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I've found it!

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Thinking again about the mastery of Silco's "Don't cry—you're perfect," because it is both Don't cry for the likes of me and In my eyes, you are perfection, as you have always been—

But it is also both Now is not the time to cry; reserve this pain, this anger, for when it is needed and You are perfect, for all your flaws; never let them tell you otherwise—

And it's If the Kindreds will grant me any final wish, let it be not to see you in pain and Hear me now, please hear me, if you have never heard me before: that there is nothing wrong with you—

And it's even I will never forsake you, even in this and Your future is still paved for you, child; still worthy of you, if you will only take it.

But above all, it's I am here. I am here with you. And I see you—as I have always seen you. Do not let your light fade in vain, not now. If there is any soul you wish to avenge, child, do it not for my sake—my lovely girl, avenge all they've denied from you; all they've taken from us. And never—never—let them take it from us, again.

And yet, at its simplest, it is the smallest reassurance he can give.

You're alright. Don't cry, and You are not the monster they've made of you. You're perfect.

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hc jinx really fucking loves ricecakes and can eat like 3 packs in a sitting

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Jinx Stim HC

Headcanons about Jinx from arcane related to stimming!

Physical:

feet kicking & leg swinging sits on the edge of her seat/surface shes sitting on and swings her lets one after the other. does this all the time but less so when sad/angry/upset

finger poke does the little poke when thinking of something to say or in a silly mood

bouncy heals rocking and bouncing on her heals usually an impatient or excited thing when standing in place will bounce around and hop over to a person, very bouncy on her feet especially when in a good mood

tap tap finger/nail tapping, object tapping, tapping her hands on any surface, toe tapping

fidgeting hands whatever object is on hand or within reach she will fiddle with

flappy hands hands go flap and shake happy stim or discomfort stim

hitting very negative stim hitting her head or legs with uncomfortable or upset often when overstimulated.

Vocal

tongue clicks and pops will click her tongue when being impatient, waiting around or just mindlessly filling silence also popping and other mouth sounds.

humming humming along to music usually humming when lost in thought, filling the silence while waiting or while lost in a task.

repetition/echo repeats or echos a phrase or word someone just said that sounds good. person a just said thing to person b, its parrot time. when talking to herself or alone she'll repeat her thoughts out loud a few times though this part's mostly a negative stim at times ex. "not my fault not my fault" /neg or "fixed-fixed, fixed it!" /pos

shrieking will yell, not words but just screams normally if stims have been suppressed, shes got pent up emotions or is understimulated and her brain really needs something. especially happens when shes crying

Visual

explosions and fire these are visually stimulating to her and part of why shes so drawn to these things she prefers aggressive fast visuals, its easier for her to keep up with and challenges her brain to pay attention. though sometimes watching calmer things like flickering flames or filtered lights can really help when shes overwhelmed

Audio

controlled noise needs noise thats very controlled, stuff she can prepare herself for like gunfire and explosions because thats predictable to her and something shes used to.

loud music always puts the volume on full blast its energizing to her if anything

feel free to tell me your headcanons! asks are open!

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jinx headcanons 💣💫🔫💀⚡️⚔️

• jinx actually likes chuck/theriam but no one can tell if she actually does or if she’s just being malicious lol

• has bpd, adhd, c-ptsd, and sleep paralysis (poor girl)

• 11-12 in the first act and like 18-19 in act 2 and 3

• has tried dating but it’s never worked and stopped trying once she turned like 16 or 17

• i think she’s scared of getting intimate with people she could hurt

• bi because i Said So

• she can't go to sleep unless there's music playing

• ‘get jinxed’ is a song in the arcane universe, and took inspiration from jinx herself, after being nearly killed trying to destroy a shimmer shipment

• doesn’t like alcohol— prefers juice! (but silco wouldn’t let her drink anyway)

• jinx chooses not to make friends in fear of killing them, notice how she spends so much time by herself

• jinx wanted ekko to survive the explosion- she could have easily pinned the bomb on him

• jinx knew who the firelight leader was but she never told silco- whether she wanted to let ekko live, or she wanted to be able to kill him herself, no one knows (personally i think the latter— notice how angry she looks at him in ep4!)

• also she used to have a crush on ekko lol

• had he survived, she and mylo would have bonded over feeling overlooked by vander

• jinx tries to climb as high as she possibly can and just. sits there doing whatever and hanging out sometimes. just to prove she can do it now

• jinx also leaves vi a present for every holiday. nobody knows how she’s getting the addresses but she does send her a genuine gift every time, and there’s very rarely a catch or twist to it

• hanging out in benzo's shop with ekko, is where she learned to differentiate between what's valuable and what is not and that's why vi trusted her with that

• she only ever wanted to be useful to the people she loves— act 1: “i can help them/i only wanted to help!” as jinx: doesn’t care abt the shimmer business, but she’s do anything to be helpful to silco

• powder was already suffering from mental illness and inferiority complex (the latter mostly because of mylo) before everything that happened. you can see it in the way she bases her self-worth on how useful she is to the group, and also her breakdown when vi told her to stay back. the explosion is what ultimately caused her downward spiral, but she showed symptoms of mental illness prior to it

• powder was already a cruel and deranged girl, shown by her infatuation with weaponry and building weapons to kill— ex: her nail bombs

• speaking of, her infatuation with explosives began as an interest in gunsmithing (mostly out of a misguided belief that a gun could have saved her parents) that never amounted to anything but a mess of split barrels and burnt hand carved grips before vi convinced her to try skipping the middle step and make straight up explosives. after those didn't work either is when mylo started to call her a jinx

• she likes explosions because the ringing in her ears drowns out the voices in her head

• her blue smoke tattoos are a cry for help to vi— she never set off the flare so her other way of setting it off was to get the tattoos • silco braids jinx's hair whenever it grows too long. it's like meditation for him and allows him to reassess the world about him as he washes, combs and weaves her ever lengthening hair and admire the perfection that is his loving, growing daughter • this is the only time jinx allows her guard down around others. it's the only time that she can close her eyes and yet not hear the voices of her demons without loud music or explosions to drown them out

• jinx/powder are not anyone different. jinx is what powder would become anyway + mental issues due to her past. she would always be the cruel, chaotic, bomb mechanic girl. of course she would be better mentally if she didnt have her traumas and had a healthy enviroment but she is who she is.

• so powder is not gone, she just grew up. "jinx" is just her way to deal with her traumas, which clearly is not working well. this dealing method was told her by silco who believes he was reborn or something, leaving his weak past behind. "jinx" is an attempt of doing that but it doesnt work because their traumas are not the same as silco thinks so.

anyways that’s all for now I’ll prob add more later but I need a nap so bye y’all cya <3

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Mads mikkelsen having to film mizumono on his birthday is so funny like “happy birthday!! Time to film the most emotionally charged scene of your career. We have a cake for you after”

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back on my grind you guys

Bathtime 💖

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Aziraphale and Crowley in Hades style! 😊

A speedpaint video of these will be available at my Patreon on june 1st along with the 10th doctor one!

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ideas, ideas

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carrying my beautiful animatronic bf like he weighs nothing

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thank you sundrop fnaf,,,,,,

meow

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Doodle pages idk

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Actually, people are good by nature and you’re a fool if you think otherwise.

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Yap police

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☼ -> (Such a small midsection...)

☾-> Coward.

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WAAAA THESE ARE SO COOL HOLY SHIT

"Hey there superstar! You fell off the jungle gym and bonked your head!"

"Come here, let's get you to the nurse."

"Don't run now!"