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After

Wake up in the morning and do not try so hard to remember your dream. Tell yourself: It’s another day. And real things happen when you’re awake.

Remind yourself about the things you always tend to forget. Check the keys on your bag, your coin purse, your umbrella and your extra phone. Tell yourself: I’m 20 now. Nobody else will remind me about these things.

Accomplish your schedule after your schedule. Discover and create, read or write. Do not just talk to yourself, invite your friends over or try some waffles on a nearby cafe. Tell yourself: Rest doesn’t mean you have to sleep off a wonderful day. Rest should be fun and calming instead.

Start conversations with people you always get awkward around. Get updates from your father about the current news(since you don’t often watch them on tv). Ask him if you still have enough stock of sugar and coffee in your kitchen. Tell yourself: Maybe it’s time to make them realize that I am interested. Always have been.

The world will keeps spinning. Tell yourself: I should know this more than ever. It wouldn’t stop just because of a storm, it wouldn’t stop just because of a war. It wouldn’t stop just because you are lazing around. It wouldn’t pause, it wouldn’t wait. It wouldn’t stop just because you’re sad. This world will never stop for you so you better move now and chase the speed.

Tell yourself: You’re on your own now and it’s not that bad. Look at the sky and cherish it.

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OBVIOUS CHILD(2014) starring Jenny Slate I knew I'd love this movie the moment I saw that  witchlike face of Jenny Slate on that pink poster. It's abortion themed which is quite argumentative but nonetheless the characters delivered the story well.  I know abortion is a sensitive topic but trust me, this one's not sleazy.  Jenny's character, Donna is such a spirit. She's bold and spontaneous but terrified at the same time. Who wouldn't be terrified when you're barely coping up with a heartbreak and suddenly a  complete stranger got you pregnant? She just lost love, almost losing income, not ready to become a mother and just generally clueless about adult life. Yes, she has all the rights to freak out. Give her the crown!

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My Week with Marilyn starring Michelle Williams(Marilyn Monroe) and Eddie Redmayne(Colin Clark) This movie was released way back 2011. I've actually heard about this but I wasn't interested enough until I had this huge crush on Eddie Redmayne just recently. Yes, thanks to my obsession I was able to watch this beautiful film.  Like what the title says, the movie is about a young man named Colin Clark( third assistant director) who wrote a diary about his one week story with Marilyn Monroe during the filming of The Prince and the Showgirl in England, 1957.  Honestly, I'm not a fan of Marilyn but Michelle's acting in this movie is so impeccable she convincingly brought Marilyn back to life. Plus I already loved her ever since Blue Valentines, she's an amazing actress. And Eddie Redmayne, he's so cute and charming the whole time. His character is young and passionate and in love and I actually think he deserves Marilyn in this movie somehow. I mean, why not?  I absolutely recommend this film. You'll get to see a fraction of the life of one of the most renowned woman in the history of entertainment. Great great actors plus such beautiful story. Who doesn't know Marilyn anyway? She never fades. 

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Love, Rosie starring Lily Collin's sexy eyebrows and Sam Claflin's hotness It's a story about two bestfriends who are inseparable since childhood but constantly separated and played by fate. Oh come on, who doesn't love this kind of story? HAHA! This movie is cute and frustrating at the same time. Equate all the wrong timings and the third wheels and you'll get to see how clever fate was to Rosie and Alex. The movie tells you how wonderful it is to have a bestfriend. It doesn't matter if you're always together or apart, because the fact that you have someone out there whom you can always depend on saves you from the craze of this world. And just when you thought your dreams and plans have turned into ashes(because of life and f**k wrong timing), fate is, funnily, undone. We all get what we deserve at the right time, yes?

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The Theory of Everything starring Eddie Redmayne as Stephen Hawking and Felicity Jones as Jane Wilde. I have been anticipating this movie late last year until I realized I missed the official screening here in my country. Yup, I was outdated. But thanks to that site I was able to watched it online and now I even have a copy of it. I was in complete awe the whole time I was watching the entire movie. Eddie Redmayne's performance was incredible. How could he possibly distort his body that much? I mean, portraying a role of a famous astrophysicist with motor-neuron disease is as challenging as it sounds. And Felicity, she's a classic actress. She fits the role perfectly I can't stop loving her now. The movie plot was based on the book "Travelling to Infinity: My Life with Stephen" which was also written by Hawking's first wife, Jane Wilde. At first I thought the movie was going to be heavily scientific, but I was wrong. The science is still there, of course, but half of the story revolved on the relationship of Stephen Hawking and her first wife, Jane. It was an incredible story of love and human endeavor. Imagine how equally difficult it was for both of them, Jane sacrificing for love and Stephen working on his Theory despite of his condition.

