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[chaaamomilee]

at the end of the horizon (please, come back to me)

A mission goes awry. Yet again, Rui pays the price.

1.4k words of rui/mc angst without a happy ending, dying confessions. warnings for blood and major character death

This can't be happening.

Amidst the grime and carnage and the steady spill of blood onto the floor, you crumple at his side. He's smiling. Somehow, he's smiling, mouth smeared with the crimson of sunset, dipping below the horizon for the very last time.

"It's okay," he whispers, barely audible, trembling with heart and pain. "Shh. Don't cry, please - for me."

You wipe furiously at your eyes as if to scrub the vision, the nightmare this must be, away. The tears fall harder, salt gathering on your tongue; your pleas come out choked by the thick of it. No, no, no. the others are on their way. Please, Rui- Ed will help you, Ed will know what to do-

"Ed won't be able to help with this." He winces. You shake your head frantically, hands twitching - the seams of your blazer nearly rip beneath your grip as you press the soaked fabric deeper into his rot-edged wound. That damned anomaly- you should have anticipated it, should've shoved him away and taken the hit yourself. Darkwick should have known this wasn't something you could handle.

"It's okay," he repeats. The line of his mouth is taut. "I had it coming."

"Don't say that." You grit your teeth. Your shoulders are trembling. "Never- you never-"

Your voice breaks. You can't find it in yourself to piece it back together. His eyes flicker - he doesn't believe you. When has he ever believed you?

"Not too deep," he rasps out as your hands shake. "Don't want you to touch me on accident."

Perhaps, in some other world, you'd laugh. Rui, growing paler by the second, eyes dimming with each slow blink (rubied eyes, sunset eyes, that watched you laugh from across the countertop and studied the planes of your face when his hands couldn't and looked at you like you could absolve him), never once failing to shut himself away. You take in a shuddering breath.

"I don't care about that, Rui," you force out. "Now don't- don't say anything else. You'll get through this, just- hold on a little longer; Ed and Lyca-"

"Oh, man." His eyes flutter shut. Your heart stops, but then his lips are moving again. "Tell Lyca I'm sorry, okay? I probably should've been a little nicer to him, huh...."

"I said, stop talking." Your vision blurs. "You can tell him yourself, you have to tell him yourself-"

"And Ed." He's looking at you now, mourning strung through the curve of his mouth. "I always complained about him, but it was always nice to have someone. I guess he was good company, in the end."

You are nigh-destroyed, by now, tongue bleeding pleas and cries and inane echoes of his name into the molten air. It smells of rust. How very far away you feel - Rui smelled of sweet, always, citrus curling around him so tightly it was sometimes overpowering but you learned to love it the same way you had always known how to love him.

His next wheeze sends blood splattering across the ruined earth. Your fists clench, fighting back the urge to catch him - to rest his head on your palm and memorise the warmth of him soaking into you before-

A whisper of your name tugs your wild eyes to his face.

It's twisted in a grimace, pulled taut with ache, but he's alive. You devour the sight like you will never lay your eyes on anything else.

(One way or another, you know it's true.)

"Listen." Your heart cracks. Something new swirls in his gaze, lightning flashing above holy ground. Fear. A sacrifice. Is that all any of you ever will be? "I'm not going to make it."

You don't know what flares deep in your gut: only that it is blazing and ruinous and makes you speak.

"You are." your voice is shattered, and the words come crashing down amidst the sobs. "Ed and Lyca will get here soon, I told you, and we'll get you back to Darkwick in time- we'll bring you to Jiro and Yuri, you know they're the best we have-"

"i love you."

The torrent dies in your throat.

There is only wind whistling in your ears and the thrum of your heartbeat when you look at him once more, as if you could confirm it through sight alone. His eyes are somber. Raw.

"I love you," he repeats, and despite the fragmentation he says it like he has never trusted the strength of anything more. "Since- since that night at the bar, two months ago." His eyes are glistening. "I'm sorry. I know it's selfish, I just- I had to tell you."

You can't move.

Your eyes are burning. You don't want to focus on it - you want to focus on him, on the fading sun of his damned smile and not the devastation that threatens to swallow you whole all over again. Why now? Your mind screams. Why now, when he is so adamant on leaving- you thought love was supposed to make you stay. It's what bound you to the bar more midnights than not, kept you at Obscuary on nights you should've spent back home, imagining if his heartbeat matched yours as you drifted off into a world that did not keep you apart.

You close your eyes.

"I love you, too," you say, instead, and it is real. In another, separate time, perhaps it is tucked into the crook of his neck or settling softly against the flush of his mouth as well- but those moments are not yours to live, and in this one, you are with him: that is all.

Maybe he relaxes. You are too lost to tell. But a peace seems to glaze over his features, and if what he says is true- you cannot think of anyone who deserves it more.

"I've known for a while that I'd die with regrets," Rui murmurs softly, gazing at you still. What is it he has always dreamed of - absolution, you remember, heart falling away. "I'm glad that never telling you I loved you wasn't one of them."

And your eyes could be deceiving you, but for a moment- his own seem clear, the murk of night chased away.

