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Circles

I just feel like I’m going in circles.

Round and round and round

The same things every.other.day. What is the point of going in circles?

All we are doing is hurting each other.

You’re not happy, you assume that I’m not happy, I try to be “happy” but that just upsets you when I don’t seem happy. I don’t think I can even be happy anymore. I don’t think I can do the things you need me to be. Circling around the issues we have…. YOU said you wouldn’t be happy, if I was the thing that might actually make me feel better. How could you? How is that love? How is that acceptance? How could you, of all people, say that to me?

I deserve to be loved as I am. Even if I’m not quite sure if I’m there yet. I just want to be happy………don’t you?

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Human

Sometimes, the synapses in your nervous system go , “snap, snap, snap” creating a train of thought one after the other

It begins one day when you’re young

When you fall down and realize, “ ow that really hurt”

But did that hurt because I’m human or did it hurt because I’m in pain

Later on, you realize that that boy never really liked you, he just wanted someone to be around so that he wasn’t lonely

Did it hurt because you are human, or because it really hurt

One day in your early twenties, you wake up to a wall of messages of how she never wanted the life that you made for yourself

How she should be there for you, but she just can’t because you hurt her in ways that you could never imagine.

Does it hurt because you’re human, or because it truly hurts

You cry yourself to sleep, the snaps in your brain firing at light speed

One after the other

Birthday after birthday passes

New years fall and holidays ring out without a single call from home

Does it hurt because you’re human, or does it hurt because you know that even if it hurts you deep down, you can’t remedy this pain that you’ve created. You have no where to go with this pain, because in it you are alone.

Does it hurt? Does she feel the pain that you feel everyday? Does she understand what she has done to cause you this pain?

You’ll never truly know, because after all, the snaps will stop, the thought process will end and you’ll never feel the pain again. That’s being human.

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Born in February

Scared, Cold, Alone

Born in July

Tempered, Angry, Heart that’s Dry

Given everything up to make things right

Can’t even bother to try

Broken heart, drenched in tears

Gets high all the time to quench her fears

Broken love - broken home

Broken smile - broken bone

Freezing from the lack of touch

Burning from the flames of hatred’s guts

Born in February, all alone

Born in July - scared to go on

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I’m Scared

I’m never going to get better

I’m always going to be some form of disappointment

I’ll never do anything with my life

I’ll be forever stuck in a revolving door of fear, pain, and the need to know what dying might feel like

I can’t have normal days

I can’t seem to wake up and feel okay

I can’t even breathe right

Why does every day have to be the same?

Why can’t I just get better?

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How Do I Leave The Restaurant?

If I Can’t Drive

There Are No Available Ubers

I’m The One Who Has To Pay

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2023

1. COMMIT TO THE BIT

2. PARTAKE IN THE DIVINE ACT OF CREATION

3. LET THE SOFT ANIMAL THAT IS YOUR BODY LOVE WHAT IT LOVES

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F•R•I•E•N•D•S, The One with Phoebe’s Dad (S02E09)

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being in my 20s is like I understand more of my mother and less than i ever have. My childhood friends are strangers to me and there’s no one i know better. i want to drink wine. i never stopped wanting to climb trees. i know more than I’ve ever known before. I don’t know anything at all. i’m seven years old and sixteen and twenty nine and seventy. I can’t tell when i'm happy. I think the only thing that will make me happy is to be little again. i want to be really old. i go to the ocean and feel like nothing matters more than that. in my bedroom everything matters so much. I go to the grocery store every day. i know how to cook a lot of things but the only thing i know how to eat is fried eggs. I can take care of myself but i want to be taken care of. i want to go home and I don't know where that is. i think it may be somewhere inside of me but i’m not sure

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Praise kink? Do I have a praise kink? *Laughs* Sir, I was an honors student…Of course, I do.

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Are you fucking kidding me rn

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Me ready to do anything Mark says even if it’s super ominous because I know I’ll be apart of something he’s creating:

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Other fans: My content creator is amazing! I love them so much and would do anything for them!!!!

Markiplier fans: 138 reasons I want to fight Mark in a back alley, the novel

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😏 *tucks hair behind ear*

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Gawd damn right

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Some of you are severely missing the point of Stray.

Stray is a game about the human condition and what it means to be alive, and more specifically to be human. Especially in a world where there are no humans left.

Sure, the game could be about a robot becoming more and more sentient as time goes on, but that's exactly what all of the robots have been doing for thousands of years. Why would 5 hours make any difference?

No. This game was a commentary on humans as a species. All of us. And it had to be done with no humans around else they have Opinions.

Stray is about the hubris of man. Humanity was killed by disease that the rich did nothing about. Then, a select few rose into power and controlled everyone else. It's about what it means to be alive, as we watch these very non-human robots gain sentience and learn to be their own people.

Yes, they are very simplistic, but that's because they're in the very early states of becoming human themselves.

They don't have high intelligence yet since they're just living off of what humans left behind.

They are starting to develop their own culture based heavily on human's.

They made their own language composed of the broken fragments of human's languages!

They're "simplistic" because they're still learning. And you know what? That's what humans do. We learn, grow, and develop. And now without humans around, these robots can do that themselves.

And that's why you play as a cat.

Cats are very intelligent. Clearly, they managed to live FAR longer than humans did (which yeah, I fully believe that), and have learned to live just fine lives on their own. But, they're also alive. They've been alive and evolving far longer than any of the robots have been.

Our cat (Stray or Ginger, whichever) is the only one able to save them because they understand what it means to be alive and to be "human." Cats are social creatures. This cat made it by helping others and being friendly. That's a human trait.

It had to be a cat for how small and nimble they are, but also how smart they are. It couldn't be a dog since they're heavier and rely too much on people (at least now). Couldn't be a mouse because that's too small and underdeveloped of a mind. Can't be a bird since it would just fly out.

Stray/Ginger is uniquely fit to do this because they're a cat.

The robots are copying human behavior. They said that themselves. So, that means learning and evolving over time. They will rise from our ashes, in due time.

But our little furry companion has had millions of years on them. And so they are able to spread that message about love and freedom to them from experience.

When B-12 passed away, and Stray/Ginger curled up next to them? That's a sign of love. That's a sign of compassion and companionship. It's a sign of love.

It's a sign of this cat's humanity.

THAT is what Stray is about.

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I just have one tiny tweak I wanna make to that last scene. Otherwise no notes, A+ game.