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[cardinneverloses]

Cardin stifled moans as best as he could, desperately listening to every word she said, clinging to every syllable as if he would never hear them again. Of course he knew this would be the first of many, but the first time was always the most desperate. The future seemed so bleak until she had come back into his life. Learning now how much she had been through, how much he had been through in return… This moment was the reward of sacrifice on both their parts and he was happy they shared it together.

Every sentence she spoke was given with a slow, repeated thrust of his hips. Not to slowly burn the moment in desire for more, but to feel physically and mentally of the impact of her words.

Tears welled up along his eyes, threatening to break and run down his cheeks. The words she said was only something he could only expect from a dream. Cardin did he best to keep those tears from falling. The moment of carnal desire he felt from her delightfully helped that as when her nails dug into his skin, he was sure to repay her with a particularly forceful thrust yet subsided as she did.

There was no question of the greed he had of her. Hearing that he was always in her mind, so certain of him caused a wave of protective, territorial heat to rise through his body, making his heart thump faster and for a moment he wondered if she could feel his heart.

With his forehead against hers, it was clear then that those tears he desperately tried keeping away had fallen. His own moment of emotional weakness was showing and for once in his life he felt safe to be in that state. He felt able to be vulnerable in front of her.

His skin crawled with every contact, every syllable, his throat tightened and dried as words couldn’t describe the feelings he had towards her words and all he could do in the moment was kiss her as passionately as possible and utter

“I love you.”

@sometimesshattered

‘Just don’t think about it.’ Marry’s words rang in Cardin’s head as he looked down to his opened suitcase in the, very ok-ish, suit he had bought for himself and Blake. How was he not supposed to think about work? This was his first time going on a vacation and all he normally thought about was work.

What was he supposed to think about? Even as he rummaged through his luggage he couldn’t help but be irritated at her words. Until he found a small slip of paper, folded and put between two pairs of clothes. Unfolding it, it read ‘Stop thinking about it’

He rolled his eyes and mumbled “Damnit Marry.” Before letting out a sigh, putting the letter back in his luggage and zipping it back together. The room they had wasn’t what he thought. His mind thought this would be some sort of cruise for some reason and expected nice sheets, kind sized bed, a bowl with ice and wine. But what they got was just an average room sporting a king sized bed, average sheets, a table, dresser and landline phone.

“Ok. Don’t think about work. Got it. I can manage that. I think… I hope…” With a light application of cologne and fully changed into more comfortable, sea worthy clothes, a short sleeved shirt and shorts, he made his way out of the room and just as he exited, there she was. Blake.

A smile already formed on his features as he approached her “Hey, I didn’t keep you waiting long did I? I just needed to get used to the movement of the boat and you definitely don’t want to see that. So. How are you? I mean, about going back home.”

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Cardin restrained himself for the moment. Her lips parting from his, the gentle, yet obvious press of her hips against his pushed light moans from his throat and into the air as if to fill the room with more of the pent up energy and passion he had for her. Finally able to release it like this in so long was like lifting a weight off his chest. It was intoxicating.

So much so, that when she pressed more firmly against him, a release of a breathy moan left him, gripping her ever so tighter and even pulling her against his hips. “Of course. I could never get bored of you.” The words that left his mouth was sincere but covered in silent need of her form once again.

Blake’s question was immediately met with a reply of Cardin switching their positions, settling himself atop her, hips in between her legs as he lowered himself to answer with a line of kisses along her neck while whispering.

“I’m prepared to tell your parents my intentions…” he whispered in between kisses, arms slowly encasing her, resting and gripping on her shoulders “But since my parents are absent… I don’t mind being in their place to know what your intentions are of me.”

All he wanted was to hear it again, hear that she still felt the same way about him, that she was there. As he spoke, Cardin inched himself to her folds, even the slightest contact made his chest light with electric flames that coursed through his body.

“Say it…” This wasn’t a demand, only a whispered request from someone so afraid of heartbreak, leaving those insecurities behind in this moment to embrace all the love she held for him.

@sometimesshattered

‘Just don’t think about it.’ Marry’s words rang in Cardin’s head as he looked down to his opened suitcase in the, very ok-ish, suit he had bought for himself and Blake. How was he not supposed to think about work? This was his first time going on a vacation and all he normally thought about was work.

