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I’m getting married! 😁

I honestly never thought I’d live long enough for this to happen. I never knew I’d be this happy. I just wanted to spread my joy, I love you all 💕

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Was just saying this the other day. Found online.

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Unless if you work in retail and have to use up a holiday to get Christmas Day off :/

Eugene gets me

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I always do these when I’m depressed, never when I’m happy? I guess I want to write what I’m sad about all the time. I gave up writing these, I’ve not done this in a long time, but just now I don’t know what else to do. I’ve got this feeling in me, where I’m depressed, anxious, stressed and more that I can’t even explain and I want to do something about it to get rid of it just now but I can’t, it’s not like there’s a special pill that’ll instantly get rid of everything I’m feeling and thinking. Everyone says exercising will help but that won’t help me instantly, I also don’t think it’ll help at all, I’ll still be stuck in my mind while I’m working out. Therapy? I’ve tried that but nothing, all you do is talk, nothing happens. The only reason I would go back is to be properly diagnosed because yeah sure I have depression and anxiety but I know there’s something else there but I don’t know what. I feel like it’s a mix of mild versions of paranoia, ocd, adhd, bipolar disorder, I’m not sure that’s why I want to get diagnosed. I want to label this feeling that I feel all the time. It’s hard for me to explain the feeling, I’m too dumb to come up with the words to describe it in its simplest form. I’m scared I’m going to try something again and it’ll work. I am suicidal but not like before, I want to die but I also want to see if I overcome this. This is the first time in my life I’ve felt like this, normally I just straight out want to die but there’s a little bit of hope I guess? I mean I’ve got 2/3 cats I want to stay alive for them, I’ve got a loving partner who I also want to stay alive for, I want to see the kind of life we create, part of me thinks that won’t happen because I’ll fuck it up, but I really hope not because he’s the only thing keeping me together. I tell him I’m I feel like shit when I do but nothing happens, we both don’t know how to fix it. I have so much to do and it’s like my mind has exhausted itself from screaming and has shut down. I’m not really good with this whole adult thing. How do people know what to do? I’m scared I’m going to fuck it up and in my mind I can’t let it fuck up or something bad will happen, idk what but I just have this feeling. I’ve not got much time and I need to start now but idk where to start, there’s so much!

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Forever reblog!!

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Luna had kittens. 2 boys, 3 girls. Figaro, Fagioli, Petunia, Tris and Pistachio ❤️

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Amazing video

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Riding back from Hershey Park and I saw this gem

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"Fuck your haram Salami!"

-Yasmin Aqeel- 2020

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Absolute mad lad

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     “Cats are cold, detached & unloving.”

     “Cats are not loyal.”

     “A cat will not greet you at the door.”

     “You can not train a cat”

     “Cats aren’t that smart.”

     “Cats aren’t that good with children.”

     “Cats don’t miss you when you’re gone.”

     “Cats don’t comfort you when you’re feeling down.”

What a load of crap !!!  One thing for certain… cats don’t give a rat’s ass what B.S. you tell about them. They refuse to care less, either about what you think of them, or about the people they love.

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I laughed out loud

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He was a wise man

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Hold up