(If the end is coming, as the stagger of his breathing foretells, you have but one thought. In another life. In a kinder life. I would find you in every universe, and we would get our happy ending in all of them. I would make sure of it, I promise.)

You sniffle.

"Oh, Rui," you whisper. You think the bleeding has slowed. It gives you no hope.

He smiles, again, the beginnings of your name leaving him on a low exhale. Every time, he made it sound like a symphony. Unconsciously, you wait for the final flourish, the turn of the melody that would've told you it was him every single time-

In the corner of your eye, his hand falls limp.

(The note hangs still in the air.)

"Rui?" You whisper.

Nothing.

You don't move away. You can't.

Rui? you ask, again.

Nothing.

Your vision blurs. Rui, you say, plead, beg. Rui, come on- Rui- please, please, please, Rui-

Your bloodsoaked hands dart to his neck, his wrists. Nothing. He's warm - warm as you thought he'd be, in all your sweetest dreams - but there is nothing. You cup his face, thumb passing over his eyelids, his nose, the parted seal of his lips. You brush his hair away from his forehead. Tuck it behind his ears. You search and search and search.

Nothing.

His head lolls against your shoulder when you pull him into you. You cradle his cheek, an arm wrapped around his torso, feeling for something you know deep down you have long lost the chance to find.

Rui, you say, and it breaks a thousand times over. Please.

Nothing.

(What else were you expecting?)

The grief sets in slow. Sand pours steadily through your bones, drags you down like lead until you feel yourself devoured yet again. The teeth of it puncture your skin. Your knees dig into the earth, seeking to return-

(-and perhaps someday you will look back here and marvel, at the swell of a mind coloured by want. You close your eyes and see memories that have never been: crystalline dreams of sun-warmed sheets and clinking glasses - of Rui, brilliant and beautiful alongside everyone he has ever loved. Of the life he'd always wanted to live, full and bursting and gone.)

You hold him, and wail.

[chaaamomilee]

Waves of Love

[chaaamomilee]

hello hello miss lin!!!!! i was going to go to sleep but ur post about outfit inspo for haku had me Wide Awake so please accept slide 2 haku <3 (i also drew slide 1 but my drawing program crashed when i was nearly done and my spirit is. a little crushed)

he's so.......... vibrates rapidly

anyways i just wanted to take the opportunity to thank you for being so lovely?? all the time???? i get unbelievably happy seeing you in my activity and always have the BEST time reading your tags and thoughts. your creations also give me the most ridiculous happy chemical boosts i'm being so serious rn. ily, please never die

mai holy shit i’m gna cry ?????? 😭😭😭❗️❗️i can’t believe you did this oh my GOD i know i alr offered u my firstborn but 🧎 may i perhaps offer u my soul holy shit 🤲🤲🤲

he looks so soft so boyfriend so casual ouGGDHGHGHH the sleeves rolled up the oversized sweater the messy hair the GLASSES 😭😭😭 the GLASSES‼️‼️😭 god the things i would do for ur haku OIHFHGHVHHB haku i’m gna marry u what then (vibrating so hard i break glass)

but also no 🫵🔄 thank YOU 🫵🗣️🗣️ for being so lovely oh my GOD ur tags are always so cute & slightly. unhinged i Adore them 🧎i adore YOU the fuck never have i ever came across someone who writes AND draws like u like. triple threat how do u do it. shakes u

[chaaamomilee]

Pls tell me I'm not the only one who loves Haku with an absolutely weird partner. Like. I just love the idea of this totally normal seeming guy surrounded by weirdos.

Like a partner who speaks in riddles that he somehow understands and offers him home made medicine he *does not* take but says he will yet still supports when people call them weird with a smile and a shrug. Someone who gets along unbelievably well with Zenji -

Idk I just love it. I love this man having a weird AAAA crew except for Subaru whose p normal all things considered lmao

-Blossom

the funniest thing abt this is you calling subaru pretty normal. i had flashbacks 2 the most recent episode and just sorta. nodded my head. "sure... normal..."

i mean hey if u can call "maladjusted grown man with severe anger issues and a crushing inferiority complex; proven in part by his past of verbally abusing his juniors" normal, then sure! normal!

anyways haku rambling and tkdb lore rambling (AND SPOILERS!) under the cut

haku is of course going to be the one normie surrounded by freaks because Hotarubi was NOT his original house. bro's not artsy nor is he a theatre kid. we don't really know the traits of Clementia House but I'd argue they include easygoing, all things considered, especially if both Rui and Haku were there.

actually let me get into that: each house has set traits. people are, of course, far more diverse in personality, so seven options isn't nearly enough to sort people in; but we can agree that each of the students in every house share at least one trait with their dormmates.

everyone in Frostheim isn't as princely as Jin, but they all have excellent intuition and loyalty where it counts. they all show courage as well (yes, even kaito is courageous man do not argue with me! i would not keep fighting romeo this long)!

everyone in jabberwock doesn't care about the animals like haru, but they're all shown to be compassionate, kind, and empathetic (yes i know. ren doesn't act like this outwardly. but i think he's so emotionally intuitive and empathetic that it makes him emotionally constipated and he ends up withdrawing, making him seem like an asshole).

