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i can't scroll tumblr recently because i follow too many people who are posting major ass spoilers for things i haven't caught up with and will likely not catch up with for a long time but here's yet another reminder that i'm alive and well and continuing to cook

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James Baldwin, from Another Country [ID'd]

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Murmur, Cameron Barnett

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It is rare indeed that people give. Most people guard and keep; they suppose that it is they themselves and what they identify with themselves that they are guarding and keeping, whereas what they are actually guarding and keeping is their system of reality and what they assume themselves to be. One can give nothing whatever without giving oneself ― that is to say, risking oneself. If one cannot risk oneself, then one is simply incapable of giving.

James Baldwin, The Fire Next Time

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you ever just feel so relieved. you ever just get up and take a lap and let out a big WHOOP and scare your dog. i'm griddying. i'm jumping up and clicking my heels together. tom bombadil-ing my ass around the room

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like everyone who has ever had it out for me or fucked me over in this life loses. you fucking lost. i'm still here. bitch!!

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once again marveling at the difference a change in perspective and circumstance makes. i used to spend my mornings begging on my knees for a crumb of satisfaction in the midst of my stupid little life or a merciful fucking end. this morning i was in the worst pain i've experienced in 14 years but it didn't matter. i have a home and my belly is full and my bills are paid and my friends *actually* love me. i went to a show on a whim last night and discovered my new favorite band. i kissed someone who goes out of their way to show me they care. i wouldn't trade this new life for anything goddamn

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Lady Silence

(and yes I redesigned Tuunbaq because I didn't much care for its show design)

some ~~bear insides~~ progress shots under the cut

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kissing him until he's wearing my lipstick is a luxury i did not know i was missing out on this whole time

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you notice wyll ravengard looking at you, what do you do?

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straight men are on something else

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Your 20s are not about anything and your 30s are not about anything and your 40s... also not about anything

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idk man i just really like being alive lately

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everyone hates orange until they actually see her in context. "oh it's such an ugly color, too bright!" look at sunsets and autumn, look at campfires and deserts. she's the most beautiful and special part of the scene. now apologize.

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