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I wonder if all the truly horrible people know how much they are hurting the ones around them.

Similarly yet oppositely I do wonder if the good ones know that they have left such a positive note for someone to carry their day on with.

The interaction that could have either made the day or ruined it and all that determines it is a chance that either you would meet heaven or hell material.

But more than that I am really curious if these people care about the damage they inflict upon you or is that part of their brains numbed by their own personal demons. Or if the good people think about how much the people they meet are going to thank God about their interaction. Thank God for the single interaction.

But that's it isn't it. We are always going to keep the good ones in our heart and carry them forwards with us while we try to forget the terrible ones and leave them as far behind as possible.

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SHIT

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Supernatural or superstitious

We think that if you do something good to others something good will happen to to you, such a feel good concept that is, karma. As if the universe cares about what you do and how it will make others feel. The concept of God although a beautiful one has just been devised to make sure humans always have someone to blame.

Do we really think that someone is waiting, watching from above looking out for us, looking at us, one who considers all of us his children but will also judge us when the time comes. If God really cared would he not just help everybody the same, give them the same starting point. Why would he waste his time giving us the advice that he knows we aren't going to follow. Even if we did follow it and the other person does not respond to it as we would have thought of. who is in the real wrong us or them.

We as a species need to face it, face facts, there is no one above there. Its all empty. No one but you is responsible for the action that you choose to take, or ignore. Only you are accountable for what you do and no one else is.

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Smooth Saturday 11-9-21

Well loosing at badminton sucks. Only won a single game out of three today. Downloaded Pokemon go so played that,(it's not old it's called vintage now). Expectations are the thief of joy. We wait all the week because the weekend is almost here and when it's here, nothing.

We just sit on our butts and complain about how everything is not how you imagined it would be. It's not always about seizing the opportunity it's about creating one for yourself too. Gold won't just come to the surface for you to pick and go about your day. You need to mine for it work for it. Don't build up expectations unless you can meet them otherwise you're only disappointing yourself.

That in short is what I learnt from Pokemon Go. Jk but I do believe in that.

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Thursday - 9/9/21

Alright so talked to the ex-best friend I had mentioned let's call her Lily (fake name obviously) so she messaged me saying how she missed that closeness we had and she was wondering about whatever happened to us.

So for context how both of us actually fell apart was because it was really just a one sided friendship, I knew everything about her for a to z and she was just too self involved I don't think it occured once to ask anyone else anything simple like, "how is your day?" Or even anything basic as that.

Before that when we first met I actually had a crush on her I really liked her and even though I did I wasn't sure I actually wanted to date her because of said reasons. Regarding this fact I decided to confess it to her with the thought in mind that I didn't want to be dating and so I did. I can't explain how bland of a response she gave the response also convinced me that we weren't ready for each other, she wanted flings and I wanted a relationship.

Alongside that the conversation we had were really one sided basically just me initiating contact and asking her how she was, what was she doing and other things which are supposed to induce conversation from both sides but here it just elicited a dry response or ended with her launching into a story of how she had been wronged by her friends.

After that I saw she lacked the maturity needed and just started to ghost her, talking to her had just started to drain me emotionally and physically, I hadn't told anyone this fact and just shyed away from it.

After a good three weeks of not being in contact she messaged me and asked why don't I talk to her anymore, I reminded her that she could also have texted me and she just said that she had been busy and everything. But mainly the conversation had been very limited. I had learnt how to keep people at a certain distance.

She told me how she had found a new fling and she was very happy (remember that I had not gotten over the crush I had on her) and her new fling was not her boyfriend and just a fling, she did all the couple stuff with him (ALL) without giving him the boyfriend status. I was just done with this lady and just did not comment I said I was happy for her and just left it at that.

Two months later that is today she texted me saying that she was thinking about us and how she wants to be friends again and how I don't text her now. I just said how did you so suddenly remember me and Lily said that she was talking to her (still) fling about the guys who had crushed on her before and my name came upa nd she missed me. I gotta say even though I just straight up wanted to leave and not look back I faltered. I genuinely thought I should give her another chance.

So I just said, "Lily I am here, I have been here,I never left, it was you who stopped texting."

She just ignored the part where she didn't text me and launched into another story about something I can't even recall rn.

To the people who are reading this I would love suggestions and any at all help that I could get so just comment or message me if the comments don't work (new at this...) And thanks!!

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I in general have a very chaotic life, it's almost as ridiculous as though it were a tv show I shit you not. It's not to brag after some time it just sucks the life and soul out of you.

Let's start from the beginning, well the beginning of this week.

Sunday

I fell sick(not covid) and because if that everything hurts and since I am a teenager now we don't get the same treatment as we did when we were children, we still gotta do our school work and just our chores in general.

Monday

I honestly love Mondays now because of my timetable I only have an hour and a half of school in the morning and that is just so relaxing to wake up to the real kicker is when I have to attend 3 hours of classes from 5 to 8pm. But besides that I've taken part in a school event that would require me to attend group meetings another 2 hours at times. That's just insane. So Monday not a treat anymore.

Tuesday

Well Tuesday was spent in productive things I studied and after a lot of consideration I decided to start a blog, where? I don't know let's think.

Wednesday

I remember it as though it was yesterday. It was such a long dreadful day I can't even. I had to create something for the event that I had mentioned above and honestly I hated what I had made I myself did not like it and was thinking how much others would hate it, apparently they only had a problem with the options I had put up so I'm gonna revamp the whole thing. Making a 20 minutes long project into 2 hours long yeah that sounds like me...

Whilst it's Thursday today I'll update the blog tomorrow you should rejoin today I have to confront one of my ex-best friends who just messaged me that she wants to be "how close we were before." I'll also update why we are now ex-friends.