everyone is sinostra is not as anally retentive as ritsu, but they are all shown to possess acuity, ambition, and selfishness. (yes taiga is ambitious no im not arguing with you)

anyways. everybody has something in common within their houses. haku and rui are pretty similar. from the beginning, i wondered why haku was even in hotarubi considering he's. well. not like them at all. rui seemed to belong in obscuary, though i also think he'd be a great fit for jabberwock, considering his bleeding heart. if only it weren't for his affliction.

haku and rui are both nice (not kind!), altruistic, and have charming personalities in line with societal views dictating what makes someone charming. [if you mix all of these in a pot, you'd also get "perniciously self-conscious" but that's a discussion for another time.] i imagine people in clementia - when it was active - probably seemed outwardly normal. i bet they were all charming, helpful, and nice people. you could probably tell there was more to them, but secrets are well kept in confessionals, i guess. nobody would know how to crack them, exactly. friendships with a clementia student would be very superficial and noncommital, and i bet it was this attitude that made haku want to leave the very loyal and driven students of frostheim, especially after the clash. i imagine he was once also driven, but maybe something happened in the clash that caused his flame to fizzle out. who knows?

anyways. to circle back to the point: haku doesn't really belong in hotarubi anyway. i think he chose it because its the safest and least likely option to stir up trouble. with regards to whether or not he would remain a sympathizer or adopt hotarubi's dissident views, i can't tell. but he seems amiable and honestly? i wouldn't be surprised if he could go either way.

OKAY ENOUGH ABT MY LORE RAMBLINGS in conclusion. yea he's going to seem normal (even if i think he isn't exactly normal, but again... story for another time) surrounded by a bunch of art kids. the fact that he seems perfectly fine with it tells me he's used to being around theatrical people, which would tell us something about his upbringing. if anything, i think someone weird and extroverted and vibrant would be a good match for haku. haku isn't bland, but he is easygoing, laid back, and caring. he takes things in stride and makes sure to help out when he can, all the time. some weirdo who's more airy than aware but maintains a vibrant exterior would generally mesh well with him. that's why he and zenji get along. zenji is weird, dramatic, performative, lively, and passionate. he expresses feelings haku wouldn't express in ways that haku wouldn't have thought of. he opens up his world significantly, and haku, being someone who goes with the flow, is attracted to that offbeat vibrancy. hell, if haku was more of a talker and less in his own head, i think he'd also get along with towa.

he would absolutely adore a partner who was vibrant and weird and owned it, like zenji does. the whole speaking in riddles part is funny because i imagine it'd be like a towa situation. zenji would, of course, crack your riddles immediately and happily communicate. it'd take haku a while to get used to your unusual sort of offbeat-ness, but he'd warm up to it sooner than later, and find your riddles easy eventually.

as far as homemade medicine goes. ill always be an advocate for homemade remedies because it's prevalent in certain cultures that i happen to be a part of. but i can see him not taking it. he seems more practical and more likely to be skeptical of certain things.

anyways YES i agree haku would love somebody weird. however, i hear this and raise that he'd like somebody quiet, too. somebody with a huge, imaginative inner world full of boundless creativity. all in all, i think he's attracted to creativity and imagination. people with expansive inner worlds that like to express them, or that you have to peel back the layers to see.

maybe that's why he's in hotarubi?

[chaaamomilee]

Drawing in tears after losing gacha and i suddenly rmb i have another smol BamiRomi strip i've never posted before, i think it suits my art well so-

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Headcanon: Romeo is shorter than Taiga, its like he was only as tall as his captain's shoulder.

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"Click... Clack!!"

The handgun in Romeo’s grip was cocked and loaded, its black barrel aimed squarely at Taiga’s forehead. He shoved him into the corner of the room — one hand gripping the gun, the other clutching the front of Taiga’s shirt.

"You son of a bitch... You TBH bastard, HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU?!"

"It’s always the same! Every damn time I’m this close to getting the ban lifted, YOUR FUCKING NAME COMES UP AND SCREWS EVERYTHING!!!"

Romeo yanked Taiga’s collar, pulling him in close, hot angry breaths hitting his face. His neck veins bulged, his face flushed red, and his once-beautiful eyes narrowed into slits. Each curse he spat was like a dagger aimed straight at Taiga’s chest.

But Taiga just stood there.

Silent.

Still.

He didn’t resist, didn’t flinch. His cold gaze pierced through Romeo’s rage like it didn’t even matter. The corner of his mouth curled — was that a mocking smirk, or just sheer apathy? His body stayed loose, relaxed, his indifference only making Romeo’s fury feel more pointless.

“Goddammit, goddammit... If I don’t shoot you dead today, I swear I’m not a Lucci anymore!!!” -  Romeo growled, gripping the gun so tightly it looked like he might crush it.

“Not a Lucci, huh... Romeo Hoshibami? Guess I’ll call you that now — gyahahaha!"

Taiga burst into laughter. He calmly reached up, took the barrel of the gun that was pressed against his forehead, and pushed it aside — much to Romeo’s shock. Then, leaning in close, he whispered into his ear:

“You won’t shoot me... I know."

