Favourite Movies

This is in no particular order, just some of my favorite movies. I'm mostly making this so I have a list of all my favorite movies lol.

This is my opinion, I know nothing about movies and don't claim to!!

10 Things I Hate About You 1999

10/10

No complaints. This movie is one of my favourite movies of all time. It has a special place in my heart. It's the first movie I watched that actually made me feel like a teenager.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower 2012

10/10

My boyfriend showed me this movie and I haven't been the same since. This movie chanced my brain chemistry istg.it's absolutely amazing.

But I'm a Cheerleader 2000

8/10

This was the first movie I watched after coming out and it was just such a validating and also odd experience. I love this movie tho.

Heathers 1988

10/10

Absolutely amazing movie. Anyone who says the musical is superior can please just block me. This is possibly my favourite movie(next to perks of being a wallflower and 10 things I hate about you)

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Can I still get into heaven if I kill my self? Is it a sin to crave release from this weight I am forced to bear?

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I hope I eventually forget the promises I made to keep living. Not because I want to break them, but because I hope one day I won't need them to keep going. I wish for nothing more than for living to come easily for me, for me to want it. I feel it sometimes, in those short moments when I'm sure my life has a purpose and that I'm here for something more than what I'm doing now. I just wish they were more than temporary changes in mindset and that I truly believed it. I wish I wanted this life as much as I try to convince others that I do.

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“I am hopelessly in love with a memory. An echo from another time, another place.”

— Michael Faudet