What was he supposed to think about? Even as he rummaged through his luggage he couldn’t help but be irritated at her words. Until he found a small slip of paper, folded and put between two pairs of clothes. Unfolding it, it read ‘Stop thinking about it’

He rolled his eyes and mumbled “Damnit Marry.” Before letting out a sigh, putting the letter back in his luggage and zipping it back together. The room they had wasn’t what he thought. His mind thought this would be some sort of cruise for some reason and expected nice sheets, kind sized bed, a bowl with ice and wine. But what they got was just an average room sporting a king sized bed, average sheets, a table, dresser and landline phone.

“Ok. Don’t think about work. Got it. I can manage that. I think… I hope…” With a light application of cologne and fully changed into more comfortable, sea worthy clothes, a short sleeved shirt and shorts, he made his way out of the room and just as he exited, there she was. Blake.

A smile already formed on his features as he approached her “Hey, I didn’t keep you waiting long did I? I just needed to get used to the movement of the boat and you definitely don’t want to see that. So. How are you? I mean, about going back home.”

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It was infectious, he laugh, her love, everything she gave to him in that moment he wanted to give back just as much. His hands ran down her sides, lightly massaging her waist, her back then down again, listening to her sweet words, content with all the affection he was getting from her.

“I love you too, Blake.” His eyes fluttered closed, not yet closing that gap between their lips as he allowed that neediness to fester and build. “Im always going to know how much I mean to you.” He moved his lips past hers, placing gentle, soft kisses along her cheek, hands keeping her close, their bodies as flushed together as possible.

“I’ll always be here for you…” He began, placing gentle, soft kisses along her cheek and neck “…And I’ll never regret it. For the rest of my life.”

It was the truth, there was no one in the world he could think of being with. He needed her around just as much as she needed him. They were a balance, a perfect team and their chemistry was as as fluid as water.

Hands traveled along her back, finding any and all scars and blemishes, making a mental map as he planned to cover all her marks with kisses and special attention. But for now, he finally moved his lips back to hers, giving her a long and passionate kiss that he couldn’t wait any longer for.

@sometimesshattered

‘Just don’t think about it.’ Marry’s words rang in Cardin’s head as he looked down to his opened suitcase in the, very ok-ish, suit he had bought for himself and Blake. How was he not supposed to think about work? This was his first time going on a vacation and all he normally thought about was work.

What was he supposed to think about? Even as he rummaged through his luggage he couldn’t help but be irritated at her words. Until he found a small slip of paper, folded and put between two pairs of clothes. Unfolding it, it read ‘Stop thinking about it’

He rolled his eyes and mumbled “Damnit Marry.” Before letting out a sigh, putting the letter back in his luggage and zipping it back together. The room they had wasn’t what he thought. His mind thought this would be some sort of cruise for some reason and expected nice sheets, kind sized bed, a bowl with ice and wine. But what they got was just an average room sporting a king sized bed, average sheets, a table, dresser and landline phone.

“Ok. Don’t think about work. Got it. I can manage that. I think… I hope…” With a light application of cologne and fully changed into more comfortable, sea worthy clothes, a short sleeved shirt and shorts, he made his way out of the room and just as he exited, there she was. Blake.

A smile already formed on his features as he approached her “Hey, I didn’t keep you waiting long did I? I just needed to get used to the movement of the boat and you definitely don’t want to see that. So. How are you? I mean, about going back home.”

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“Don’t be so hard on yourself.” Cardin put a hand on her shoulder. “Trust me. You’ll nail the next one.” Hopefully that helped her, he wasn’t the best at cheering people up. “I got some alcohol in my dorm, wanna drink with me?” And here was his first bad habit.

“So…. How did you do on that exam from Oobleck?” Viridian looked nervous. “I studied hard but… Yeah.”

“I didn’t think it was that tough to be honest. Don’t look so glum I’m sure you did great.” Contrary to popular opinion, Cardin was absolutely intelligent. But since he played the roll of dumb bully to others, it came as a surprise to a lot of people that he wasn’t how they perceived him.

“If you want, we can study together next time.” If he had the time…

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"I'm to bred hug you so much"

Cardin smiled seeing Kadia “Do you need to sit down? You sound tipsy.” It could possibly be the case, either way, he took her hand and lead her over to his dorm room bed.