“...What makes you think that?”

Romeo snapped back, his tone still smoldering with gunpowder — but a bit softer now.

“You’re weeping.”

“...”

It was true.

Romeo could feel the hot tears streaming down his face. His eyes stung, and the hand holding the gun began to tremble — until at last, the weapon slipped from his fingers and clattered to the floor.

He leaned into Taiga’s shoulder, voice barely a whisper.

“...I... I tried so hard. Why would you...”

Taiga said nothing at first. He simply ran a hand through Romeo’s hair, ruffling it gently. Only after a long pause did he speak:

“Sorry.”

“...Has anyone ever told you that Lulu looks really cute when he cries?”

Romeo froze.

He straightened up, shoved Taiga away, and stared at him with a face full of disgust — as if regretting the last two minutes of vulnerability.

“..........Fuck off.”

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What did i do after lost gacha in Taiga's banner....... 13 wards but Yuri came instead.... Hohoho.....

[chaaamomilee]

mockup of the mc shippability wickhive discourse since the people asked ;) the inspector gimmick and general vibes are inspired by @/jeun-bug's wonderful smaus go give them some love if u haven't alr!! there's a version of this formatted directly into tumblr too for anyone who has trouble reading the pics

bamiromi mention in the 3rd slide and towaharu in the 7th (sorry i had to) + brief spoilers for ep 6/7. some super mildly suggestive talk?? theyre college students idk what else to say

blank templates below if anyone would like to make their own!! please tag me if you do i ADORE these kinds of things <3 i did my best to patch over the bg pattern but just. don't look too closely lmao

the font i used is barlow condensed! pretty sure the actual font in game is isra regular but it wasnt available in canva so i did my best

[chaaamomilee]

Before Jin and Tohma I had Samatoki and Jyuto

[chaaamomilee]

u all know the drill.... yet another product of the brainworms i contracted from @kusanagihaku's gorgeous haku fic!!

[chaaamomilee]

wherever, whenever, with you

Summary: Different AU-setting scenarios with the Tokyo Debunker guys! Some are inspired by the missions that happened in the canon story, and some just by their character vibe.

Warnings: Not many direct spoilers, but I am borrowing some of the theming of the missions I've played/seen. Mentions of blood drinking in Edwards but he's a vampire... And mentions of stalking (influencer AU) in Sho's.

Characters: Edward, Leo, Sho, Jin, Taiga, Haku

Edward + Mysterious Butler

"Oh? Is the tea not to your liking, Master?" You mutter something about how it's alright; just your appetite, only for an elegant face to appear in your view. "Why, that won't do." Edward smiles serenely, too close for comfort. Then, leaning in to your ear: "I took quite a lot of blood from you last night. We can't have you fainting now, can we?" Sometimes, you honestly wonder who's in charge here. You, the stranded Young Master of a fallen family, or the conspicuous 'butler' who's offered you his aid. "...I'll finish the drink. Just leave me for a few hours to complete my paperwork." You try to ignore the burning sensation on your cheeks, shying away from Edward's form. Unsurprisingly, he follows. Tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear with a lingering touch. "As you wish, Young Master. Your word is my command."

Leo + Influencer Relationship

"Come on now, sweetheart. No need to be so shy." You try your best not to squirm as Leo pulls you closer by the waist, posing with a bright smile as the photobooth camera blinds you with a flash. Another picture, and another, before Leo takes a video of the collage editing process and prepares it for a post. 'Cutest photobooth ever! They say that highschool sweethearts who take a pic here are sure to have great luck!' The sickeningly sweet caption is posted with swoosh on his phone, then, the real Leo greets you. A lazy, almost bored expression, as he leads you out of the store. "What is it? Having second thoughts?" You didn't expect him to ask you that; as if he truly cared how you felt. You'd agreed to help him stage a fake relationship on his socials so that his more rabid fans would back off from sending way too much fanmail to his address - or, in the event that they tried to do anything else, get reported. After which you can finally 'break up' and go back to your usual life. But... Even if you're used to Leo's two-faced personality, it's still jarring whenever he suddenly brightens when you're in public, calling you pet names and buying you your favorite snacks and drinks. Always act like someone's watching. You never know how far a stalker would go. "...Don't move." Leo leans in close to you, fingers tilting up your chin. You notice that his head is angled so that no one could see your expressions from the left. "I saw a camera blinking. Don't say anything you wouldn't want to be gossiped about." But in your made-up narrative, this is nothing more than an innocent, doting kiss. Leo leans away with a soft, gentle smile. And you can feel the nerves from both his situation and this starting to build. Will you really be alright by the time this fake romance ends?

