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You discover that you have control over a certain thing, as determined by spinning this wheel. We're talking full-on magical girl/superhero/supervillain/your label of choice control.

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not to enforce gender roles but a computer should NOT fucking have apps okay. if I wanted an app I'd go on my phone my laptop is for Programs. I mean this.

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DAVID JONSSON as Andy Alien: Romulus (2024) dir. Fede Álvarez

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My take on the top-bottom tagging discourse is: people are actually that invested in who tops and who bottoms in shipping? I've never had strong feelings either way, so long as they're getting dicked-down in an in-character way then who cares?

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Many people. Many, many people.

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Today's Cree word of the day is:

Nîswâw kihci mitâtahtomitanaw ekwa nîstanaw: 2020 (two thousand and twenty)

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difficult question. how do i know if my sexual expression as a child is a symptom of repressed sexual trauma or of autistic hypersexuality

The real answer is that you will never know and that it does not matter.

It is impossible to create a clone of you and run that alternate version of yourself through a completely difference childhood with far less trauma, and see if that child still goes on to develop the fetishes that you have. That kind of experiment is what would be necessary to rule out potential "causes" of your kinks.

We only live one life, and that life is shaped by a vast array of experiences: abuse, neglect, love, longing, unmet need, aspiration, neurodivergence, media exposure, social conditioning, environmental change, and random chance. There is no separating the you who was sexually abused from the you who is Autistic from the you who has kinks. They are one and the same, and they all deserve to enjoy themselves.

Perhaps you think your kinks would be more permissible if you got into them for trauma recovery reasons? That simply isn't true. People are allowed to feel good in their bodies, and to enjoy fantasies that are strange or dark. Maybe your sexual fantasies disturb you, and therefore you think they must indicate something is wrong with you? That's just not true. People get into strange or dark things for any number of reasons, largely unknowable to us, and the only problem with that is the shame we are made to feel about it. The desire has nothing wrong with it at all.

Whether you are into rapeplay, sadism, intoxication, age regression, feral, diapers, predator/prey, home abduction, or anything else, it's a part of you that you feel very deeply and there is nothing wrong with it. There's no making it go away. There's no making it any less a part of yourself. Find ways to nourish and delight in that part of you. It can help heal the others as well.

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some behind the scenes footage from a recent mending commission I did to repair the frayed edge of two fine cashmere sweaters that had me doing some micro knitting on sewing needles

(before and after pictures of the edges under the cut because I'm pretty proud of my work)

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Last year I wrote up a post explaining why the big AO3 ship stats list (that was seen and passed around by millions of people on twitter) is full of garbage data and shouldn't be trusted. Centreoftheselights just posted their new 2024 stats but unfortunately they've refused to change their crap methodology so the data is just as wildly inaccurate this year. For example, Castiel/Dean didn’t even make it on the list despite having 6000 new works in 2024, which should’ve put it in the Top 10.

Fortunately, Randomist1031 has compiled what seems to be a much more accurate 2024 ship stats dataset that includes privated fics AND gathers the counts correctly. I'm begging everyone to PLEASE share this list and use it for fandom analysis instead.

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Oh god, someone sent it to me earlier. I wish fandom wouldn't be so credulous about stats. So much methodology is ass.

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Here's a mastiff completing the agility trial at a dog show.

The excited cheers of the crowd as this drool monster begrudgingly jumps, has made my 2025 already.

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ok well this hangover has been absolutely diabolical

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for all its faults 911 really is completely insane in the whole scheme of things

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SHIT THAT'S REALLY GOOD

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its so sweet to me whenever a reconstruction of a neanderthal's face shows up on social media and people are like "oh they would have loved minecraft" "they would have loved weed brownies" it's so sweet. i hope that continues on to the next stage of human evolution. i want whoever comes next to dig me up, reconstruct my face, and for the girlbloggers of this far-flung civilization to go "duuuude she would have loved churfing back a freefing zarbee"

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the thing about time off is that i should be overwhelmed with the euphoria of endless possibility but instead i'm realizing that i only like my hobbies when i have other more urgent priorities

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He will as soon as he figures out his foot

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Until pretty recently, I had never read fic for a fandom I had never dipped into. It got me thinking about why people read fics for stories they've never followed. Sooo...

*not even 1 episode. None of the book. No more than the movie's trailer. etc.