cacodemonic

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You’re secretly a werewolf, with so much control over your were-form you’re basically just yourself. You’ve grown so close to your roommate that you decide it’s safe to transform in front of them. You expect shock, horror. Instead, they whip out a fursuit.

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Back to reading One Piece 🫠

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She manages to open her messages. 'Dude oh my god I ran out of tampons, you have to get over here NOW.'

Bloody fingers slipping on a phone screen as they try to call for help

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"Why do you think I'm keeping my friends around?"

Writing Prompt: Dialogue

“What is your plan, [——]?!”

“Plan? Not leaving my friends behind.”

“Or you just want to hit things.”

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Being insane, delusional, crazy... is all way more than it's cracked up to be. Do you ever just think how living in world with voices, or a world of blurs, or a world where certain things don't seem real, might be refreshing? As someone who does hear voices and sometimes gets it so bad Idk my own name... there's a safety in that that I could live in. On the outside I'd be withering away, but to me, in MY world, it's warm and safe and like there is so much out there to explore but I'm happy to lay here warm and sleepy and I'll explore it when I've finished this nap.

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My Biggest Piece of Life Advice for Happiness

It's a fine line between not caring about trivial matters and shutting your emotions down/apathy. But

You cannot control...

-What others think of you

-The past

-What others say

-What others do

-How others feel

-Natural events like death, natural disasters, and cancer

You can only control...

-How you act

-How you feel

-How you treat others

-How you treat yourself

If someone doesn't like you (Unless they have a higher hierarchical position than you like a boss or professor) it does NOT have to be your problem. Life is too short to worry about someone not eating enough, or the fact that someone doesn't like you because one time you accidentally stepped on their bag, or that someone broke up with someone and now someone is sad.

Do what makes you happy, just remember that...

Your emotions are NEVER the problem.

Your mindset is.

Your emotions are ALWAYS valid, and should NEVER be dismissed. Emotions are the outcome of how you interpret the world (in other words your mindset) and to try to solve the emotional problem by focusing on the emotions is like trimming the stem of a weed and dumping some soil over the roots. That weed is going to come back some time later, stronger than before, and you have no control over when it happens.

Focus on how you view the world. I personally get really defensive when people tell me to "change my mindset" because I feel like it's implying that how I think and feel is 'wrong', but that is definitely not what I mean here.

It's not a, "Everyone hates me- NO! Nope. I'm optimistic now and actually everyone loves me... totally..." it's a "Everyone hates me. ... I acknowledge that this thought feels real to me, but also that I know that this thought is an exaggeration of real life. It's okay for me to feel this way, but it's important for me to know that it isn't real." After enough time, it sinks in.

You must validate your emotions because it does absolutely nothing good to swallow them and you must recognize that your emotions exist and that is okay, but at the same time the thoughts causing them is a lie your mind tells you and it's okay that it feels real but it isn't. It's also okay to know that a thought is false logically but have your emotions respond to it like it's true.

Energy is so valuable, are you really going to spend it all on worrying about things that you cannot control in any way? That's completely wasting it, and God knows we need to preserve that crap. Save it for things like creative endeavors or bettering yourself or learning about something you're interested or even just self-care.

I cannot express how liberating it is to realize that it isn't a sin to not worry about things you can't control (as listed above). You can care, and you can control what you DO like texting your friend a reminder to eat breakfast or making soup for someone who is sick, but that does not mean that you have to worry for them. It is okay to worry, and it is normal to worry, but be wise about what you accept to be the truth logically when you worry.

You'll find that once you stop pressuring yourself to worry, you will just naturally worry less and less until your worry-energy is only spent on things worth worrying about (What you can control, or events that will still be impactful to you in 2 years). Hell, it's better to spend worry energy being sad or angry or jealous because those help release bad emotion while worry just builds it.

70 on a test? Oh alright, well you guess you'll study for the next one. Probably. You hope you'll study but you cant control what you do in the future right now.

Your friend and you had an argument? That sucks, and you wish it hadn't happened. You might be angry or insecure or sad. It's important to control what you can do. You can apologize, or try to have open and honest communication with them, or if necessary you can break it off... But you don't spend any energy worrying about what they think of you or what is going to happen.

Someone dear to you passed away? That's absolutely horrible, you are grief-stricken. You feel denial, or anger, or sadness, or maybe nothing at all, but you make sure that you relax your emotional muscles enough for something to slip into that nothingness gap when you start to heal. This is painful, and it is hard on you and others close to that person. It might take years to heal. You might never heal fully. That is okay. You do NOT spend energy that you should be spending grieving or trying to heal on worrying about how happy they were at the end, or if you're supposed to be more sad, or if anyone blames you for it (Unless you're an actual direct murderer...), or if they are happy in whatever afterlife form you believe in. You can't control these. You cannot. You can reflect, you can be sad, but do not stress over it. You have the power to accept that you cannot control it.

I know this was a MASSIVE post to read, I just had a lot to say about this. Thank you if you read it all, and I hope it is helpful.

I promise this isn't some concept some neuronormative 45 year old white lady wrote about.

I'm 14 and have enough disabilities to make a list.

Please, just give it a shot.

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Friendships need more reverence. The true ones.

You and someone else spend months, years of your lives with each other, just because you like them. Not because you're related, or because you HAVE to see them all the time against your will, but just because you like each other.

Duh, obviously, but like...

You're two souls, experiencing a range of emotion and thought so far outside of what is accessible by language, with whole massive and complex lives with you, coming into contact and just... sticking. You don't have to say all the things that can't be said. You just know. They make you feel good inside.

I dunno, I just feel like we've evolved to need human contact for a reason.

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Y'know how nightmares feel real and sensical (usually) until you wake up, and oftentimes, it's scarier after you wake up and reflect on it than it felt in the dream?

Y'know what else feels real and sensical most of the time even though deep down you know it isn't? The concept of your existence.

So...

When will we wake up?

Who's there to shake us out of this?

What horrifying and disturbing things that seem normal in our slumber here on earth are going to hit us when we wake up?

What if that feeling, that little nagging feeling at the back of your mind that you ignore because it'll drive you insane if you don't...

that feeling that tells you something isn't right, that you're missing something big, something so big it's incomprehensible, something crucial and right in front of your face and you just can't see it...

maybe that's the voice that knows you're asleep, and it wants you to wake up.