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Touch

Tmnt 2012. NO T-CEST. Brotherly love. Donnie centric. Fluff. Autistic Donnie.

Summary: If you weren't close to Donatello you might think he hates physical affection. But thats not quite true. He needs touch just as much as anyone else, he just has some specific requirements for it. Ones that his brothers have grown to understand.

It was safe to assume that most the time Donnie did not want to be touched. He would stand a few feet away from anyone else, moving away if they dared to get closer. He tries his best not to hurt people's feelings with it, but he Isn't the most subtle. It's not hard to know when Donnie doesn't want to be touched. Whats difficult is knowing when he does.

Every now and then Donnie does feel as you would call it "touch starved" but he doesn't really know how to initiate affection. Especially physical affection where he's set up so many boundaries. So usually when he is craving physical affection he'll simply suffer in silence, not knowing what else he could possibly do.

Luckily for him, he grew up with three turtles who've had their whole lives to figure out his silent language. Having only each other for company most of their lives ment the brothers we're of course very close. They would cuddle and play rough almost daily. So it was clear early on that they'd need to be able to tell when Donnie would be okay with being tackled to the ground, lest a real fight break out.

The brother who can best read Donnie is no surprise, Mikey. Mikey is the best at reading any of his brothers really. He knows that while He'll easily share his emotions out loud his brothers rarely will. He knows how to pick up on the subtle cues that Raphs about to blow up, or that Loes feeling sad. Or, in this case, that Donnie is feeling cuddly.

Mikey likes testing the waters, looking for clues that he's not even sure Donnie himself is aware of. Mikey will stand just a bit closer to him, usually the taller turtle will step away, but sometimes He'll keep his place. And on very rare occasion he may even lean against Mikey.

Mikey knows that Donnie will rarely invite a hug or tussle, anything outside a high three really. But on days when he notices Donnie initiating quite a few high threes he can guess what the nerd really wants a hug. And Mikey will give him one, with the excuse of him feeling lonely or wanting to hang out with the brainiac. Neither of which are completely lies.

Most of the time when Donnie seeks physical affection its Mikey to give it to him, but sometimes that isn't an option. The second most equiped turtle would be the fearless leader himself.

Leo is the closest brother to understanding Donnie's distaste for touch. Though he personally doesn't hate uninvited hugs he sees how Donnie might. Leo can sometimes feel completely touch apposed too, though its usually just when he's in a bad mood.

Leo isn't as tuned into Donnie's mannerisms as Mikey so he's a bit more risky when he tests the waters. Though he won't even try unless he suspects Donnie's in a somewhat touchy mood. Leo will pat Donnie's shell, or lean on his arm, a small bit of contact that he knows Donnie can easily get out of. If Donnie is in a particularly uncuddly mood he wont let Leo get close enough to to test his theory. So Leo is never too worried that he's pushing a boundary.

Most often Donnie will keep the contact for a few seconds before leaning out of it. This usually means he didn't hate it, but wasn't particularly craving it. At which point Leo will leave him be. Sometimes Donnie will stay though. In fact he'll seem almost scared to move whatever body part Leo is touching in fear that Leo will stop.

Leo always finds it a bit funny how awkward Donnie is about it, but will eventually offer a hug or cuddles which Donnie is always a little embarrassed to accept.

The remaining brother is the one to struggle a bit. Raph is always a bit overly careful when touching Donnie. In a friendly way at least. Raph doesn't really think of boundaries when he jumps on on his brothers for an angry tussle. But even then, Donnie is the one he fights with least. So when Raph does want to touch Donnie in a friendly way, he's a little lost. Thats not to say he's completely clueless. He still knows better than any stranger, but he's not all that confident in his Donnie reading abilities.

Friendly contact from Raph doesn't usually spell a hug, usually its play fighting, or a firm yet loving punch on the arm. Since he's physical Contact isn't exactly gentle, its especially important that he makes sure Donnie is in a touchy mood, so he doesn't accedently anger him.

This means Raph and Donnie have very limited physical contact. But Donnie has actually started to catch on a bit to when Raph is trying to initiate play with him. He knows Raph cant read him well, and he cant read Raph all that well either. So Donnie starts to drop more obvious hints when he feels like Raph might be trying to play with him.

Donnie will smile, even while rolling his eyes, he'll stand beside Raph, and sometimes he may even be the one to playfully punch Raph's arm. It's a rare sight, and Mikey and Leo have a untold truce to walk away if they see it happen since affection between the two most emotionally constipated brothers is so hard to come by.

Donnie sometimes is willing to push his hate of touch aside if he feels his brothers really need some physical comfort, but usually he has other methods to help. but he makes sure to show affection in other ways to make up for the limited hugs and cuddling. Weather it be giving his brothers gifts, trying to talk them out of their funk, or just being in the same room with them. He knows they all try their best to respect his boundaries and he loves them for it.

(This is my first Fic! Feel free to make a request on something for me to write! I will NOT write T-Cest or Apritello/Leorai)