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When Cardin found out the truth about Blake’s past, he found a sense of kin-ship with her. It was difficult to explain but he felt they both were running from a darkness that lingered outside of the school. The difference between the two of them was Blake chose to be a better person where Cardin rejected most of everyone.

Blake was the only person he felt he could be normal around and every time she brought up her past, he felt slightly more special, more important to her. It was a nice feeling, even if she regularly kicks his ass at card games.

When she stammered through her Uno, he couldn’t help the light laugh that came out of him “Too caught up thinking about other card games? And here I thought this one was special to you.” He feigned being hurt but soon smiled, placing down a green card of his own.

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Cardin’s face was void of emotion, this was possibly their most serious encounter yet. Sitting across one another, a pile of cards between both of them, Cardin had only two left in his hand and once Blake had placed hers down, a twitch of the side of his lips cracked as victory was soon at had.

Quickly, he placed down a Red Two card and uttered the word “Uno.”

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“You know you’ve been standing in dog poop this whole time… right?”

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“So…. How did you do on that exam from Oobleck?” Viridian looked nervous. “I studied hard but… Yeah.”

“I didn’t think it was that tough to be honest. Don’t look so glum I’m sure you did great.” Contrary to popular opinion, Cardin was absolutely intelligent. But since he played the roll of dumb bully to others, it came as a surprise to a lot of people that he wasn’t how they perceived him.

“If you want, we can study together next time.” If he had the time…

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He was so close! If only he had learned how to count cards… assuming one could apply such a skill to Uno, he could have possibly avoided this situation. His face however, ceased to change as he began to draw four.

“Well if it’s luck, then I’ve got this in the bag.” A lie, he regarded himself as the most unlucky man in the world but maybe his comment could throw her off.

“Never heard of Phase ten. So, you more than likely would beat me.” He played down a green three then looked up to meet her eyes and chuckled lightly. It was hard for Cardin to imagine having such a good time with another person. Breaking out of his shell had really changed some things around for him, it was nice to not feel… Awful all the time “You’re go.”

@sometimesshattered

Cardin’s face was void of emotion, this was possibly their most serious encounter yet. Sitting across one another, a pile of cards between both of them, Cardin had only two left in his hand and once Blake had placed hers down, a twitch of the side of his lips cracked as victory was soon at had.

Quickly, he placed down a Red Two card and uttered the word “Uno.”

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@sometimesshattered

Cardin’s face was void of emotion, this was possibly their most serious encounter yet. Sitting across one another, a pile of cards between both of them, Cardin had only two left in his hand and once Blake had placed hers down, a twitch of the side of his lips cracked as victory was soon at had.

Quickly, he placed down a Red Two card and uttered the word “Uno.”

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“Uhh. I don’t know.” Cardin picks up some dice and rolls before looking over a sheet “I… Eat the key? What the hell? Why do people like this game?”

"So, you'll lock me up. Then what?"

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His chest twisted and turned hearing her cry. Once, he would have hugged her, held her and comforted her but now… was he even allowed to touch her? Cardin was so hesitant and didn’t want to push her to feel worse that in the moment it felt like doing nothing was the right option.

“Yea, I know.” He stated with a low, regretful tone “But I was too scared about your well being if I stayed around. I know now that… it wasn’t the right choice. I’m sorry.”

Cardin felt his heart drop to his chest. He didn’t think of himself as a good influence for her. His decision of leaving was purely based on his own opinion and instead of communicating with her, instead of talking to her or even telling her, he just… disappeared.

He cursed himself in his head. Why did he make the move to see her again? She may have just moved on from him, she may have forgotten about him yet his own selfishness rose up again to tare at her once more as the loneliness of his decisions compelled him to see her once again.

“I…” He began, dry mouthed and finding it just as hard to find her gaze as guilt ridden words tumbled from his lips. “I thought it would of been best for me to not be in your life anymore… With how much trouble I get in, all the bad I’ve done and how it directly impacts you. There’s… No forgiveness for what I’ve done. Maybe I just needed to say that, or… apologize for not saying anything in the first place.”

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Cardin felt his heart drop to his chest. He didn’t think of himself as a good influence for her. His decision of leaving was purely based on his own opinion and instead of communicating with her, instead of talking to her or even telling her, he just… disappeared.

