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Raise your daughters to shout, to scream, to hold their heads up high for being themselves before society tries to teach them how to silence themselves, how to wear shame like it is a second skin. Let them taste rebellion from the moment they are born and watch them become flames to start a revolution.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

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I am a white woman.

This sentence alone is enough to send a strong feeling of distaste to a lot of peoples mouths, particularly those that descend from people of color. 

My race owns the world, oppresses those they stole the land that they claim is “theirs” from, and has attempted on multiple occasions at points in history the segregation, oppression, and genocide of those with one key ingredient-

Melanin. 

My ancestors have murdered thousands of theirs, stole their homes, their cultures (or tried), and much more from them. They have tried to take their pride, break them down, and defeat the entirety of those who did not have the same snow white skin as them. And put quite bluntly, I have a hatred in my heart for the majority of my own race for this reason. 

I grew up in a normal white household, with my mother and my grandparents taking care of me. My family was never “racist” per say, beside my uncle. I suppose it is important to note I am estranged from him for this reason alongside many others. I say “racist” in quotes because while no one ever directly came out and made any sort of derogatory comments, they were always prone to making a racist joke or two, which the others would usually join in with some comment of their own regarding stereotypical race assumptions. 

I think the only one who never stood for this was me and my grandmother, even if everyone else was just joking. After all, they would never say it to a person of colors face, and anyways, “I have a black friend! I can’t be racist!” was always the excuse. My grandfathers only comments were based on the place he worked, and that the majority of those who got raises over him were those brought in from an outside beneficial program, usually people of color. 

I know in general they all meant well, had big hearts and loved people regardless of their skin, but for some reason they, like the majority of my race, always fell victim into what I call “secondhand racism”. This meaning that while initially their first thoughts were not racist, they only had something to say when another white person had begun it. It’s a vicious cycle that I am unsure if the majority of my race can escape from. 

Please do not take it as my saying they were bad people, because they never were. In fact, when I begun dating whom is my husband now (it is important to mention he is Taino (or for those who do not know their origins, Puerto Rican)), they absolutely adored him. And they still do to this day. Everyone except said uncle mentioned above for obvious and unfortunate reasons. 

The problem begins with this secondhand racism that I spoke of. The general idea of that is this, picture this scenario:

Grouping of all white people, no matter how big or how small you can imagine. Promise them that nothing is being recorded, that it is all safe, and that they can speak freely. Have one white man begin spewing racist comments, starting small, but it causes a ripple effect, where slowly, everyone in that room begins to agree and join in on this. Just because you do not outwardly say these racist comments, does not mean that they do not lie dormant within you because of your bloodline.

This is not at all to say that all white people are like this, coming from the one here who is writing this, I can promise you that a small percentage of us are not like this, who truly do mean well and love every race, regardless of color. 

And there are those who go to my extent, who recognize and realize the problem lies within us, with our white skinned ancestors that first began raping and killing those of color. Those who understand that our race is the problem, that there is no changing those who are too far gone, as they are bred with racism in their DNA. Those who understand where we truly come from and are able to recognize our privilege, THEIR struggles, and know that it is time to come forward to show our own people that this is not okay. 

White privilege does exist, and it is shown especially today with what is happening in Charlottesville, VA. My previous post to this details exactly what is going on there, and why white privilege exists. If you do not wish to read that post, please take a few moments to watch these two videos:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BXtPcqOjpgXdXtaxtaL560cWJxnQAkPejx71fg0/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldpDff3Pkps

Please note what the man says in the first video. We all know this is true. You cannot even deny what would have happened had this been a black lives matter protest and they began assaulting the cops. The second video I will admit to you I did not watch the entirety of, due to the pure ignorance from the start from the woman who was filming the video. 

The reason I included this video was to show the interesting comparison- those whom were being shamed for throwing rocks were people of color, while the white nationalists are carrying actual weapons- guns. These people whom are obviously deranged enough as it is to be protesting against black lives matter are the ones who are truly dangerous- please tell me how throwing rocks is in any way, shape, or form, more scary or dangerous than these people with hatred in their hearts walking the streets with their fingers on the triggers.

It merely shows history repeating itself. They face guns while all they have is rocks because there is no need for violence in the world that they had created before the white people came down from the Caucasus mountains to ruin society. I may sound harsh against my own race, but to tell you the honest truth, I am embarrassed of them. 

We live in a white mans world, the government is controlled by Caucasians, they have their hands in everything, the Rothschild’s Central Bank is a prime example of that. We all know these people are a dangerous breed, and this is because of their grooming to be this way, and while it is sad and unfortunate, I can say truthfully that I am not sure a lot of my people can be ripped from this mentality, it is embedded within their genetic code. It is not those of my color who should live in fear of the people of color, it is they who have the right to truly be afraid. 