Sho + Highschool AU

"Hey, senpai," A familiar voice calls, smiling as you look up from tying your shoes. "Ready to go?" "People are going to think you've got a crush on me if you keep this up." You laugh, ruffling Sho's hair. He protests at the action and grabs your wrist to stop you, before pausing, lingering, and finally letting go. "Well, it doesn't matter what they think, as long as you're okay about walking with me." He shoves his hands into his pockets and matches your steps. It's Sho's first year in highschool, while you're a year above him; you used to be close in middle school due to how Leo would always dump his 'vice president' errands onto Sho. As secretary of the student council back then, you always had the chance to chat with him and eventually learned that you lived in the same neighborhood. Despite his semi-delinquent looks, you know for a fact that Sho's a good guy. He's helped you carry groceries and bags countless of times, and offered to wait for you if you were staying late after school to complete paperwork. All in all, you believe that his popularity now that he's in highschool is well-warranted. The only thing is... You sometimes feel like he's being limited by spending time with you. You don't mind it, of course - but you aren't as active now as you were in middle-school. You spend most of your time studying in the library or helping out at home. "Since when did I become friends with you because of stuff like that?" Sho had replied in the past. "I'm hangin' out with you because I want to, senpai. Don't let anyone try to convince you otherwise." It's a shame... he could really make a significant other happy, with this amount of care and attention. ...Wait... could it be...?

Jin + Beach Outing

"You really ought to be more careful." Jin sighs, shifting your position in his arms - bridal carried - so that the Sun isn't glaring into your face. "Why would you go into the water without proper swimwear?" "I kind of got dragged there against my will..." You weakly defend yourself, knowing full-well that if Jin caught onto the fact that you haven't put proper sunscreen on, you were going to be in for it. "Haru and Towa are really energetic, you know." Jin's expression seems to sour at the sound of their names. "And did any of you think about what you'd do once your clothes got wet?" "Well..." Unexpectedly, you find yourself placed down on one of the beach chairs, and a large sheet of fabric falls over your legs. "Just put that on." Oh. Not a towel. Jin's shirt. Loose enough to wear as a coat around your frame. "Don't just stare with your mouth open. Help me put sunscreen on my back." "Y-Yes! Hold on a moment!"

Taiga + Casino

"Place your bets." You stare at the roulette wheel with your hands clenched. Everything about this place is too foreign; from the lowlights and sparkling furniture, to the expensive clothes on your back. This is why you hate blind dates. Why did you even let that stupid- "Black." A hand reaches over your shoulder, moving your chips. Huh? Before you know it, the wheel is spinning, and lo and behold... You've won. The stranger who's saved your fumble huffs to himself, as if this was no surprise. Then, drags a chair over to slot it next to you, leaning close as if you're attending this casino event together - smelling faintly of smoke and whisky. Wait... is this a stranger? Why does it feel like you've met him before? "Come on, kitten. You told me to stick close to you, remember?" Taiga leans in to whisper in your ear. "Now make a bet. Red, or black?" ...Mission... don't forget... Why do you have a feeling that your bet is going to trigger more than just a roulette loss? (Distinctly, your subconscious is aware: your next words is the trigger between a Taiga who destroys the casino that stole your memories - or a longer night dancing in darkness, with unfamiliar steps and sights.)

Haku + Navigating the City's Cafes

"Open up, ahh..." Haku barely contains his laugh at the embarrassed knit in your brow. When you told him you haven't visited the city in a while and missed the cafes - you didn't mean this! "Just teleport me back to campus." You mutter, starting to push yourself away from the table. "If I'm lucky, no one's seen us, and I can-" You feel your chair getting yoinked back in Haku's direction; pulled by him hooking his foot around one of its legs. The casual and effortless action just flusters you even more, and you lose the ability to speak. What on earth- "Say ah-" Haku continues, as if you hadn't just attempted to escape. His joking tone softens into a more familiar smile, slightly apologetic: "Sorry, sorry. I'll stop teasing you." "You can't help it, huh?" You try not to pout, but it's hard when Haku's constantly making your heart skip and jump. This imbalance in power is way too unfair! As you reach out to take the fork with cake from his hand, Haku smoothly swaps your grips - before pulling your hand, and the cake, to his mouth instead. And in a second - it's gone. You can't decide if this is better or worse than being fed by him, when Haku licks some of the cake crumbs off his lips. "Not too sweet." He comments, holding his chin. "But maybe I'll need a comparison to make sure." ...Why is he staring at your lips?

[chaaamomilee]

Why do you like the brat

(genuinely want to know lmao)

funny you should ask that...

it all started when I saw that one ad where leo was kicking his feet in the bathtub...(big yap warning)

shallowly, he gives power bottom energy. i was prepared to not like him since my friend was further in the game + picked leo bc she thought he looked cunty and quickly found out that she hated him, but my first meeting of him was that ad.... that ad.... hes so like girly and like cutesy and and :3c!! so then i actually met him in the game... hes so girly and cutesy omg, i live for that fake bitch energy. hes so like... pathetic and two faced and cute like....

so basically i have this thing where i yearn for this kind of dynamic where i can overpower him but hes smarter than me and also very interesting so i just let him boss me around. hes so like... weak. and i love his voice i need him to moan in my ear especially when hes being fake and cute bc he wants something from you? "captain~<3 can you please open this bottle for me?~ <3" ugh. fuck. boner. hes such a vixen. hes such a diva.

also him crying... oh my lord LEO CRYING!!! UGHHH. the world's prettiest crier <3 and his goddamn tongue piercing

also like the switch up is hot too, the duality of man <3 my pretty delicate princess!!