This movie and the actors deserve all the nominations they received.  Best of Luck to Eddie and Felicity!

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No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side. Or you don’t.

Stephen King, The Stand (via wordsnquotes)

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This year...

I will stop doing things alone. From going to bookstores to attending Sunday masses. From watching the last full show of a movie to late night breakfast-ish dinner.

I must say that I have terrifically mastered solitude last year. It was good and practical at first because I learned to depend things completely on my own. But later on I realized how boring and stern it has slowly gotten. I could say I was okay, socially, but spending too much time alone kind of drew me off the happy crowd. So this year, I will stop squandering time and turn my attention to people -I will do my best to have a steady company. I wanted to involve people in everything I do, no matter how lame and crazy they are. I wanted to make memories that I wouldn't remember solo when they appear on my timehop next year. I wanted to stop talking to myself and start conversations with people who could tell me stories about their dog or a crush who looks like Emma Roberts. I don't mind hit-or-miss topics in fact, as long as we have enough coffee on the table. I wanted to share awkward moments and celebrate good days with friends and family or whoever is available on that potentially lonely day. I wanted to do things with them as much as I can even if I fall short. It doesn't matter at all, because I will do my best to keep myself surrounded with good people. I can say this early, it's gonna be a great year.

Have a blessed and meaningful year everyone!

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Never forget what you are, for surely the world will not. Make it your strength. Then it can never be your weakness. Armour yourself in it, and it will never be used to hurt you.

Tyrion Lannister (via 500daysofkissingmypillow)

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Make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth even if they don’t.

Thema Davis (via raw-and-wild)

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A Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas, I scream.

From the deepest most sincere part of me.

From the sickest person who mixes foods with poems.

From the oldest and most recent memories you have of me.

From the generous smile you gave me under the little lights(as we call it) hanging on trees.

From the day it was hot and i had cold, you laughed and teased me but you prescribed medicines anyway.

From the traffic we both endured, touching each other’s knees, cracking old jokes, whispering horror stories and debating about puberty stage.

From places we’ve both been, separately, never at the same time.

From the people around us, asking about us that we didn’t answer.

Finally, to the person who brought joy to my midnights, to the one that gives the simplest yet best hi, and to the most infrequent person I know, Merry Christmas.

And Merry Christmas to all your dearest!

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She didn’t belong anywhere and she never really belonged to anyone. And everyone else belonged somewhere and to someone. People thought she was too wonderful. But she only wanted to belong to someone. People always thought she was too wonderful to belong to them or that something too wonderful would hurt too much to lose. And that’s why she liked him— because he just thought she was crazy.

C. JoyBell C. (via observando)

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What you did

You broke him. Every aching inch of him. He told you already, one and a half year ago, that you were the first person to receive a letter from him. He told you that it doesn’t matter whether he’s not on the list of your priorities, not among your options,or not even close to reality. He told you it’s okay, because maybe someday you’d take time to think things through and consider replying more three words to his texts and chats. He told you he had the courage only to hear you say there’s no need for that, it’s never gonna happen.

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These are my chaos.

"When I arrived almost an hour late with nothing but pressure atop my head. I remember they asked less but I ended up talking too much. I rarely go home I said. All the reasons why. The were surprised.

When I’ve decided I’d go alone, that time with limited trust and desperate steps. I had a handful of loose luck and the signage screams “this way” but the wheels were compiled, I cannot cross. I asked myself, where do I go?

"When things happened three hours before things should happen. No one knows and I doubt anybody cares. I vandalized song lines in my armchair, wishing the next one who occupies my seat reads them accidentally. I always say: the rules I break are my only chance."

When I’ve decided to leave and receive multiple calls a month after. Twice after two months and one last month. They said I could decide but that wasn’t the case. It wasn’t played smart.

"When I couldn’t type the words right because my hands were shaking real bad. I knew what I saw I told my friend. I was tired all of a sudden, and sad and confused. It was a long way home and I was crying. This world is getting smaller, i should take the first move. "

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When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.

Haruki Murakami (村上 春樹), “Sputnik Sweetheart” (via koreyan)

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have you ever considered that we lead ourselves on? we overthink everything; every touch, every look, every text. we create scenarios in our minds and imagine ourselves with that person, building it into something it isn’t, something it never was. maybe we need to stop passing the blame, maybe we break our own hearts.

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