They cannot send their children out without the fear of them being harmed, they cannot sit within a gathering of white people and feel comfortable, not fully. And if you ask them, they will tell you this. For this reason, my heart bleeds for them, because they are the ones who have to live in constant oppression, who have to fight to even have their pride in knowing who they are. Black Pride is not hate speech, it is not racist, it is not wrong. Because of the Caucasians, it is all they have to rebuild themselves as a community and join together to fight against their oppressors. 

The problem comes in where the knowledge of this gets skewed and becomes hatred for all those of my skin color. As I have said previously, there is those like me out here, in the prison that is our bodies, who fight alongside those who have been oppressed, who strive to show that we are watching, we are listening, we understand, and we are fighting as well. These are the few white people who do not have calcified pineal glands, we feel for you, we see the inequality, and we want to see this rectified. 

Because of my skin color, I owe my life to all of you, I am reaching out to show this, please, know that I understand. Know that I see your struggles, I see my privilege, and I see what my people are doing. Know that I disagree with them- to be honest if I could disown my own race, I would. If I could join you in entirety and experience the hardships of living in the body you do, I would. Because I still feel that while I understand more than I know a lot of my people do, it is still not fair to say I can understand 100% because I have not experienced your lives, the unfairness, the strange stares, the uncomfortable state you have to reside in, and the fear. I have not known true struggle. But that does not mean I will not continue to fight for you. 

I have always felt uncomfortable with my own race, I was always the one who had trouble making friends, who found myself questioning why this world was the way it is. I only found true acceptance with those of color. My people have such hatred in their hearts, even for each other. It is hard to be accepted within them, they always have something negative, spiteful, and backstabbing to do or say. The only friend who has stuck by my side since we were kids was one of the only ones who truly knew me, and she was colored. I felt more comfortable with her family than I did with my own. And even now, I am much more comfortable with my husbands family than with my own. 

Africans, Puerto-Ricans, Taino, Native Americans, those who have the melanin within them will always be more giving, more kind, more loving, and more forgiving than my own people. For the most part, they have even tried forgiving their oppressors. 

If there is any race in which I wish to belong, it is not my own, but the ones who have nurtured my soul, my mind, my body, and my heart. 

Thank you for everything you have done, thank you for creating me. I am sorry for everything my people have done, but I will continue to speak this truth until my last breath. It is time someone educated my own people of their wrongs. 

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And with this I begin my blog that I have been wanting to start for a very, very long time. It is important to note that this is a current situation that begun on Saturday, August 12th of 2017. We have rammed head first into an age where, unfortunately, history has begun to repeat itself. Please take the time to read this article to become up to date on the current situation in Charlottesville, Virginia before I continue. 

If you do not believe white privilege exists, please take just a few moments to watch the video I have linked here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhQyJrpTnNo

I want you all to notice that not only was the KKK allowed to have their rally, but they were escorted and even PROTECTED by the Police. Notice that the people who protested the KKK rally were the ones arrested and gassed, not the KKK members. At another rally, linked here;

https://www.instagram.com/p/BXtPcqOjpgXdXtaxtaL560cWJxnQAkPejx71fg0/

White activists pushed against the police, which would in any other situation count as assault of an officer. If these people who pushed against the cops were people of color, the minor assault would have erupted into nothing short of this;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3Q6eTWiyzk

And possibly could have ended even more brutally. So before you come to me and say that white privilege does not exist, please take in the difference of the KKK being protected and escorted while simple Black Lives Matter rallies are immediately broken up by the police with some sort of arrests or brutality. I do understand that on occasion force is needed when things are turned violent on the side of the protesters, but you will see more often than not peaceful protests (especially BLM rallies) are broken up and treated with severe police brutality. 

It is time to take a stand to show that racism is alive and thriving. The threat of the KKK and these deranged white people is rising more and more. 

Regardless of what you may say, you would never trade skin with a black person. That proves to you what white privilege is right there. Whether you can acknowledge it or not, White Privilege is a very real thing. Those of color have more to fear than we do, we are in no position to say that we too have this kind of brutality, that we too experience the pure fear that people of color must live in because this is a white mans world. If we support Black Lives Matter, then we too must admit White Privilege exists, and that it is what runs this world. 

There is no safety for anyone without unity. There is no peace until we destroy this system once and for all and return the power to those who it was stolen from- our ancestors of color. We are not special, we are not the “perfect race”, in fact, most of us are unfortunately brainwashed into racism. 

Know your ancestors and protect them as such.