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Are things better now? 💛

yes things are getting better!! thank you <3

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need Jeremy to narrate more of Jean and Kevin’s divorced couple psychological torture mind games

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also. did you guys know it is literally illegal to take and hide someone’s passport and other id documents? i hate mathilda so bad.

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did something happen

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things have somehow gotten exponentially worse so

things are kind of bad right now so i’m gonna leave for the rest of the week byee

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sorry but when i think of jeremy’s banquet scandal the first thing that comes to mind is that tati westbrook meme please tell me you know what i’m talking about

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things are kind of bad right now so i’m gonna leave for the rest of the week byee

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Jeremy sometime between chapter 15 and 17 probably lmao

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Renee’s Necklace and the Significance of it Breaking: the rambling thoughts of a dusty elf on trust and self-discovery in The Golden Raven

The first time Renee is mentioned as touching her necklace is in TRK, followed by this discussion:

The second time it’s mentioned, she gives her infamous: “I’m a bad person trying very hard to be a good person, but I would not be trying at all if not for the outside interventions in my life.”

This establishes her necklace as a symbol of acknowledging your past but not allowing it to define your future, as well as trust and the role of others in the healing process.

In TSC, Jean adds a miracle to his list (a cool evening breeze, rainbows) right after receiving the necklace; the miracles Renee told Jean to help him find himself when he got lost in his own past and trauma. Now, her necklace also (more clearly) represents hanging on when you’re not sure you can hang on. Jean says his faith is frayed, but Renee has enough faith for both of them that he will find little miracles and will learn to take a chance on himself.

Then, in TGR, the necklace breaks. It breaks when Jean’s past is quite literally all around him: Kevin is in his home, Jeremy wants him to be honest, and he was just questioned in an interview about Riko, the Nest, and his parents. He believes the Trojans are going to abandon him. He’s at a point where it seems like everything is falling apart and the necklace breaks.

But then Cat says “We’ll get through this,” and Jeremy says “You are one of my Trojans” and Laila is giving him a new chain and he’s ready. He’s ready to spill some of his secrets, to reveal just a little more of the horrible truth he’d convinced himself he deserved, and feel a little of his grief even though it terrified him. Even Kevin shares some of his hurt, and speaks of his truths (that he isn’t as good as Jean believed) and his trust in Jeremy and the Trojans and Bee.

Kevin takes the water (agrees to try to be better). Fair is fair, Kevin doesn’t drink so Jean has to talk to Betsy even if Jean hates him for it.

And after all of that pain and turmoil, Cat gives him a new chain and a hug. He has a cool evening breeze, rainbows, open roads, and friends who are clinging to him even after he trusted them with some of the worst of his history.

The necklace broke when the weight of his past was starting to get too much, but with trust and love and little miracles, the necklace was fixed. With trust and love and little miracles, some of his broken parts are starting to heal as his friends help him build his own future.

Honestly, I could keep going but this is already far longer than I expect anyone to read so The End

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You guys this is the gansey that will punch whelk in the face

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childhood photos of nicky and aaron.

aaron a newborn, nicky, 4, leaning over the crib, wonder in his eyes as he looks down at the baby, a hand reaching in to place a stuffed animal next to him.

a summer in california, nicky, 7, pushing aaron, 3, on an abandoned set of rusty swings, both of their mouths open with laughter.

a christmas. aaron, 5, holding a game boy (handheld gaming console), and nicky, 9, leaning over it and pointing at the screen seemingly to explain what to do. (the game boy had been for nicky, but he "forgets" it in aaron's bedroom and doesn't ask for it back.)

a final posed family photo, aaron age 12, nicky age 16. aaron's gaze is unfocused, fastened somewhere next to the camera. nicky has deep shadows below his eyes. aaron's slightly slumped to the left, nicky's ramrod straight, a close-lipped smile on his face. the vignette looks like shadows closing in on them both.

(nicky, age 20, saves up for a mobile phone with a camera, but andrew, age 16 is never caught in a photo and aaron never smiles.)

(a photo of the three of them at the airport, taken from behind, seemingly without their knowledge. nicky, 27, aaron and andrew, 23, all looking up for their separate departing flights. nicky's hand rests on aaron's shoulder. aaron's carrying three passports, andrew's pulling the trolley with three suitcases. they are relaxed, and the sun shines down on them all.)

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mutual i miss you how are you guys doing

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if i had a nickel for every time i read about a man named kevin who had an unhealthy obsession with his sport and also had a best friend who was deeply in love with him, i would have two nickels, which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice, right?

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everything is blue his pills his hands his jeans and now i'm covered in the colors pulled apart at the seams and it's bluuue and it's bluuue everything is grey his hair his smoke his dreams and now he's so devoid of color he don't know what it means and he's bluuue and he's bluuue

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Me looking at fanart of characters being friends who are also friends in canon: *practically in tears clenching my first over my chest* ouhgg they're so friends