He cursed himself in his head. Why did he make the move to see her again? She may have just moved on from him, she may have forgotten about him yet his own selfishness rose up again to tare at her once more as the loneliness of his decisions compelled him to see her once again.

“I…” He began, dry mouthed and finding it just as hard to find her gaze as guilt ridden words tumbled from his lips. “I thought it would of been best for me to not be in your life anymore… With how much trouble I get in, all the bad I’ve done and how it directly impacts you. There’s… No forgiveness for what I’ve done. Maybe I just needed to say that, or… apologize for not saying anything in the first place.”

@cardinneverloses || Starter Call

"What is wrong with you?"

It felt as if her heart had been torn out of her chest.

He had been her only reason to keep going, yet she had lost him for so long. Kadia assumed he had not wanted someone like her around anymore and it broke her. Looking at him wasn't possible, if she did she knew the tears would come. "W-where did you go? I..."

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Finished up this from a line-work I started 2 days ago. Its based off of a concept I have in mind for a new world build of mine :>

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Her hand raising for the bear didn’t go out of his sight. He wondered why should would retreat like that as he was still under the guise of what was his was hers. It was second nature at this point, somethings never changed.

A deep blush came to his cheeks however when she commented on the stuffed animal. It made him feel childish and embarrassed. Then her question came and took that embarrassment away as he looked at her questioningly.

“No.” He chuckled, holding the bear up for her if she wished to touch it. “It doesn’t talk to me or say things. It’s just a toy.”

He was confused and her speaking about her imaginary friend being ‘Very real’ confused him. Did she not know he’s seen Neo before? Just the smallest sight of her, one time, while she fed off of him.

It scared him.

“Trivia, I know your imaginary friend is more real than not, I’ve seen her.” Only a fraction of a second. But that was all he needed for that deep, evil smile of hers to be ingrained in the pits of his mind. “She looks like you, but with pink hair instead of your natural color. Right?” He wanted to confirm, hoping he wasn’t crazy and that it was in fact his mind playing tricks on him.

It was a sore subject, he knew that now and by the expression on her face when he asked, it made him wonder if she were hiding something from him and as she talked it began to be more and more evident. Was she ashamed of it? Yes, it was a bit childish to have an imaginary friend at such a age but the two of them… They didn’t get the chance of a normal life. So maybe it was only natural.

Cardin cocked a small, sympathetic smile and nodded “Yea. Maybe rebelling and experiencing freedom kept you sane.”

He wanted to pry for more information, ask more questions. The look on her face repelled him to do so however. Cardin thought maybe she was ashamed, even confessing it to her best friend. It must have been hard.

“Uh… Hang on a second.”

Leaving her there on that box, untangling his fingers from hers, he left into one of the rooms in the home and soon came out with a small, ragged stuffed bear.

Now, it was his turn to present a hidden shame of his own. Not able to bring himself to leave some of his childhood behind. “This is… Bear.” A simple name made by a simple man. The brown mock fur was heavily stained with age, a ear missing, seams tearing slightly and a missing eye.

“You probably don’t remember this but I’ve had it since childhood, it was one of the last things I was able to grab before I left.” Was he ashamed of having such a childish thing in his possession? Absolutely. But comparing this to ‘Neo’ it seemed appropriate.

“I’ve kept it all this time as both a memory and a friend. I know things are tough in our lives and it’s important to cling on to things that help us through tough times.”

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An abandoned music room is where he stood, all the equipment, the instruments were left bare, untouched and dusty. There was only one thing in the room that had been used, the large grandfather piano. He had cleaned it up awhile ago after finding this room, he had played on it when he could. It was the only hobby he had from that wretched home that he still enjoyed. 

Taking a seat on the makeshift stool he made, his hands placed themselves against the edges of the black wood, just before fingertips grazed ivory and soon, the room was alive with tunes from the strings being plucked by the inner workings of the piano. 

If the walls could talk, they would sing. If the instruments could express they would smile. It had been too long since he had played like this. The world seemed to meld and fold away as he shut his eyes, letting his masterful hands bring life to this once dead room.

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“It’s good to know that you’ve never changed, idiot.” Rowan doesn’t know if Cardin has actually changed or not; he just wants to roast him.

“Don’t project onto me. I’ve changed quite a bit. In fact, I won’t even punch you this time. That’s how much I’ve changed.”