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The job I work at, the client base is primarily people aged 60+ and man I'll never need to be reminded about my posture again. Also I'm told at least on a weekly basis that "getting old sucks", thanks dude I'll keep that in mind so I can stop my clock and the atrophies of life.

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busy days are actually the best. sure, you might be tired and stressed, but at least you weren't overthinking and feeling down all day.

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I find that my most inner self is something so horrid and untouchable I wish no one sees it. That's why I keep my friends an arms length away because I'm scared of what they'll really see and burn all the bridges.

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I wanna be able to sit down and explain every event in my life and how it's shaped me into the person I am, why I think and react the way I do, I want someone to fully understand every part of my life and see me for what I really am.

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Funfunfun times..

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Sometimes I sit here and wonder why my mind tortures itself. Like no, bad brain, let me exist here in peace and not have to suddenly worry if everyone secretly hates me or not. I don't have time for this shit I've got a job that I need to be doing right now.

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guess i’m just a burden

i’ll stop bothering you

you don’t care

i need to stop seeking your approval

i’ll never here the words i crave from you

“i’m proud of you”

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The right person will see what a mess you can be, how moody you can get, and how hard you can be to handle. but still wants you and will still choose you over everyone else.

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Better question, why am I looking for these new connections? I've been content in my loneliness for quite a while now, but now it bothers me.

Lately I've been trying really really hard trying to make new connections, especially with people that have similar interests. I find myself struggling because I made like 5 friends in middle school and never needed to develop those kinds of social skills. Like idk even know where to look, what the appropriate etiquette is, if I'm talking too much or too little. Talking is hard and overthinking comes naturally.

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losing appetite because you're sad is the worst feeling ever.

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Lately I've been trying really really hard trying to make new connections, especially with people that have similar interests. I find myself struggling because I made like 5 friends in middle school and never needed to develop those kinds of social skills. Like idk even know where to look, what the appropriate etiquette is, if I'm talking too much or too little. Talking is hard and overthinking comes naturally.

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Isn’t it amazing to find someone who matches your energy without being asked?

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Fuck sex. Can you deal with me when my anxiety kicks in & my depression takes over?

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Normally I've always cared little about daylight savings time other than the "ooh free sleep" part. This year my hatred of DST is in full swing. Fuck daylight savings time all my international homies hate it I get sent an hour backwards which means an hour less with them.

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keep in mind that you never know the last time you will see a place or a person so make sure to appreciate every moment.

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"oh you still use tumblr? can I see?" no. that's where I keep my demons