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I'm back with new photos! So, my appearance changed (I also had problems with my studies and my first session at university).

And I forgot how to format posts, so here it is 🐟

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Unbearable.

Studying at the university was harder than I imagined. I have a lot of work, and I would really like to rest at least a couple of days, or at least one Saturday, instead of that it looks like I'm in for 4 hours of non-stop higher mathematics.

But now I don't really want to talk about school, for example, today I streamed on TikTok, and as many as two (!!) people came to my stream and asked me to play the guitar. I think I should make a separate post with interesting situations from the stream.

𝖂𝖊𝖑𝖑, 𝖞𝖊𝖘, 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖙𝖚𝖉𝖞, 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖓 𝖜𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝕴 𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖚𝖕 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞 𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖜 𝖔𝖋𝖋 𝖒𝖞 𝖓𝖊𝖜 𝖈𝖑𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖘…

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I'M CRYING. HE CALLS ME, SAYS "go outside." HE GAVE ME MONSTER ENERGY

MEOW.

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"Are you cheating on me?" No babe, I'm just hiding a edtwt, drugtwt, shtwt, edblr, and shblr account from you

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hii im Ami! how are youu? also an artist and anime lover :3 wanna be friends?

Of course, I don't mind new friends!! :3

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TW: sh

I urgently need your advice. yesterday I did the very thing that trigger warning is set for, and today I just put a band-aid there, and my boyfriend asks why there is a band-aid there, I urgently need some kind of excuse😭

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Trying to survive another university day :")

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TW: gender disforia, personal thoughts

Why can't I just have a normal male body, my thoughts are starting to go crazy and get worse :"(

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idk just some of my photos

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This weekend I decided to go home. (caution, a long text about how I spent the weekend)

I had a great time (despite my parents, who of course decided to tell me all the downsides of my style, thanks for the extra nagging.) Okay. I'm not here to talk about it. I just wanted to write about how differently autumn feels in my native village and the city where I live now. Here, all that has changed is the air temperature at night and in the morning, while at home the air already smells like autumn, the sun shines in a completely different way, and… It brings back nostalgia from those memories when after the 3rd grade I would come home from school with a sweater in my hands because it became much warmer at lunchtime.

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I'm starting to accept my appearance. (click to open selfie in mirror)

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I was feeling unwell recently, so I decided to go to a second hand store and pick up some plaid clothing. (Needless to say, I didn't find it, so I had to go to another store a kilometer away)

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Vibes of waking up at 6am every morning. (I hate my studies).

It seems to me more and more that I will have to be unhappy until the very end of my l/fe, and nothing will improve my mental state.

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Today was a more or less normal day.

I was very happy because our first class was cancelled, and by the way I had a boyfriend and I went for a walk with him. He buys me energy drinks, and in general he is a very nice person :3 Tomorrow I want to do something about looking for some roofs to take pictures on.

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i feel guilty for wanting to be friends with someone in irl because i didn't have friends for a long time before

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yay i survived until 6 am!!!