psychologically, hes such a fucking wreck and i love that, hes such a bitch, and hes so manipulative, and hes so jealous, and insecure, and such a liar, im so fascinated!!! does he know how awful he is? does he realize how toxic hes being? is he toxic on purpose?? is he a shit friend on purpose? is it a power trip to make sho pay for his food or is he just lazy? i want to know what hes thinking

his relationship with sho is so fascinating too, like its so clear hes scared of losing him but in a way he also hates/loves him. like wdym you have other friends besides me??? you're starting a business??? ugh, ur so lame. and he actively tries to isolate him, is he jealous of sho's popularity? his talents? his social life? or does he hate the things that takes sho away from him?? he also does not give a shit about shos happiness either bc he like badmouthed him to subaru just so subaru could leave him alone... wow... what a fucking asshole... im so invested, drama!!!! also the valentine's day line where he doesn't mention getting anything but sho does,,, it means something no?? dude, like, leo is everything and nothing, i bet he feels so worthless but to make up for that he uses sho and internet validation

hes built like a reality tv character, THE instigator but hes smart about it. hes such an attention whore, like .... regina george... guys real shit i have a mean girl kink /j

leos the type of bitch to flirt with and sleep with his boss to make more money.

ANOTHER THING he has like a weird sense of justice?? like he hates ppl who've made the world shitty (ref to when he jumps off the building) and so him and sho scamming old rich guys is kinda like them being vigilantes? leos kinda like an anti-hero in a way. hes so interesting!!! AHH!!!

omg also hes in his self-destructive era and i need to see how it goes, like will he be a villain? will his life get ruined bc of himself?? will he get punished? will he redeem himself? does he regret his choices??

ngl i tho im actually not romantically interested in him, which is pretty surprising considering how much i like him. im obsessed with him in the most objectifying way possible

but yeah i love my toxic fruit tart boy <333

[chaaamomilee]

nooot done yapping yet XD

IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY BUT THIS SCENE REALLY GOT ME IN CHOKEHOLD JAHSHSHSHSHSHBSSHNSHSBS SHOHEI HAIZONO WHEN I CATCH UUUU

they are very nice for recognizing their mistakes. you dropped your crowns queens👑👑👑 DON'T EVER EVER EVER change yourself to be likeable!!! especially if it's for a man. sigh

they looked like shopping here LMFAOOOOO they are so amused for people who are supposedly searching for anomalies honestly

I AM BITING THE ENDS OF ENCLOSUREEAAHHHHHHHHHHH WKHSJSHSUSHSHHHSSBSBSBSNBSBS SOBBING GROANING GRINNING LAUGHING GIGGLING FOAMING ON THE MOUTH AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSHOILYVERYMUCHTTTT

i LOVE leo here so much. sure he's very intolerable during the previous chapters but ngl he's actually very understanding in this chapter of mc's curse in the way that he can. leo doesn't give her a sweet assurance or a promise but instead, he speaks about it honestly. that's what i really like leooo, he's harsh about everything but what he says honestly makes sense. he still needs character improvement(lmao) and this chapter proves that he can be a better person!!!

ngl, sometimes you would need someone like leo to say things to you honestly and not sugarcoat anything

UHMMM mandatory episode 19 yapping??? xD

MY GIRL IS SOO PRETTYYYYY call this scene cliché(it is) but MC is genuinely so cute hereee. the toast on her mouth while she ran fast to catch up the first period reminds me of 2018–2019 gacha life mini movies. yk those time when the stories opens with the main character rushing to not get late AND THEN BY ACCIDENT they bump to the resident school bad boy? IT'S GIVING THAT ENERGYYYY

it's not very far fetched since Sho is what you considered as delinquent. BUT YEZ, i'd kneel for these panels repeatedly until my knees bruised and bleed🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

i saw the green eyed girl and I IMMEDIATELY FELL IN LOVE. NO WORDS. MY EYES FELL ON THE GREEN EYED GIRL THE MOMENT SHE'S ON THE SCREEN.

i'm so sorry but it's really so funny to me how the air immediately changed when Alan asked about any ghost sightings LMFAO. imagine a big guy who looks like can fold a car in half is asking about ghosts, I'D BET you would see a visible question mark above their heads XD

how to be Leo? LIKE GENUINELYYYYY I NEED A BRAIN LIKE LEOOOOOOOOOOOOO dang i just really want to take months worth of absences and then ace my exams because i know i can. also also, first teacher? no one's taking leo's the devil crown FRFRFRFR

as much as i loved the green haired girl very much— YOU DO NOT TALK TO MC LIKE THAAAAAAAAAT they are so giving mean girls energy(which honestly suits them) BUT NOOOO don't give my girl that kind of attitude. also it made me lowkey proud when one of the options is call sho as mc's boyfriend hehehehehe LIKE DUH OFC IF I HAVE THE CHANCE YES

[chaaamomilee]

