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The last episode being titled “The Rightside Up” is making me so emo. After 10 years, it’s really ending guys :(

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Thank you Noah for ending any byler doubt I was having

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I think this is the celebrity death that has hit me the most. I spent a majority of my childhood dedicated to the one direction fandom. Like many, these boys helped me get through some tough times. Especially during my middle school years. Even now that I’m an adult, one direction has always remained a part of me and shaped me in so many ways. I think what is so tough for a lot of us is that we didn’t expect anything like this to happen so soon when we are still so young. And I know many of us have complicated feelings about Liam but no matter what he was still a human being. A person that was such a huge part of us and I think it almost feels like part of us is gone with him. I always listen to one direction when I want to be reminded of simpler times and now listening to them won’t be the same. It just doesn’t feel real. Liam’s family and friends are all in my thoughts and I really hope they take all the time they need to grieve.

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No matter what has happened and what we have found out over the last few years, these boys will always be bonded by one direction. I really hope they’re all taking care of themselves right now and take as much time as they need to process it. And remember that they don’t owe us any posts on social media. They are allowed to grieve however they need to and sometimes grief is hard to put into words.

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The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about “the switch up is crazy”

Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.

We’re not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.

Maya didn’t want this. And everyone saying that it’s her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadn’t spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and “are you happy now?” Are actually horrible people.

A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.

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Ok bear with me this is kind of long. So something (in my opinion) that helped confirm they would give Will his happy ending was the whole painting storyline. I just really don’t understand it’s purpose if Will and Mike don’t end up together. So first let’s start with the airport scene

We have them awkwardly hugging. Now I get that they haven’t seen each other in a year and have barely talked. That still doesn’t explain why this hug is so awkward. They’re supposedly best friends. Normally when you’ve been friends with someone so long it feels like no time has passed even if you haven’t seen each other in a while. Why is this any different? They ended on good (although Will didn’t get the apology he deserved) terms after their fight in season 3.

Will has the painting with him in the airport and he obviously planned to give it to Mike before he realized how awkward things were. This is when he lost a bit of hope. What exactly is it he hopes for? Is it for Mike to like him back? Why give him this hope if it was gonna end badly? It seems silly to include it if they’re just gonna end up staying friends.

Now to my next point. We have Will get this hope again after their talk in Will’s bedroom. When Mike says it’s better for them to work as a team. Friends. Best friends. The camera focuses on Will looking to Mike then he reaches for the painting and puts it in his backpack.

My question again… What is will hoping for? Now you could say he’s giving it to him as a friend but why be so hesitant to give it to him? We know from the Van scene it’s because the meaning behind the painting shows his true feeling for Mike.

Which leads me to the beloved van scene. Will’s plan was never to use use El’s name and act like she commissioned the painting. He was originally planning to give Mike the painting because of how he feels toward Mike. We can confirm this with our two other scenes. He was so excited to give Mike his painting in the airport until he lost hope. And then that hope is regained after their moment in his bedroom (which felt very flirty). He only decides to use El’s name to mask his own feelings because he believes that’s what Mike needs to hear. Mike’s telling Will that El doesn’t need him. Will knows that Mike wants to feel needed and the person who needs him most is Will. But that’s not what Will believes. He believes Mike wants El to need him so he uses her name while describing his own feelings because he thinks he’s lost any chance of Mike ever feeling the same about him. 

And for the third time I ask WHY WOULD THE WRITERS GIVE WILL ANY TYPE OF HOPE. It just seems silly to me that they’d make him suffer these feelings of unrequited love for no reason. I mean what is the point of the painting plot? We know in season 5 it’ll have to come up again. Mike is gonna figure out that El didn’t commission the painting. He’ll have to confront Will about it. If the writers wanted Will to come out to his best friend Mike then they really didn’t need to have a whole storyline drag over 2 seasons. I just don’t see how it makes any sense for the series to include all these scenes in season 4 as a way to confirm Wills love for Mike and not have Mike feel the same. What’s the point?

Sorry I am rambling and I don’t even know if this makes any sense. But if you read all of this thank you lol

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No way this is how friends look at each other

That someone would look at their friend like this

There is just NO WAY

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Hello! I got logged out of my old tumblr and I’ve been using this account just to scroll through tags but I feel like I have a bunch to yap about so I may start posting again. I’ve been rewatching stranger things and have been having byler brain rot again. I’ve been a fan since season 1 came out and started shipping byler in season 2. Feel free to ask my opinion/ask me questions about byler because I’m in a ranting mood. I also used to write fanfics for different fandoms but I’ve deleted most of them (I’m sure some are still out there). I’m thinking of writing again because I miss it so if anyone has any byler prompts maybe I can start writing some.