UHMMM mandatory episode 19 yapping??? xD

MY GIRL IS SOO PRETTYYYYY call this scene cliché(it is) but MC is genuinely so cute hereee. the toast on her mouth while she ran fast to catch up the first period reminds me of 2018–2019 gacha life mini movies. yk those time when the stories opens with the main character rushing to not get late AND THEN BY ACCIDENT they bump to the resident school bad boy? IT'S GIVING THAT ENERGYYYY

it's not very far fetched since Sho is what you considered as delinquent. BUT YEZ, i'd kneel for these panels repeatedly until my knees bruised and bleed🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

i saw the green eyed girl and I IMMEDIATELY FELL IN LOVE. NO WORDS. MY EYES FELL ON THE GREEN EYED GIRL THE MOMENT SHE'S ON THE SCREEN.

i'm so sorry but it's really so funny to me how the air immediately changed when Alan asked about any ghost sightings LMFAO. imagine a big guy who looks like can fold a car in half is asking about ghosts, I'D BET you would see a visible question mark above their heads XD

how to be Leo? LIKE GENUINELYYYYY I NEED A BRAIN LIKE LEOOOOOOOOOOOOO dang i just really want to take months worth of absences and then ace my exams because i know i can. also also, first teacher? no one's taking leo's the devil crown FRFRFRFR

as much as i loved the green haired girl very much— YOU DO NOT TALK TO MC LIKE THAAAAAAAAAT they are so giving mean girls energy(which honestly suits them) BUT NOOOO don't give my girl that kind of attitude. also it made me lowkey proud when one of the options is call sho as mc's boyfriend hehehehehe LIKE DUH OFC IF I HAVE THE CHANCE YES

[chaaamomilee]

i finally have tarot haku on my main TTTTTTTTTTTTTTT I AM SOBBING SHAKING WAILING CONVULSING FOAMING ON THE MOUTH

i already pulled for him on every single server i have but he hasn't come home yet...

[chaaamomilee]

nooo don't gradually decay into a shell of yourself inside the time loop over and over and over again youre so sexy aha...

(incredibly self indulgent rendition of a scene from a fic of mine :) )

[chaaamomilee]

Tonight I Might (SPY!Haku AU)

inspired by KATSEYE's song Tonight I Might

Go listen to it! it might give you more of an idea of why I choose the song

This took like 8 hours to make TwT

If you saw how inconsistent the styles are, no you didn't. (I don't have a consistent style yet), MC's outfit actually took 30 minutes for me to decide, like idk which outfit should she wear... she always looks good

(Hands no more hands please, somebody take me away...)

[chaaamomilee]

all those diamonds spent on 4 servers and you decided to come home on a server i DON'T usually use😤😤😤😤😤

i already pulled for him on every single server i have but he hasn't come home yet...

[chaaamomilee]

Shrine

- Haku Kusanagi x Reader

- fluff, might contain errors

- also on ao3

- hbd haku<33

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Working with Haku always means, safe pace, leisurely chill and most importantly, it's always rule-bound. So when he suddenly suggested to go somewhere after the mission, a part of you was divided to believe him or let him pull you wherever he go.

Haku grinned and looked down at you from the corner of his eyes, the light from the convenience store contrasting the faded dark night, colors his features in a soft bluish glow. "Hey princess?" he called softly.

You looked up, expecting to see him look down at you as he says his next words. Instead, he kept his head upfront, eyes closed as if he was listening to the quiet noise on the road. Haku looks so serene this way, quiet, unguarded, just you and him walking through together as if you have all the time in the world.

"What about it, Haku-san?" you asked, pulling your gaze away from him to look straight on the road.

"I heard about this old shrine around here." he shrugged, "I want to ask if you'd like to go out on a date with me tonight."

You paused from your tracks, prompting Haku to stop walking and open his eyes. He looked down under his lashes, the faint trace of mirth gracing his lips.

"Why are you looking at me that way?" he chuckled and scratched his cheek, "I'm not asking to take off your clothes but I'd be happy to obli—"

"—Can we get a drink at least?" you immediately cut him off and pointed to a vending machine, eyes darting away from Haku to look at the apparatus from the distance.

He smiled and chuckled before tucking his hands under his pockets again and leaning his weight back. Haku looked away and bit the inside of his cheek as if he was trying to stifle a laugh.

You sighed and tugged your blazer tighter around yourself, the cold of the night seeping through your clothes and scratching your bones. However, his words effectively brought the heat up to your face as you scrambled to find words to say back at him.

"What I am trying to say is, isn't it unusual for you to ask something like that?" you asked after a moment of hesitation and looked back up at Haku. You saw the way his eyebrows shoot up— the way his head tilted slightly sidewards and his eyes lightning up with interest, "We're not allowed to get past curfew hours remember? You said that to me yourself before..."

Haku stared at you and nodded his head as if he was contemplating something. He sighed deeply and gave you a small smile, "Just one visit. It doesn't have to take an hour."

"You're very odd today, Haku-san..." you tilted your head, "Are you thinking of something?"

He offered his hand for you to take, the beads from his bracelets shining against the soft yellow light from the street light above. And then he flashed you a playful smile, "Safety guaranteed, remember?"

You stared at his hand, contemplating whether you want to say "let's go to Darkwick" or just run away and hide under the covers of that old shrine. Sighing deeply, you took his hand and intertwined your hands with his.

The rough calluses on his fingers brushed against mine as he squeezed my hand even tighter. For some reason, you can imagine Haku in his room with his flute. you wanted to trace the pads of hardened skin and ask him about the moments he sits under the fragile roof of his balcony while he leaned his back against the shoji; and then, you would watch him while his fingers deftly played with his flute as he closed his eyes and inhaled the scent of petrichor in the air.

You quietly walked together, hands on each other, gentle but firm enough to remember that we have each other. Every time you tried to look up at Haku, you could see him throwing you a few glances on your face as if he was trying to check if you were still beside him and following him

When you arrived, the shrine was smaller than what you expected. There were omamoris tied against the wooden stands; wind chimes that were dancing to the rhythm of the wind. It's not like the same one back at Haku's family or the ones that the crowds visited the most in July... it's very homely and well maintained. If it wasn't for the large bell and rope, you would have assumed this is just someone's house. Something not inhabited by spirits but people who live their lives quietly.

You turned to look at Haku however he's already fishing a coin in his pocket. He slipped the object inside the offering box before bowing and clapping his hand. You caught the faintest shape of his breath under the moonlight— eyes closed, eyelash brushing against his cheek.

You stayed back and continued to watch him pray. However, he didn't let the moment be only his. Haku opened his eyes and fished a coin from his pocket, then looked up at you and raised his hand with the coin on his palm, "You gonna wish or what?" voice softer than the wind.

He leaned closer, his shoulder bumping against yours, his breath brushing faintly to the shape of your ear, "Wish for something good. Something selfish."

The way Haku looks right now... under the bright moonlight, his serpentine eyes seems to soften. The gold behind his irises shining with something that the wind seems to understand. It gently ruffles his hair as if an imaginary hand is consoling and taking care of him; his earrings dance to the wind, brushing itself against the slope of his jaw, aching and reaching for Haku to take notice.

Sighing deeply, you took the coin and closed your eyes. With both hands, you held it tenderly against your chest before reaching down and kissed it gently and finally dropped it on the narrow opening of the offering box. You pressed your hands together and prayed for yourself, for all the ghouls in the academy, for the people you helped on your past missions, for Haku to be safe, for Haku to be happy, for Haku to be comfortable—

I wished for Haku to find happiness, that he would finally realize that he meant something more to me. I wished that I had more time to spend with him in it; I wished for soon to never come. I wished for something with Haku on my side.

When you looked up, Haku was already looking at you, "Did you wish for anything good?"

You shrugged your shoulders, a small stretch of smile tugging your lips, "Maybe. What did you wish for?"

Haku stared at you contemplatively, his hands tucked inside his pockets as if he was trying to restrict himself from something. He sighed and said softly, "To be safe and comfortable."

"Oh I see..." I nodded my head. The silence that follows seems so loud and ungentle. It made you listen to the rapid drumming against your chest, like it wanted to jump out and hand itself to Haku's palms to take care.

"I wished for you to be safe and comfortable." Haku said while looking up to the moon. He didn't rush for the silence to end, it's like he's stubbornly trying to get the quiet moment of you together to never end.

"Haku-san..." you called him, looking up at the same moon, watching the halo of it move to the star's sparkle around it, "Why did you bring me here?"

He looked down at you from the corner of his eyes, "It's the 25th. I want to bring someone special to greet tomorrow with me."

You looked up at him in surprise, "It's your birthday tomorrow?"

Haku only smirked and zipped his mouth playfully with his left hand, "That's a secret.."

You didn't know what came to you or what suddenly prompted you to do it but you found yourself reaching for Haku's left hand and squeezed it as much as you could. With both hands, you held it close to your heart and kissed each knuckles with bated breath and entleness and softness you didn't know you could give to anyone.

His mouth gape slightly open at the sight before his face twists to something more softer, more quiet, more real. Haku kissed the side of your eyelids before leaning his forehead close to yours.

The shrine was silent except for the wind chimes singing to the summer air's dance. The slight movements of your coat sleeves seem to be so loud, you can hear the sound of your breathing mingling with each other and the sound of your heartbeat going wild between you.

When the time buzzed in both of your pockets, it's already 12AM. Haku pulled back just enough to look you in the eyes, a quiet contemplation behind his irises that immediately broke the moment you leaned closer to him. He didn't say anything, didn't tease or didn't make a lazy joke. He leaned close again and kissed you.

It was slow— patient Slow in a way whenever Haku always makes sure people are comfortable. Patient in a way Haku is always ready to assist and understand the people around him. His lips were cold from the night air but quickly warmed against you. He tasted like the wind and sweet tea they served back at Hotarubi, and a secret you wish to untangle even if you know you can't even if you tried.

When he finally pulled away, he pressed another kiss to your cheek, to your temple, to your forehead and then the tip of nose as if he couldn't refrain from doing it.

"Happy Birthday, Haku-san."

He smiled, not his usual teasing grin but something quieter, real.

"Thanks for being here." he whispered, "Could've wished for anything but this one's better than anything I can come up with."

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